u/biggobcantstop

Hi,

I take 100mg of Seroquel for mild depression and it works really well, I’ve been depression free for almost one year. The depression actually lifted at 25mg however I had the dose slowly increased to address anxiety which it hasn’t helped with so much.
Is any one else a quetiapine super-responder?

Conventional antidepressants didn’t work for me at all ie SSRIs and mirtazapine. I think I might have Cyclothymia or even hyperthymia + depression , although I am not a 100% sure of myself, that is a total self diagnoses, my good mood isn’t episodic, it’s seems consistent. Medical professionals give me the feedback that my speech seems pressured. my perceptions are altered so that music and colour seem very beautiful. I have energy.

The sad thing is I forgot this part of myself. I hated how I felt but didn’t explicitly realise I was depressed

Does anyone else have the kind of depression whereby it primarily expresses its self as low energy/ motivation. The doctor diagnosed me with mixed anxiety and depression but it went on for a few years. It felt like a moral failure, if only I tried harder.

I am a massive joke.

I skipped sleep last night almost entirely because I want to moodmax. I used to have a substance problem, this is an extension of it.

I am intentionally and deliberately harming my mental health perusing the best mood possible.

I am not doing this for medical attention… my GP has no idea.

I discovered that my brain could do this through taking antidepressants. As far as I am aware it has never come about outside of antidepressant use and intentional sleep deprivation.

I can do this because the worst consequences probably are getting argumentative and being too dominant.

Although I haven’t been to the doctor, I assume I don’t have catatonia. Just assume I don’t. I am able to carry out all my ADL and speak just fine. I regularly suffer from hypochondria, my other favourite illness to worry about is hypomania/ bipolar. There’s no good reason to think I definitely have that either. I do factually have BPD and ADHD. I think what’s happening is the symptoms from these conditions can be on basic level confused.

When I sit down I worry I cannot move and sit very still I get kind of stuck but not really if I make the movement suddenly.

How do I stop convincing myself I may have serious mental illness when I don’t as back by GPs and psychiatrists.

I don’t have a diagnosis of bipolar. However I do think that their medication is causing progressive changes to my brain that could result in serious mental illness. The medication gives me highs I didn’t experience in the past. The ‘highs’ manifest as increased musical appreciation, intense colours, extra energy, creativity, talkativeness, extra creativity, difficulty sitting still or waiting my turn. I don’t remember ever experiencing these things in constellation intensely with each other before the age of 22 and it’s always triggered by psychiatric mediations

I keeping trying to convince myself it’s not a bad thing because it doesn’t really cause me that many practical problems. What can I know I am not a doctor is a favourite line.
What I do know is that the doctors gaslight me and think I am lying about everything. My simple truth is this isn’t my BPD/EUPD because i wasn’t like this at all before the age of 22 and it triggered by medication.
I am addicted to my psych meds.

The news papers allege that it’s gone on for years but why’s it taken so long for the police to take action?

I was diagnosed with social anxiety then I was diagnosed with EUPD then I was diagnosis with depression then I was diagnosed with autism then I was diagnose with depression & anxiety then I was diagnosed with ADHD and then I was diagnosed with CPTSD.

And now I diagnose myself as being confused as hell.

I trialled 6 different antidepressants. They either made me much worse or did nothing at all.

I trialled methylphenidate which felt like a downer and not an upper for me and then elvanse which had my friends worrying that I was hypomanic.

The GP randomly prescribed me quetiapine.

I did have chronic low mood, the quetiapine made it much better, I’ve been better for the last 6 + months.

But now, fairly consistently:

- I struggle to sit still or wait my turn
- I am impulsive and I struggle to manage my behaviour
- I blurt things out
- I struggle to switch my mind off at night
- I make lots of mistakes
- I tell people off when I’d normally let it slide.

I don’t know where to go from here. Part of me thinks I should just forget it because ADHD meds don’t work for me. I can kind of see that my impulse control issues make it hard for me to stay out of low level trouble. DON’T look a gift horse in the mouth.

I’ve been experiencing:
- S/H urges at night
- anxiety
- impulsivity
- difficulty sustaining sleep
- difficulty sitting still

I have EUPD/ BPD & autism. Should I see my GP about this? This is a change from my baseline.

I already see a therapist privately.
The GP prescribes me 100mg quetiapine/ day.

I don’t want to stop taking quetiapine. My energy levels have increased consistently since starting it 6 months ago. I am a lot more functional on it. I’ve trialed many antidepressants, they either just didn’t work or made things worse.

I have been under secondary care in the past. However, I am a- more functional than when I was discharged from secondary care
b- it took 10 months to get an appointment with a psychiatrist even though my symptoms where really bad and impacting my life a lot. If I am under the cmht the GP is much less likely to adjust my medication.
c- in the past they didn’t want to prescribe quetiapine because apparently it can be addictive. I don’t believe I am addicted to quetiapine however it makes a big difference to my quality of life and I do not wish to stop taking it.

How bad is this?
I sent my PIP review form off today... It’s due today.

Is there a buffer period? Do I need to ring the DWP tomorrow?
I’ve been struggling with my mental health. It took me ages to send because I worried I had accidentally written embarrassing lies about myself in the PIP form.

Hi,

For the last 8 months I have been taking 100mg of quetiapine at night. I take no other medications.

It was prescribed to me for sleep. It no longer seems to help my sleep, however I’ve continued to take it because since day 2 it has helped my mood. More specifically it has increased my energy/ activity levels and allows me to connect with gratitude/ beauty more.

I get no side effects.

I doubt I was actually clinically as in DSM depressed. I didn’t have that many symptoms just difficulty motivating myself/ low energy levels.

My diagnosis is EUPD/BPD + mixed anxiety and depression + ASD.

I’ve also been trialed on sertraline, mirtazapine, fluoxetine, trazodone and escitalopram which don’t work for me.

Should I continue taking quetiapine for these purposes?