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i’ve only just finished s2e1 but my god is amy abbott annoying. she’s the worst character, like, ever. she’s grieving okay, but so is everyone else? what about colin’s parents, bright, who was colin’s best friend AND has to live with the guilt of that day. her grieving isn’t enough of an excuse for her fuckass behaviour bcs ephram is a teenager too. he too lost his mom and he isn’t being so selfish with everyone (let’s not talk abt his relationship with his dad for a sec). she hasn’t once offered an ounce of empathy or support when it comes to his mom.

she only befriended him to get him to convince his dad to operate on colin and now, ever so conveniently, hates dr brown for not saving him. what did she want? colin to be alive but just so slightly? she wanted him to stay on the vent forever? wtf she’s so selfish man her parents did a god awful job at raising her. i am yet to see one good thing she did for anyone (other than colin and that’s not okay). bright is so much better. at least he’s empathetic.

anyways, she’s making the show so unbearable for me, even though i love like every other character.

Alhamdulillah omg!!! this means graduate acceptances are rolling outtt now

i made two best friends in uni, sarah and zoey. before graduating, zoey and i had a falling out which massively impacted our overlapping social circles. sarah and zoey met through me so they were never close.

sarah also has other friends, some childhood friends and some from uni. one of her childhood best friends, amanda, also became a good friend of mine (she was also in uni with us). during this time, zoey made new friends too, specifically a guy named aaron. for other reasons, zoey’s friends do not like amanda, sarah, their uni friends, and vice verse.

now sarah had a bf named sam, they’d been together for the past 3 years. he’d lie to her, manipulate her, and it was just a very toxic on and off relationship since the beginning. in fact, we think he was only in it for the sex. none of us ever liked sam but sarah could never find the courage to leave, probably bcs he was her first everything. we’d advise sarah to leave, but in the end she’d always go back to him.

around 3 weeks ago, sam and sarah met after nearly 8 weeks. he told her he was getting married off (???) and that he’s cheated on her multiple times. when she started crying, he literally said it was a joke, but he broke off the relationship nonetheless. sarah hasn’t updated me ever since but i think they’ve patched up.

now during all of this, zoey and i also started reconciling. a few hours ago, i had zoey and aaron over and they dropped a huge bomb on me. aaron’s best friend is very good friends with sam. he knows sam inside out. sam’s apparently been in a relationship with a girl from another uni nearby for the past 6 years (or more). he knocked the girl up twice, and she had no choice but to abort. he’d also brag to everyone about how he had so many side chicks. he’d show everyone his conversations with sarah, and brag about how she was dying for him. all the while, this POS was straight up ghosting her and lying to her.

the biggest bomb? he’s been married to his ‘girlfriend’ since DECEMBER. it’s literally JUNE now. i was in shock. i literally had to sit down to digest what i’d heard. he even showed proof. i asked him if i could tell sarah but he told me not to. 

i’m so confused idk what to do now. if i tell sarah, she will end up confronting sam, and he’ll for sure confront aaron bcs apparently only very close friends know abt this secret marriage. zoey told me people have alerted sarah about his cheating antics before and she ignored everything. im also worried that sam would just end up manipulating sarah and convince her we’re all lying. to make matters worse, amanda and sarah already don’t get along with aaron or any of zoey’s other friends, so sam can very easily manipulate the whole situation. i’m in such a sticky position. i don’t feel like this is my information to share, but i feel so guilty and if i were her i’d have liked to know.

can you feel nostalgic for a place you’ve never visited? i was born in 2002, so 9/11 was before i was born. im not even from the usa, let alone nyc, but ive known about the WTC/twin towers since i was a kid. 9/11 feels so eerie and haunting to me. my heart breaks every time i think of the victims.

but on top of that, im always overcome with immense nostalgia when thinking of the towers.

LUMS is scheduling written assessments with the interviews. does anyone know what they are 😭

when do they come out i’m sick of waiting

i’m pakistani so we have a lot of south asian food and south asians sure love their onions. bcs im pakistani, there’s also loads of parties, get togethers, dinners, you get the idea. anyways, whenever i’m visiting someone and they serve food, i literally start sweating bcs ik smth’s gonna have onions in it and i do NOT want to look rude by refusing to eat (we’re big on manners and people pleasing here)

i actually physically cannot eat anything that’s been ever near an onion. i hate the taste, the smell and the texture, and for whatever goddamn reason everyone has to add them to everything. WHAT THE HELL DO I DO. i can manage when my mom cooks for me or when i cook myself bcs i can simply leave them out or have them pureed to nothingness, but i seriously cannot eat out or at anyone’s home bcs of this.