u/bravest-toaster67

Most people don’t understand me I feel. I’m awkward and shy, very quiet in person. I’m not the most talkative at first, but once you get to know me and I’m comfortable with you, I will rant on and on about the smallest things. I am very introverted and Into very nerdy things. I love Star Wars and anything scifi, a big fan of anime, video games, music, magic the gathering, dungeons and dragons, and building gundams. I’m a teddy bear and very loyal, and I love being affectionate.
I have BPD and autism, and attach very quickly and intensely. If I like you, you will become my favorite person very fast. I will start to obsess over you, so be warned lol
If you’re interested, shoot me a message and let’s get to know each other!

Most people don’t understand me I feel. I’m awkward and shy, very quiet in person. I’m not the most talkative at first, but once you get to know me and I’m comfortable with you, I will rant on and on about the smallest things. I am very introverted and Into very nerdy things. I love Star Wars and anything scifi, a big fan of anime, video games, music, magic the gathering, dungeons and dragons, and building gundams. I’m a teddy bear and very loyal, and I love being affectionate.
I have BPD and autism, and attach very quickly and intensely. If I like you, you will become my favorite person very fast. I will start to obsess over you, so be warned lol
If you’re interested, shoot me a message and let’s get to know each other!

Most people don’t understand me I feel. I’m awkward and shy, very quiet in person. I’m not the most talkative at first, but once you get to know me and I’m comfortable with you, I will rant on and on about the smallest things. I am very introverted and Into very nerdy things. I love Star Wars and anything scifi, a big fan of anime, video games, music, magic the gathering, dungeons and dragons, and building gundams. I’m a teddy bear and very loyal, and I love being affectionate.
I have BPD and autism, and attach very quickly and intensely. If I like you, you will become my favorite person very fast. I will start to obsess over you, so be warned lol
If you’re interested, shoot me a message and let’s get to know each other!

I am tired of not having anyone to share my mind with, someone to laugh with, flirt back and forth with, send memes to, listen to music with, etc. I miss being special to someone and I miss treating my person like my entire world. I want to obsess over you and you obsess over me.
A little about me, I am a huge anime fan. I’m also really into video games, music, scifi, horror, magic the gathering, dungeons and dragons, and Gundam!
If you’d like to chat and get to know each other, please message me

I am a man with BPD (borderline personality disorder). BPD is a disorder basically brought on by trauma, usually from childhood. For me, it shows itself in multiple episodes throughout the day of rapid mood fluctuations. I’ll go from feeling fine to feeling angry, to feeling sad, to feeling happy, to feeling enraged again, to feeling morose, all within one hour. It’s draining.
It’s mentally exhausting going through these fluctuations to the point where when I’m not having an episode, i disassociate. When I disassociate, I’m not present so I’m not a joy to talk to or be around. And that leads to where I am now, my friends abandoning me and now I have no one to talk to or be there for me. I’m too much. And I get it. I feel mentally broken or like I’m a burden.
And I know everyone’s answer, “go to therapy.” I am. I have a therapist I see regularly. The problem is, treatment is a process and I really am trying. But I feel like no one can see the progress I make. No one cares to see the steps I’ve taken to better myself. And it’s crushing. I hate feeling this way, that no matter how much I try, I’m never good enough. It’s constant failure after failure.
No one sees me. It’s like I’m treading in water that’s at my neck. And I have the keys in my hand. I just wish I could feel seen and supported by someone for once.

I am a man with BPD (borderline personality disorder). BPD is a disorder basically brought on by trauma, usually from childhood. For me, it shows itself in multiple episodes throughout the day of rapid mood fluctuations. I’ll go from feeling fine to feeling angry, to feeling sad, to feeling happy, to feeling enraged again, to feeling morose, all within one hour. It’s draining.
It’s mentally exhausting going through these fluctuations to the point where when I’m not having an episode, i disassociate. When I disassociate, I’m not present so I’m not a joy to talk to or be around. And that leads to where I am now, my friends abandoning me and now I have no one to talk to or be there for me. I’m too much. And I get it. I feel mentally broken or like I’m a burden.
And I know everyone’s answer, “go to therapy.” I am. I have a therapist I see regularly. The problem is, treatment is a process and I really am trying. But I feel like no one can see the progress I make. No one cares to see the steps I’ve taken to better myself. And it’s crushing. I hate feeling this way, that no matter how much I try, I’m never good enough. It’s constant failure after failure.
No one sees me. It’s like I’m treading in water that’s at my neck. And I have the keys in my hand. I just wish I could feel seen and supported by someone for once.

I am a man with BPD (borderline personality disorder). BPD is a disorder basically brought on by trauma, usually from childhood. For me, it shows itself in multiple episodes throughout the day of rapid mood fluctuations. I’ll go from feeling fine to feeling angry, to feeling sad, to feeling happy, to feeling enraged again, to feeling morose, all within one hour. It’s draining.
It’s mentally exhausting going through these fluctuations to the point where when I’m not having an episode, i disassociate. When I disassociate, I’m not present so I’m not a joy to talk to or be around. And that leads to where I am now, my friends abandoning me and now I have no one to talk to or be there for me. I’m too much. And I get it. I feel mentally broken or like I’m a burden.
And I know everyone’s answer, “go to therapy.” I am. I have a therapist I see regularly. The problem is, treatment is a process and I really am trying. But I feel like no one can see the progress I make. No one cares to see the steps I’ve taken to better myself. And it’s crushing. I hate feeling this way, that no matter how much I try, I’m never good enough. It’s constant failure after failure.
No one sees me. It’s like I’m treading in water that’s at my neck. And I have the keys in my hand. I just wish I could feel seen and supported by someone for once.

I have a hard time sometimes because of trauma and things I’ve been through. I have BPD and fear being abandoned. That being said, I will be loyal and loving always. I grow attached very quickly, easily, and strongly, and may develop feelings fast. My sense of humor is out there, and I am not for everyone. But I will do my best to make you smile always.
Let’s talk about anything. Life, memes, interests and hobbies. Vent to me, let me vent to you. I love anime, video games, music (I play guitar and write lyrics daily), magic the gathering, and dungeons and anything else nerdy.

Feel free to message me if you’d like to chat!!

What are some I should check out? I’ve seen evangelion, death note, demon slayer, berserk, and now the first season of jojos. I enjoy action, but moreso I look for a good story

I’m watching Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure for the first time, and I’m loving it! But I’d love to chat with someone while watching. We can talk about anime, or anything else. I’m also into video games, music, writing, playing guitar, magic the gathering, dungeons and dragons, anything nerdy really.
I don’t have a lot of friends or people in my life in general, and I get attached very easily. So once we find things we have in common, I may become obsessed pretty quickly. I also do have BPD and autism, so socializing doesn’t come easy for me. Be patient with me and don’t mind my…weird quirkiness lol. I am a lovable and loyal sweet teddy bear, I just haven’t been given many fair chances in life so far.
Message me if you’d like to chat!