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caught my (21F) now ex bf (24M) cheating on me in july. i left in the middle of the night and sent him a "we're done". it didnt last long and we reconcilled. i broke up with him yesterday and just moved all my stuff out of his apartment today. when i was with him again i was paranoid. i couldn't sleep and i lost over 10 pounds. i was constantly at war with myself. digging for evidence of him doing it again. he started clearing his notifications and when i asked him about why he was like "i want my phone to be neat" even though he never did it before. my alarm bells went off and i went for a walk before i had a moment of thinking "man what the hell am i doing" and i came back and took what i needed for work the next day and just left. he sent me some passive aggressive texts while i was driving and i just told him its over and i cant do this. he changed his tune immediately and started begging for me back but i stayed firm. i dont think ive ever cried this much in my life. im so sad and miserable without him. all i want is to run back and be in his arms but i cant and i wont. i need to put myself first and being with him is extremely hard on my mental health. i wish i could just feel better or turn off my emotions. i hate being sad. i miss him so much. my heart is completely shattered and i just want him to glue it back together.

i was in a relationshio for around 6 months when my partner cheated on me. we have decided to give it another shot. during the first 6 months of the relationship, my bpd symptoms were little to none. now im spiraling out of control. im analyzing everything he is saying and doing. i cant stop myself from checking every inch of his phone for proof out of paranoia. im in a horrible push pull/hot cold cycle and i feel like its pushing him away. i cannot escape from my mind. i dont know what to do. im so lost. i hate feeling like this. im constantly absorbed by my anxiety. i havent had a bpd flare up this bad for over 2 years and i am miserable. any advice?

my (21F) bf (24M) cheated on me.

we ended up talking it out and have decided to give it one more try.

i am really struggling though. ive tried sleeping over at his a few times and i cant. im riddled with anxiety and tend to go through his phone nonstop. when i do manage to fall asleep i have nightmares.

i randomly get hit with waves of sadness and anxiety when we are together and get quiet. he is really remorseful, but im struggling to just let it go and forgive.

has anyone reconciled with a cheating partner and made it work? does the trust ever come back fully?

tbh im sort of a mess but also sort of not?

i caught my bf cheating on me a few days ago and packed up all my stuff and left in the middle of the night and blocked him.

since then hes had a revolving door of girls and is on every dating platform known to mankind. we had a talk today and he told me we weren't sexually compatible and deflected the fact that he cheated.

it just kills me that hes like perfectly fine and ok. not trying to make things ok between us. hes just relieved its over. it hurts knowing hes ok with us never seeing each other again.

ive been ok but im extremely anxious all the time, constantly stalking him on social media. i know its not healthy but i cant stop.

i just cant believe i wasted my time on a loser who never cared about me in the first place. i wish i had never met him.

i wish i just forgot about him all together. i know time heals all but i need time to hurry up lol. i hate feeling sad and empty and confused.

hi, idk where to start but ill just dump.

my bf (24M) and i (21F) have been dating for exactly 6 months as of today. my bf works all day and in the hot sun so i wasnt exactly expecting him to get anything for me bc he always comes back from work exhausted, but i got him some of his favorite snacks and a card and a little plushie to celebrate our anniversary. he didnt notice it for a while but when he did he kissed me and said thank you and said he felt bad bc he thought it was the day before our anniversary, not the day of.

even tho i understood bc hes been working a lot it still just kinda felt bad internally bc a part of me wished he would have remembered and gotten me something on the way home from work (didnt have to be big, but just like something thoughtful idk).

soon after he showered he went and sat down at his computer which he does every night as i laid in bed and watched youtube videos for like an hour. usually, he'll get into a call with his friends and play games with them for a few hours but like he just sat in silence and watched youtube (even tho he couldve been doing that in bed with me?)

i asked him to come hang out with me and he came over and laid on me for a bit before he got back up to go sit as his computer and watch more videos bc its "not the same"

he just left a few minutes ago to go get a new vape and some food for himself and a part of me is hoping he'll get me something small on his way but idk if he will and i feel like im just getting my hopes up.

tmi: we also havent had sex in over a week (we usually have sex everyday) and idk if im being paranoid or what but ive been thinking abt it and i feel like for the past 2 weeks ish ive been the only one initiating sex so when i stopped our sex life just kinda died. i get hes tired from work all the time but like he has time for hours at night to play games with his friends.

these past few days ive just kinda been off myself (not really sure why) but ive been quieter and kinda in a bad mood so idk if he can feel my energy or just like if im reacting to his distant energy (if its even distant, i cant tell if im overthinking and looking too much into things or not).

so ig my question is... what do i do? do i do anything? do i talk to him abt it? am i overthinking or expecting too much? i want an outside pov on this bc im so caught up in emotions i cant tell if im thinking clearly or if im like trying to find issues in the relationship that arent there.

tldr: my bf forgot our anniversary and isnt spending time with me. im an emotional mess and i cant tell if im looking too deep into things in my relationship or not.