u/couldabeendead

( TW )Caring for my Oldman isn't a walk in park but reading some U guys other story's ,I'm fukin blessed , been bumping our PTSD heads and not getting along for a while , made job bit shitty for while but I'm not here too complain, just thought I'd share one of dad's story's I herd (only after alot of drinks, max beverage) lol ,crusing along in an old ford galaxy, he come across a vehicle gone thru a fence , not sure were this happend, he being ,helpful Harry, jumped out too offer assistance, to find the fence wire diddnt snap , rather the fence post did,wire staying connected sumhow the post come up over bonnet thru windscreen , into and threw this guys Guts & carseat, the victom was still alive too ask dad too pass on msg too his family ... So My joining Reddit was originally about sharing my car trauma story incase it could help sum1 not get in a car with a stand over or dickhead, a friend lol or just drunk idiot in general , now think IV found maybe that's not my story, were still alive.... Me Nd my mate, although im traumatized too this day and we both in pain ,it's dad's experience maybe, my father, many years/ car accidents him self ahead in time, and whitnezz so much of my destruction over time ,...STILL LIVES ON !!!! ,what ever ya seen or been through ,stay strong I say take time and care for ya self at the very least !!! ,coming on 72 years old and strong as ox , can ride a motey 400 K In , good time. Machine of a bloke, I owe my life too. Has issues with resentment too a carer, and mine with anger , I think even within writing this now 37 yr old , 3 year in , struggling as fuck carer me, just had a lerning moment, I been looking for what little support I need within this role , in the wrong area , I in no way ! deserve sympathy nor support from this father of mine , who I also ,nearly put thru the same shit .. AGAIN ,we been so shut off from the "father son" thing, now realise that bit is my issue, thinking I'd done some wrong within carer role or (us) (since), been causing chaos in my head , think I'm now at heart with the fact I shoulda listened too ya that day dad ... ,and I understand why I didn't have a father rock up saying "glad U alive" , but " I told you not too" ... This poor man went thru 2 fence him self , putting food on table too help us and dropping me too employment . Diddnt even cross my mind till now , carer role got so full on ,trying too reclaim something, I thought we were missing , turns out it wasent missing , just diskised ,I think by his own traumas pushing me away ,no wonder , been so stupid, I NOW GET IT , THIS TOOK ALONG TIME GUYS , things been tense.. but it's time too add some comfort back too this blokes life ... I don't deserve such a great dad ... I will do right by you, and US ,no matter what it takes dad .. I know I inherdited ya strength . And I'm Gunna start using it for the better .. 🫡

After having forgiven X crack head for letting 2 sawn off shots at ya, same day he went on rampage flipped his ute then stole the emergency workers who come save him at knife point , a Drunken forgetting over speed beeper ,distraction is a thing ,with in a look down and wheel just off road when old mate said , you wanna keep that on the road bro , always been over correcter so was trying too save it , but slip had started, crashed at 210, slides thru ALOT of fence and 1 rotten tree too loop loop loop too back of padok survived, barley scratch , car different story..avoid prison,. then same passanger 6 month later , tyre roll off rim flip Toyota twice when a slide in our beach bus turned 3 bottle moonshine deep , in a blink lost passanger, bit of a need for edrenelan ,so being first roll ever , was nearly fun show ride style till looked next too me after car stopped short of bitumen deep in bushes , coulda been 3 days b4 a passer by noticed, mates bit of a joker and I'm addmitinly in shock wondered if he hiding bout too scare me and laugh like usual lol , was a daunting look under car, run about screaming RYAN , 2 MTR in to thick scrub were car landed , looked dead slightly visable thru sticks and dust all over , this machine of a man woke apon a verry stressed me , about too attempt CPR waiting for ambo called using phone I accidentally grabbed, (dads) after Dobbin me self in too get him help . Was surprised too see my father arrive in hell anger , (ambo tried call back) my phone at home still , so they able too notify dad thru calling wrong number back ... t4 to t7 broken back , WALKED NEXT DAY .. woke in hospital bed next too me flippen out at nurses after being disturbed by covid sounding couch next room away .. was asked if I could handle bed nexto Ryan , yep too easy , hell was I wrong , with sum shot of endone or sum pain killer he had breathing echo or murmer , probly my paranoia now I think about it, woke up in er, too ask what happend bro? Whispering sorta hung over tone we usually chat with if (wounded) told him , he's response (well ya still can't drive for shit bro) bit of a giggle and out cold, tell ya every snore breath , was in my head my killing of this bloke nope , out in a day , wrote me a victim impact statement too help avoid prison , FUKIN DID and now reformed L plater after 15 yr driving drunk and unlicensed... Although working on my traumas finding more I didn't know I had daily , I say hold ya chin up ,ya gotta be a cold hearted fucker too Handle sum shit in this world ... We joked and said we about even now days , with Oldmates little ride down road on his motey few weeks ago causing this , I think we in no way even , had these injury all his life , and this being his current state in hospital after ford ranger crushed him and bike , your a lord too me Ryan ,I have alot too lern in life , with sum narcism learning from caring for elderly dad atm , ... Notice he's asking me (loopy) if I'm ok ??? Blows my mind what moving too a small country beach area can send a person's way , everybodys experience would be different, thought about the sawn off in the moment in sence of , can I work it into story if he's dead , contemplating running into scrub and going mental ran too a close by mates house , too realise wrong corner and still 5 K down road , and mate dying in bush so ran back ... I did the rite thing tho basically with my blah blah wanna stay outa jail shit and having ambo driver tell me , quickest way too get him help is too shut it , get in that ambo and leave , I did ... Well people this was a blessing in a Hell of a diskise, MRI showed I have Brain cyst 4 cm not growing Nd since birth apparently, now learning punished all my life for what could be said as symptoms , learning way too stay off grog and want better everyday , pulled wreck appart payed for the commy , brothers for life ob I mean it and I'm fixing the holes I punched in walls TODAY , BFC LOCAL , breed them strong down here in the south east of south Australia ... Take ya time guys, IV lost driving skills while getting L plates lol work that out ..feel I could be able too help people and pretty much this story is reason I joined Reddit, g'day bros, names mick too family , Gunna try being that little more I think ... Life's too short forgive and let live , needa practice wat I preach ... Pece out ,go cook me dad brecky now , cos I probly traumatized the poor old fella who worked hard all his life too help me, and dad I'm so sorry about of late I been so fucking rude as your son not carer, just know I'm getting back there in my own mind too help you how ever I can , fuck it Michael Corbin is my name , and would U believe , thats a g'day from 15 yr plus no social media at all ... I am me , I own every flaw , I will be ok and so will you... xoxo that's right CORBO loud and proud, add photos soon to this if possible