Finn, Ferguson & I are celebrating good news!☀️💚

Finn, Ferguson & I are celebrating good news!☀️💚

Finn, Ferguson and I are enjoying the beautiful weather!! Feeling very grateful today. I’m chronically ill and my biologic medication that my insurance has been denying for 2 years was finally approved today. I feel so incredibly relieved & like a huge weight has been lifted off my of my shoulders. My ESSAs are here through thick and thin! Through my countless panic attacks to constant pain flares to my big life wins!!❤️‍🩹

u/cranb3rrycow — 9 days ago

Finn and i are welcoming our new pal Ferguson home with new bracelets! 🐸💚

I had a medium sized Jellycat Fergus frog last year but i sold him. i deeply regretted it. i have the small size & the keychain and felt the family was incomplete. i finally found a medium Fergus online for a reasonable price!! he came today- needed a little TLC… some sewing & gentle fixing up. and now he’s home and ready to be loved!! Welcome home Ferguson! Here’s to many adventures to come!

u/cranb3rrycow — 10 days ago

pain and anger following relief post diagnosis

when i was first diagnosed with autism, i felt immense relief. i’m not crazy. my brain is just different.

that relief has dissipated a bit, and now i’m angry.

i’m angry at my cousin for being my first bully. he was fucking ruthless. i’m angry at the countless medical professionals who failed me and misdiagnosed me with everything under the sun when it was ALWAYS autism. textbook autism.

i’ve always had sensory issues. i’ve always struggled with picking up on social cues. i’ve always struggled with so many things that make so much more sense now.

it was always autism.

what’s really bothering me right now is that whenever i ask someone what i was like as a child, i seem to get one of three responses:

“you were a handful.”

“you were very emotional.”

“you were too much.”

and i’ve realized how protective i feel over that little girl.

because i used to be SO outgoing, SO confident, and SO bubbly. i loved people. i wanted to be around people. i was unapologetically myself.

and then the bullying and years of social conditioning slowly chipped away at that.

now i isolate. i’m agoraphobic. i struggle to feel completely like myself anywhere except at home. i’ve spent so much of my life learning how to make myself smaller, quieter, easier, and more acceptable to other people.

the relief i felt after my diagnosis is shifting into anger and sadness.

i’m not sad that i’m autistic.

i’m sad about how negatively being undiagnosed and misunderstood for so long has impacted my life, my relationships, and the way i see myself.

i’m angry that so much of my childhood was spent being treated like i was difficult, dramatic, emotional, or “too much” when i was really just a little autistic girl who needed people to understand her.

and i still have that thought sometimes.

maybe if i were neurotypical, my life wouldn’t feel like a constant fucking war zone😭

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u/cranb3rrycow — 1 month ago
▲ 88 r/Webkinz

Oh well fuck me i guess

I CANT EVEN ESCAPE DIRTY DISHES IN WEBKINZ🤣🤣🤣

u/cranb3rrycow — 2 months ago
▲ 61 r/Webkinz

BIGGEST adventure park pet peeve

Whoever decided to place this crystal here so my webkinz can’t just walk to the door but instead has to circle the entire lava pit, I am very very dissapointed in your design choices🤣😭 pls tell me I’m not the only one

u/cranb3rrycow — 2 months ago

Gem of the day!!!

I haven't gotten the gem of the day since I was a kid playing in 2007 :') AND NO ARTE THAT IS NOT A GOOD DEAL I WILL BE KEEPING THE GEM THANK YEW

u/cranb3rrycow — 2 months ago
▲ 27 r/tattoos

1st session of my floral half sleeve done!

SO beyond happy with the way this half sleeve is coming out!! My artist cut the session short bc my skin is super sensitive & started rejecting the ink (at the top) so we’re going to finish the shading in a month :) I’m SO happy with it and I can already see the vision😍😍 Also happy to have a responsible artist putting my safety first! I’ve never left a tattoo shop happier fr!! And I have quite a few!

u/cranb3rrycow — 2 months ago
▲ 121 r/Webkinz

Did I drive 45 min for this ?

Yes. Yes I did. No regrets!! The unicorn I picked has the CUTEST face😭🥹

u/cranb3rrycow — 2 months ago

Need advice on picking a “main”!!💚

Hey guys, I’m fairly new to the ESSA community and I just wanted to talk to you about something that I have been a little bit stressed about. Beau was my very first ESSA and has been my main since I joined the community. I adore him and I love the way he is designed, but his texture is a sensory nightmare sometimes depending on my mood. (I’m autistic and sensory issues are huge for me) that being said, I picked up Mandy lab from Bass Pro shops and I’m absolutely obsessed with her. I haven’t decided on a name yet but she is so incredibly soft and so huggable and adorable. I feel like I’m cheating on Beau!!! is this normal? I can definitely see her becoming my new main. It makes me sad because I truly do love Beau so much. How do you guys differentiate which ESSAs comfort you in which moments? I feel like Beau is sad😖😭 I don’t want to get rid of him but I’m bonding SO much with this lab SO quickly!!!

u/cranb3rrycow — 2 months ago

Show off your ESSA gear in the comments!😍

I found Beau the cutest socks today at 5 below that match his aesthetic sooo well!!! I want to see everyone’s ESSAS all dressed up! c:

u/cranb3rrycow — 2 months ago

Finally had the courage to take my ESSA out without a bag!! I just held him in my arms!

For context, I’m a 26 year old late diagnosed autistic woman. I’ve spent my entire life masking, & it’s exhausting. I’ve been going through a lot recently, and I told my husband that bringing a plush out in public makes me feel so much safer internally. But the fear of people staring or judging me has always been so overwhelming that I never bring my ESSAs out unless they’re hidden in a bag or no one is around. I already get comments about my quirky personality or weird looks from store workers when I’m looking at plushies, LPS, fidget toys… my hyperfixations.
Well my husband is the most supportive sweetheart in the WORLD. He told me, “Babe!! Bring the plush!! Who cares what anyone else says? It helps YOUR anxiety. No one knows what goes on in your head and they don’t have to. Just take him!”
Anyway, we’re heading to CVS with Beau🥹 No bag!!! First time!!! This is so scary for me, but I’m so happy and blessed to have such a supportive partner who encourages me through things like this.
Before my diagnosis, I carried so much shame about liking the things I like at my big age. But I’ve gotten to a point where I’m just trying to work through those internalized feelings and do what makes ME happy!

u/cranb3rrycow — 2 months ago

Nothing like a good brush, and play session!😍

Hazel, Beau, and Duke say hello everybody!!! Show me which ESSA you’re bonding with most today!! I can’t get my hands off Beau today😍also can we just talk about how insanely soft the dogs get after a good brush?? AMAZING

u/cranb3rrycow — 2 months ago
▲ 33 r/Webkinz

Turns out all I needed to complete the Cash Cow 2 Challenge was my PRN

When I tell you I have been trying for what feels like FOREEEVERRRR. I have chronic anxiety and I think the anxiety is what was holding me back from performing my best. I had a hard day (not about Webkinz LMAO) so I took one of my PRN's. Logged onto webkinz, and got 1350 points on Cash Cow 2 MY FIRST TRY LMAOOOOOO!!! This is funny but also such an indication of my life😂😭

u/cranb3rrycow — 3 months ago

I love this community🫶

Without going into too much detail about a deleted post I just want to thank you all for being who you are. For caring for marginalized groups. For listening. For not allowing people to be intentionally ignorant and for keeping this a safe space for everyone. Just feeling extra appreciative today! It’s probably because most of us are neurodivergent and therefore VERY justice oriented 🤣 but nonetheless, I love this group and the people in it!!

u/cranb3rrycow — 3 months ago

I’m curious…

I’ve heard so many suggestions throughout my life and none of them feel like they fit. (I usually wear glasses but occasionally I wear contacts)

u/cranb3rrycow — 3 months ago

Cash cow 2 challenge 6/8

I cannot for the LIFE of me get past 950 points!!! And that’s if I’m lucky!!! HOW are yall completing this challenge???

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u/cranb3rrycow — 3 months ago
▲ 23 r/Webkinz

My collection c:

I recently found a local stockist that still had old 2010s webkinz and I went a bit crazy! It was such a fun and nostalgic experience and I love my gang!!🥹

u/cranb3rrycow — 3 months ago