u/dykefart

im a beginner knitter and working on my second project. i got a relatively cheap set of interchangeable wooden needles but wanted to get a second set because some patterns im looking at require more than 2 for certain things (like one for picking up stitches). also i think it would just be nice to have. i was looking into metal needles but i feel like i have a pretty loose tension and i'm nervous i would drop every stitch.

does anyone use metal needles with a loose tension with no problems? should i stick to wood until i get better?

my period was 2 weeks late and i took 3 negative tests.

for the last 2 days ive been spotting and today i was bleeding heavier. i passed a giant clot (giant for me, about the height of 2 quarters placed next to each other) and i noticed it had a lot of grey tissue in it. i called my mom and she said it looked like when she had a miscarriage and told me to call her if i feel weird.

but i looked online and i cant find anyone who’s experience was like mine? i had no pain when the giant clot came out, feel no pain now other than light cramping.

should i go to the er? most doctors where i am dont accept my general insurance so i can only really go to the er insured but i feel like since im not in pain theres no reason to go. but i read online that if theres pregnancy tissue left inside it can cause infection so if it Was a miscarriage i dont wanna risk infection??? idk what to do

i’ve been trying to exercise more because if i’m doing all i can do in my power to be healthy then i shouldn’t worry about my health. but i’ve started tracking my hr again and im terrified. light jogging shoots it to near 200 and my vision gets cloudy. standing up goes from 70s to 100+. I watched videos of people w pots exercising and all the posts were like “me when my pots makes my hr reach 192 on the stairmaster lol!” I thought that was a normal heart rate and now i’m freaking out. having a cardiac related chronic illness is probably the worst thing that could ever happen to me.

i had this same worry last summer and my dad took me to my pcp after i begged him to let me see a doctor and the doctor didn’t test me at all. he didn’t take my hr or blood pressure or a blood test to see if i was vitamin deficient. he just sighed and made me fill out a mental health form and prescribed me zoloft i never took.

i also know that pots is becoming more common due to covid and doctors are getting annoyed/ resisting to diagnose pots especially in young women. even if i can go to a doctor they’d probably ignore me.

i talked to my partner and he didn’t reassure me which is what i asked him to do but im so mad at him now even though he’s just doing what i asked. he said “just be okay with being uncertain. what would a diagnosis change if you already have the symptoms?” but that’s so dumb because if i had a diagnosis i could talk to a professional and better learn how to function daily.

i work at a large store and i’ve been here for almost a year. i had a bad first review due to mental health reasons but have improved greatly since then and i think the mates like me a lot more now. ive really fallen in love with 2 sections and i want to ask about order writing but im not sure if they need any extra help. for one section i dont even know who the order writers are. is it okay to express interest directly to the captain without talking to the current writers

When I got to Black Beach, I made some habitats and did some requests but there were a couple hours where nothing was happening and Professor Tangrowth only said maybe we could brighten this place up when I asked what to do.

SO I explored the entire area (built a bridge to the ship and everything) and found mosslax and the other area behind the wall.

I found every generator and connected every light before I finally got to that important request. Once i did unlock mosslax as a proper quest, everything went by so fast because i already did it all! I'm kind of bummed now. Everytime I spoke to Peakychu they just said "Oh Ditto, you already did such & such?". Did this happen to anyone else?

it sounds kind of backwards to want to cause myself harm when my whole ocd is based on the fear of being in poor health/ dying but i don’t actually wanna kill myself.

i want to harm myself badly enough that i’ll have an excuse to go to the hospital and i’ll be monitored by healthcare professionals. i’ve been thinking about it for months. like a purposely unsuccessful attempt so i won’t die but will get to go to the hospital. it’s the only place i feel safe. i work at a job where i have a box cutter on me at all times and every time im alone in the back room i think of doing it. Really quickly and then running to a boss asking for them to call an ambulance. i think of it everyday now.

has anyone else felt like this? specially with health ocd- wanting to do anything to get to a hospital ???