u/formlessvoid1

Im living years in constant stress due to living with narcissistic parents, what herbs and diet should i apply to strengten the nervous system?

I have freeze response, is it real that eating red color vegetables and fruits is empowering for root chakra? So for example if body is full of cortisol the red food will fuel what trauma response depleted? Hormones are certainly being released during such states so what kind of food will be most empowering to recover?

I been send there by narcissistic family members each time against the law cause i was not a danger to myself and others and forced 5 long acting injections along with some low dose seroquel and max dose zyprexa + risperidone 2 mg, 3 rosenhan experiments, at first i spit out most the pills and next time they knew it and forced me on longacting, always based on my family ego not something that was necessary, now i have new diagnosis of anxiety disorder and free from all meds. Please dont tell me its impossible, i will show up publicly as totally healthy man speaking about horrors these maniacs make us go through, does anyone know if Madinamerica is interested in highlighting such cases? I wanna go big

Speaking about freeze response from being raised by abusive demonic narcissist and im still financialy dependant on them, constant freeze is hell, how to deal with that? Yoga=supercosmic bliss and supercosmic health

What does the physics say? Im sensitive to thc and i have mixed abv 18% thc 1% cbd with 0.3% thc and 15% cbd, does mixing it make the distribution of cannabinoids even? I dont want go get nice results one time and get too high next time

I have abv from thc 18% 1% cbd and cbd 15% 0.3% thc, does making oil out of it will make every drop with the same amount of thc and cbd? I dont want to get cbd dose one time and get psychotic from big dose of thc next time.

Is it better to put grinded abv into 00 capsules and eat with fatty meal or make an butter/oil out of it?

Is it due to high temperature or the way other grow it? Does making edibles out of cbd hemp will make the cbd work stronger? I dont care about THC. I find enormous relief on my cptsd and neuroinflammation symptoms through vaping but huge coughing makes it hard. Thoughts lovely people?

And i dont mean people who claim they are permamently damaged from 25mg seroquel for few days but lets say on my body 5 long acting + low dose seroquel, 2 years and few months later im much better but still not the same, share your experiences please.

Does following AdvaitaVedanta wisdom allowed you to heal from something that doctors could not heal? Speaking as someone misdisgnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and not being hospitalized since 2+ years even if using high dose thc. I heard people with awakened kundalini have perfect spine posture and therefore energy can flow freely. Does doing yoga poses will help with achieving perfect spine? I was doing them lately and found myself in bliss and heavenly relaxation. Thoughts?

Can someone enlightened answer?

Digested weed is much stronger but is it only with THC or cbd aswell? I remember i could not achieve such deep level of relaxation with vaping cbd flower alone vs eating decarbed flower but maybe it was due to quality of a flower? Idk

That the higher the levels of conciousness the better reaction to psychedelics? Why some people get beautiful experiences after shrooms or THC and other get full blown psychotic?

Cbd works as antipsychotics and relax the nervous system, growing ganja with such low amount of cbd is destroying the beauty of this plant. How many people got psychotic because of it?

Lucifer is king of false and manipulation, they lied im schizophrenic and forced 5 long acting injections of antipsychotics on me and only because im in Poland i avoided community treatment order that would last years and im about to sue soon.

What do you think of them? Just ordered 20 grams of premium looking buds but i dont know. Anyone? 🩵

I been forced 5 long acting injections on falsely diagnosed paranoid schizophrenia+ some low dose seroquel and to this day my brain and sexuality is not the same which makes me suicidal, is there any hope for me in future or i should spare myself the suffering of daily ruminating that its not the same?

I only avoided community treatment order because laws in Poland works different. This will go mainstream i promise. Inshallah

Typical story like many others which is narcissistic abusive family members causing nervous system to freeze and Peter Levine Somatic Experience creator genius said that "people with history of trauma have anger outburst" and obviously for innocent anger outburst that are healing narcissistic family members hospitalized me against my will while i was not a danger to myself and others but they didnt hospitalized themselves while beating a kid like father did or 11 years older sister calling me retard idiot trash and also being physically abusive sometimes like pulling my hair which was traumatic too and my despotic frozing my nervous system narcissistic castrating my sexuality making homosexual and woman of me mother, and hear me out, there been 4 forced hospitalisation first was amazing cause doctor was divine sa saying all psychiatrist are evil is obviously false, she corregulated my nervous system as polyvagal theory states and released me with anxiety disorder while my family already wanted schizophrenia diagnosis, 2 years passed after that hospitalisation and i started getting better to the point of finally being able to work or study and not being financialy dependant on my parents anymore but obviously those who know what narcissistic are capable of will believe me she saw me becoming happy and Independent and i was hospitalized second time only for verbal fight with them again against the law and this time ordynator (psychiatrist ruling the hospital in Poland we call it like that) misdisgnosed my cptsd + post concusssion syndrome as Paranoid Schizophrenia and i was forced pills first time which i managed to spit out mostly (75 doses on 90 around) and i left unnoticed, i came out traumatised and my parents acted like nothing bad happened and i felt unsafe in this home knowing i can be dehumanised again for minor stuff, so 9 months passed and i was trying to recover from trauma from it and my mother just like that cut internet connection because she was looking for reason to make me react and make victim of her so i destroyed bathroom door and intercom and my father was only in home he looked at me weirdly and left the house, during 9 hours before my parents arrived with paramedics and police i was totally calm had a walk outside vaporised cbd talked with a friend and while being totally not a danger to anyone they again commited me and because i had schizophrenia diagnosis in my record the demonic psychiatrist tied me to bed believing the parents manipulation, the nurse came in with pills they were giving me at previous rosenhan experiment and i managed to spit them out aswell, patient nearby told them when they came back to check me that i spit them all out so they tried to wake me up but i pretended to be asleep from them so they left me alone, few hours passed and they released me from being tied and i escaped the hospital while nurse was taking patient to do MRI with him, few hours later Police catched me because my brother in law saw me chilling in the bench near my neighborhood and called them, so i was tied to bed again and injected this time and psychiatrist ordynator knew i spit out the doses last time because i wrote it to her on Facebook and she blocked me and i asked kindly if she can explain herself without bad vibes, so i was forced 3x300 zypadhera long acting and left the hospital... 6 months passed my mother was threatening to hospitalize me again for minor bs like having verbal fight with her and the fact that my brain and sexuality wasnt the same 6 months later and her being still abusive made me lost it and slap her 3 times in face with open palm and i was hospitalized again and force injected with 2 long acting abilify 400mg this time... I left and this time i knew i cannot allow another hospitalization or they will make schizophrenic of me permanently, the God/Universe made me meet friend Adrian on antipsychiatric chat on Facebook who also condiders himself victim of psychiatry and he gave me number to antipsychiatric psychologist who called my parents and explained them what happens in mental hospital nowadays and fortunately my parents believed it but because there was still demonic energy in my parents and need control me they didnt used psychiatry this time but went to the Police station and lied i threatened to kill them and i would never do it even if i want to cause karmic consequences are real and 2 cops came to apartment and took me out like a real threat to jail cell where next day i was interrogated by sergeant and his coworkers listening to me through camera in handcuffs talking what really happened in my life, and fortunately they realised something is off and i was allowed to leave but i could not go back home so i went to Adrian who allowed me to not be homeless in this traumatised state found job as delivery driver and had to appear court because parents applied to force treat me knowing the diagnosis is wrong but at the end they deleted it before psychiatrist and psychologist were about to evaluate me and obviously we know how that could end... So i found good psychiatrist that changed the diagnosis to anxiety disorder and my last injection was 2 years 3 months ago. Im getting ready to sue hoping these psychiatrist will lose license and compensation for making hell of my life and then i want to talk publicly about it hoping it will get as much views as possible. Thoughts? Can you imagine im not forced injected for years because law works different here? Its insane... Also the psychiatrist that did this to me have pride on their face and those who read spirituality will know its a quality of Lucyfer.

„It is only the chaste man or woman who can make the Ojas rise and store it in the brain; that is why chastity has always been considered the highest virtue... That is why in all the religious orders in the world which have produced spiritual giants you will always find absolute chastity insisted upon.” ~ Swami Vivekananda. Im a heterosexual man who knows porn is demonic and i want to avoid it but im single right now due to health reasons so how to deal with builded up sexual energy? I know many yogis been celibate but not every one, Lahiri Mahasaya, Gopi Krishna, David Hawkins, etc. I mean they had wifes that is certain, i dont know about sexual activity after englithenment. So question is, is there something as pure masturbation if the builded up energy is causing pain? Pure thoughts? All love.