u/ghiblying

i live in australia and it seems like 90% of the avenues of getting a service dog available to me are through getting my own puppy, paying for professional training courses and training it myself. the issue is that i have chronic fatigue that keeps me stuck in bed (and worsens upon exertion) so training a puppy just isnt really in my scope at the moment, but i could really benefit from a service dog. does anyone have suggestions?

i cant do it. i wanna rip my brain out. every single second of every single day i suffer. im in a constant anxiety attack that turns to pure panic every single day. im not coping, and im not taking care of myself. i cant do this much longer, certainly not forever. i just want to be happy again, is this even achievable? what if my obsessions are on something inevitable (death, nonexistence)? will i ever stop thinking this way? am i just doomed to suffer forever until it eventually happens?

whenever i talk about this everyone just says "your intrusive thoughts cant manifest" but im beyond that now. ive had this "intuition" im going to die, and its gotten a million times worse this week, getting worse every day. nothing feels normal. im completely immersed in the assumption something is going to happen to me this week. ive stopped saving money, started giving my stuff away, trying to do last minute meaningful things for people i love. i cant see a future for myself, i feel like im gonna be gone soon. i cant seem to change my own mind about it. i feel like im 100% gonna manifest it. this is exactly how i felt about every negative thing i've manifested in my life so far. it feels inevitable. i believe it.

i dont want to die, im terrified. please, someone guide me

im fully debilitated by this. i cant do anything. i cry all day and panic all day and i can never calm down now that ive realised that everything is temporary and ill die one day. how can i ever feel safe and comfortable again? im ironically getting suicidal thoughts because i feel like i just need it over and done with if its going to happen anyway. im absolutely ruined. i feel like ill never be okay again. what do i even do :/

i feel like nothing is real and everything is unstable and i feel unsafe. all i can focus on is the universe and how unpredictable everything is and how everyone i love will die and so will i. that everything i experience is meaningless and will cease to exist. has anyone else had this? wtf do i do 😭 im actually really panicking.

every moment of every single day i am thinking about death and dying and how everything will just disappear and i am living in sheer terror that something will kill me soon. im really scared and im not coping. i just want to feel safe and comfortable again instead of just trying to keep myself distracted from my terrifying thoughts. i am feeling like maybe i hope something will happen to me so i can just get it over with and stop worrying but i am terrified

i suddenly developed death ocd 4 months ago and its just gotten worse and worse but about a week ago its become unbearable. i am in full crisis and i just cant cope. i was in hospital for it it got so bad but the hospital said they cant help me anymore and sent me home in one of the worst headspaces of my life. im filled to the brim with pure terror. im not coping

i dont want to die. but i feel like its out of my control. its consumed my life for the last 3 months and i panic about it daily. the feeling of my impending doom is resistant to all distress tolerance and thought changes i could possibly try. it will not relieve. it feels inevitable. its ruined my enjoyment of living and i just want to feel safe again. i feel like i have to get all my things in order and say goodbye.

please i'm not ready to die please what do i do

i keep deleting my posts because i keep getting dms from people asking to buy me food. its so gross & inconsiderate of people trying to recover. be careful out there for real.

im really scared im going to manifest it. im not talking an intrusive thought here or there. i mean that for like for the last 3 months i have been nonstop viewing the whole world with this tint that it (or at least mine) is going to end. i have this awful "gut feeling" sense of impending doom. and worrying about manifesting something along these lines is only making it worse.

im really scared. idk what to do

i am so terrified of grief. nobody does well with grief, but especially me. i cant get over how final it is. lately ive been having nonstop panic attacks and impending doom that something will happen to someone i love and i just cant shake it. im absolutely terrified. my brother who has been completely healthy his whole life has suddenly been having medical episodes where hes ended up in hospital several times and im scared i caused it. my mumma is perfectly healthy but shes the one i worry about the most because i couldnt live without her if something happened.

im scared ill manifest this. please help me

i want to manifest weight loss. im really good at manifesting things, sps, money etc. i understand how the law works and im really good at "just deciding" with these things and sticking to it.

but when it comes to weight loss ive found it incredibly difficult to think about myself in any other manner than im incredibly overweight and i really struggle to do anything about it in the 3d (ive had chronic binge eating disorder for 10+ years now, done therapy, hospital stays etc. it never goes away - i suppose this is another assumption that i have). i just dont feel in control or think i can "manifest" it away since ive been so hardwired to believe it will be hard work.

does anyone have any tips to things i could try that might help me get into that identity when im struggling?