u/justabumass

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(i dunno the awtist sowry :c)

made a quick doodle just to test out veadotube and get a vague idea on what to draw and how things works but i end up liking the doodle soo much

even though it's basic, it looks so silly stupid and goofyy and kinda matches with my personality and a part of me really wanna use it

but at the same time I'm kinda worried like if ppl come across my streams and see this weird ms paint drawing on the side they gonna think I'm not putting much efforts or I'm lazing off etc stuff

i think my drawing skills r decent enough to make a nice anime-ish typa avatar but i really really really wanna use this for some reason and now I'm conflicted

soo umm yeah is it okay to use this or should I put more effort?

(i dunno the artist sowry)

i hate some of these mfs so much,if u got nothing nice to say then scroll past and move on, why the fuck u gotta leave some weird ass comment or downvote other ppl appreciating them? weird ass weebs

i hate how toxic and unrealistic cosplay side of things can get

I've seen it so many times and It frustrate me so much,their pathetic ass can't even leave their freakin room to take a shower meanwhile they hate to other ppl who try to put efforts,fuck these ppl

yes I stole it from this sub ;3

ik many people hate him after part 2 ending,many ppl think he is some washed mangaka, that he is not as smart and creative as everyone thought

but after reading all his work again I can never in my life hate that guy, i love him, i love him as a person,i love him as a mangaka, i love each and every single works of his and I wish to make art just as good as him

while reading i laughed,i smiled, i cried,i kept crying and sobbing for minutes sometimes

i knew all abt the stories,i knew abt the characters, I knew what gonna happen yet i still got hit by the wave of emotions that I just can't describe in words

his work inspires me ,just reading his stories invokes the artistic part of me and wants to be creative just like him

i fucking love fujimoto man

(sorry i dunno the artist)

in past couple of months I've lost connections with many ppl that I was friends with for years ,some of them grew apart ,some of them just didn't had the time to talk, some of them changed as a person,some of them found other ppl and i wasn't important in their life and yada yada yada many other things

i tried staying in touch, tried to keep things together, did everything I could but it was a lost cause and I just looked desperate and once I stopped putting efforts from my side it was over and now I have 0 people in my life that I can call friends

i do want to make new friends,i do want to meet different people and talk to them and make connection but what's the point of it if one day they won't be a part of my life anymore? one day i won't be important for them

those everyday texts will turn into weekly texts then monthly then once in a while then they will just stop

people say it's about the memories you make,the time you spend with them ,the experience you share with them but I just can't use this as a coping mechanism

it's like "it was all a dream" movie trope, so much happens, so many feelings emerge but in the end it feels worthless and meaningless

i really crave for human connection but I just can't bring myself to be friends with someone knowing they'll just leave one day

I've already pushed so many ppl away who tried to be friends with me for the same reason, I'm unable to face the fact that all the time spent will mean nothing once they get bored of me or wouldn't wanna be friends with me

ik expecting someone to be your friend for lifetime is unrealistic and unreasonable but even after giving all my time and effort,even after being present at their lowest moment,even after emotionally supporting them all the time they'll one day decide to leave then i just can't i really can't

i don't like being a half assed friend but giving my all just feel like I'm wasting my efforts

got this ad today for some reason