u/kaeyamilk

typing this meanwhile i have a lot of overdue tasks

not even out. there’s no concept of “coming out” here anyways? like people would just assume if you’re queer or not. i have a naturally androgynous face and i’m on t. i pass as all genders but most of the time people think i’m a trans girl or a masc lesbian. wish i could live as who i am overseas where changing your gender in documents is legal. also name changes there are easier. that was my dream as a kid when i wanted to move to australia or canada.

i’m so jealous of the quality of life in developed countries too.

here people don’t even understand what being trans is. and if you like the same gender as a trans person they won’t believe you and just say something like straight with extra steps lmao.

spawning in the philippines as a queer person with asd is like the biggest punishment ever. and it’s difficult for me to leave the country because my field is useless since all tech/office jobs are offshored now. i have to start a new degree in something else just to leave and nursing is the only option but they have uniforms with skirts here i hate it. also there’s no way someone with asd like me would thrive in that field.

sometimes i think i could just marry my way out of the country but i can’t imagine getting married before changing my documents lol. also ive been depressed and lost my confidence so i doubt i’d find a partner for now. and well theres less people here who are accepting of trans people but i mean i do prefer foreigners though but still finding someone who isn’t transphobic in asia is hard

been studying a useless degree in IT, i’m from a conservative third world asian country so pretty much everything is just offshored now. and well the salary here is very low so it’s difficult to be financially independent. it’s hard to move to another country in my field now, though there was hope when i was in high school but now the industry is super saturated. i regret it so much, i wish i studied architecture instead. people in the west are more open minded when it comes to being queer + everything in my home country is super horrible, like the government infrastructure and everything. it’s so ugly here lol, public transport is shit and when u go outside developed places it’s just slums everywhere. was in sydney a month ago and i miss it a lot. i wish i was born in the west :(

family is actually pushing me to do nursing just for the permanent residency that isn’t even guaranteed but i don’t think i can do it since i have asd and would struggle + medical programs here all have those cringey uniforms and i cannot ever make myself wear a skirt ever again

compared to the west, in the philippines being trans is deeply misunderstood :,) a lot of filos assume that transmascs/transmen are only attracted to women. anyways happy pride month to everyone 😸

not yet graduated but everything seems offshored and wfh now 🥲

title because for some reason huion pens are more expensive

for the screenless tablets btw

title… idk i need hope, my parents are convincing me to study nursing just so i can get in australia. very tough decision since i’m too far into my current degree and i wanted to be a ux designer/someone in the media industry. i would definitely thrive in a more creative environment.

thing is nursing might not for me since im neurodivergent, i would definitely struggle there. the plan is i should study one semester of nursing here but it’s annoying how i’d be forced to wear a skirt for six months. after one semester here i plan on applying for a student visa and studying nursing there instead. im very much willing to study nursing as long as its in australia though because the curriculum there seems better and life there overall is more light compared to living in asia because the work ethics and everything here are too much.

hii i’m planning on transferring from my uni here in the ph to an australian uni. for context first semester here just started today. applications for the uni im applying is only until this may so i expect the result from this month to next month.

would it be better to drop all my subjects now and go take my leave of absence? the results are uncertain so… i still enrolled as backup but i can drop and refund it now + drop when i receive the results although LOA is only available until the second week

my current program in uni and the one im applying for is different btw if that matters.

thinking of buying one of these two!! i’ve used the deco 01 v2 for years and am now thinking of upgrading. these two are in the same price range where i live (inspiroy 2 l is +~$20 more tho) but idk maybe the 2 l will be too big for me. the screen of my laptop is roughly 13.8” (but it’s labeled as 15”). what i like the most about the huion one is the scroll wheel and overall design but in reviews ive seen apparently the xp pen one is better in performance

been eyeing this tablet but i’ve seen people have issues with bubbles D: those who own the tablet how is it? did you run into the bubble issue? also is it fine to draw with the mostly connecting the tablet via the wires instead of just bluetooth when you’re at home?

in your opinion what would be more ideal that would work with my laptop?

M size:

Dimension： 306 x 180 x 7.5~9.5mm Working Area： 221 x 138mm (8.7 x 5.4inch)

the L size:

Dimension： 352.5 × 208.7 × 7.5~9.5mm Working Area： 266.7 x 166.7 mm （10.5 x 6.56inch）

also a former user of the xp pen deco v2, didn’t really like it because the buttons were too hard. i don’t have it anymore to test if i like bigger tablets more 😅

been using the xp pen deco 01 v2 for a long time now, lost the pen and i’ve been itching to buy a new tablet so do you guys have any recs? got it for like $33 usd here so my budget for a new one is below $100. i lowkey dislike the buttons in the deco 01 though because it feels very cheap (duh)