we switch without realizing and have to rely on external cues like voice changes to realize that we have switched, and we dont get a lot of amnesia between switches (amnesia happens more gradually for us - for example, i cant really remember most of yesterday very well but felt my memory was continuous throughout the day as i was experiencing it). this has caused us a lot of denial, is this possible within DID?
hello! i am having trouble in my relationship because my girlfriend and i basically communicate in entirely different ways. i am autistic, and cannot understand neurotypical communication like, at all. because of this, i have had a hard time communicating to my girlfriend that i care about her, that im interested in her as a human being, that i am curious about her, you get the idea. she has brought up that i dont really ask her any questions about her, which i dont really know how to fix because i never really know what questions to ask or how. i dont ask her about things she has talked about in the past, but i dont know how to detect that she wants me to ask about those things at any given moment, or even remember that i have to ask about those things. i dont know how to respond to her answers in depth. and theres probably more things that are more nuanced that im missing as well. does anyone have advice on how to fix these issues? any strategies to remember these things, or detect the right thing to say? i understand this is probably an unusually specific issue, but i am really trying to exhaust all resources here
ive been thinking about trauma a lot recently, i think i know what trauma caused my systemhood but i feel weird claiming to be a victim of it because i cant remember if its true or not
can i base my understanding of my trauma based on how i react to considering it as true? i have to assume it means something when i spend days trying to understand the symptoms of repressing this specific type of trauma so i can prove/disprove my experience when other assumptions i could make just dont make sense and slide right off my back
its also weird because like why am i allowed to think about this subject a lot and encounter it in media with no problem but as soon as it crosses a threshold of thinking about it a Little too much i have a mental breakdown LOL
ive been thinking about trauma a lot recently, i think i know what trauma caused my systemhood but i feel weird claiming to be a victim of it because i cant remember if its true or not
can i base my understanding of my trauma based on how i react to considering it as true? i have to assume it means something when i spend days trying to understand the symptoms of repressing this specific type of trauma so i can prove/disprove my experience when other assumptions i could make just dont make sense and slide right off my back
its also weird because like why am i allowed to think about this subject a lot and encounter it in media with no problem but as soon as it crosses a threshold of thinking about it a Little too much i have a mental breakdown LOL
hi all! i am here over summer session and all of my friends are at home (sad for me). im really bad at walking up to people and asking to be friends in person, so instead i am deciding to do one of the chuddest things imaginable and ask for friends over reddit (lol). if you too want friends hmu! im a first year, and im queer and neurodivergent so we will probably get along best if you are as well!
maybe its just my voice, i dont know. im on T so that will be sorted soon. is there anything else i need to be changing to pass better? im 19 so its fine that i look young, because i am lol
hello! i recently started testosterone (about a month ago) and i was really sure about it when i started. now, though, im scared im making a mistake. im scared that im latching onto transitioning as a way to be happier because im depressed and i see other people be happier after transitioning. im scared i actually wont like having a deep voice, facial hair, etc. sometimes i really want those things, and sometimes im absolutely terrified of them. i dont know what to feel or what to do and i just need advice
i just made a realization about my trauma last night. i technically dont know if this is true, because i dont remember anything ever happening, but it just makes sense based on my symptoms. i am in treatment and am going to bring this up with my therapist next session. the way i think about sex now and the way ive thought about sex for my entire life and the pure fact i have DID, it really makes me think something happened to me as a kid. even consentual, wanted, "good" sex is incredibly traumatic for me and i cant bare to think about it, and theres a lot of other things that i just wont go into on the internet. it just, makes sense. and i really dont know how im supposed to deal with that. how am i supposed to go through my life knowing that happened to me? how am i supposed to think about anything else? i skipped class today because i just cant deal with having to focus and forget and pretend that im fine in a room full of people. i dont know when im going to be able to handle that. i dont know how to live with this, and i need help to learn how