u/magdolined

honestly just asking bc im starting soon, with testosterone and going to gym. im a Big guy, and im trying to sorta make my fat turn into a little muscle.

so lean is law isnt really too much for me

cant put a picture in here but i would describe it as black, similar to fountain pen, that is kinda smooth and flowy, very deep black. if its something similar that would be amazing too.
i need something i can draw and write with, that feels good in the hand

my hair on its best days is wavy about 2a with occasionally curlier curls here and there. im from germany and my budget is cheap to midi
so my current routine is;

shower with average shampoo, bali curls conditioner, let it sit for a bit, brush hair while conditioner gets out

put hair in t shirt asap for five mins, get it out, put curl mousse in, scrunch it, then put it back in shirt for 5 mins

scrunch again, then i use aloe gel and scrunch it in for it to stay a bit, maybe use a bit of hairspray; let it hair dry.

i wanna get more definition, or get it a bit more curlier

help would be amazing🩵🩵

i just made a post elsewhere about my mom, and got this sub suggested and it never dawned on me that she mightve been the helicopter variety.

shes always been very strict back when i was in contact with her. christian and conservative, i wasnt allowed to watch certain tv that had bad content, i wasnt allowed to listen to music, hell even just rap music when i was about 14/15. my phone got controlled sporadically by my dad so i learned to delete every app on my phone when my father looked away that was a messenger app cuz i would be accused of talking to guys at 13. i deleted my search history and used my friends as an excuse if i ever did meet up with someone my mom would raise an eyebrow at. that didnt need to actually be someone bad, it was just people so didnt have "manners" or my mom didnt like, she would ask me intrusive questions about them and talk shit about them if they didnt fit her view. i would also use school as an excuse just to meet friends when i wasnt feeling like studying everyday, bc my mom would also become paranoid about them sometimes.

my friends barely were allowed to come over, only if i did the dishes, my moms mood was in the right space and if the house was fully cleaned. the younger i was my moms mood would controll my chores everyday if i did them or not and then berate me so badly that i still have dissasocitation when it comes to math to this day. like sometimes im pretty good or understand it well but my mind goes blank when it comes to tests. i also wasnt allowed to go out and drink of course. my mom needed to know who it was and if she liked them. also of course, no boys.

my mom would go through my letters (until i was 20)and my clothing, throw things away that would be slutty, control my finances by deciding things that i could buy. i would be called too stupid to do certain things for an example i was not allowed to use the oven. only when i got away from her i learned how easy it was to use it. i also never knew how easy it was to use a train alone cuz my mom would make me scared of it.

theres probably more but yeah she was the moral police, would force me to go to church and of course decide what i was saying. she also didnt want me to tell other people about what she did.

rede vorallem von Hamburg. Ich würde mal gerne wissen welche bands man politisch empfehlen kann (oder moralisch) die hier ansässig sind. In Hamburg avoide ich sehr St.Pauli weil man sich es vielleicht schon denken kann (Antideutschentum), aber bockt nicht zu keinen zu gehen und so oft fahre ich auch nicht runter.

kussi

heya im from europe and heavily into midwest emo, punk and mf doom. havent been exchanging lots of convos bout it in a while. i also listen to so many genre, as in im not genrephobic. cambodian psychedelic rock from the 70s is in my heart 4 eva. also i draw and write.
please do not have discord (im trying to never return) and also not be a bigot ofc, zionist transphobe or any of that.

hey im searchin for people who like gaming and grew up on playing obscure web games maybeee. or people who wanted to make their own visual novels off of rpg maker.
when i get my laptop, we could also play games

havent played in a while but i wanna get back in, anything suda51, nintendo ds, nintendo 64, pixel games, itch.io or visual novels are my thing. maybe i could tell u about my old projects.

i do not have discord and dont plan on getting on there again (hell) so for the next time im just searching for people to chat a bit.

plus points if ur from europe