u/martinideeni

I want a relationship but the universe is providing NO ONE for me right now. It’s been a two year drought.

I’ve done the inner work but no one that I am interested in has been brought into my reality. Why?

Hello! I am sooooo ready to meet someone new that I am excited about. I’ve done a lot of self work and although I’m not perfect I know I can approach a connection much better these days instead of falling into my 12H Venus habits.

However, I meet guys but I’m not excited about them. The thought of going out to hang out with them is not yayyyyy I get to see so and so. It’s ugh I guess I’ll get ready now. I want to meet someone im excited to spend time with. I want to be like I can’t wait to see so and so. I know it’s a symptom of my Pisces moon and Neptune in 7th but I LIKE being in lala land about someone but I rarely feel that about people. Like I want to meet someone that I’m crazy about but do it healthy this time. But I want them to enhance my life in every possible way.

However, I have not had much luck with my type — I get anxious and crazy and obsessed and implode the whole thing. With a guy I’m not interested in I can pace, I can handle a bit of ambiguity and I can do the whole go with the flow natural progression of dating and getting to know someone. But when he’s my type? Larger than life, the guy every girl wants. I don’t know how to act clearly. I can always attract them but then I behave in ways that are not conducive to building a relationship. Although I won’t say it’s all my fault but I definitely contribute to them running away. Then they go and it’s literal death to me like god has rejected me.

But I think I am healed of this pattern at-least mostly and I really want to try again. I feel like the universe is saying to me “that’s it you’ve ruined all your chances, there is no one else. Settle”. I’ve burned through 3 guys that were 100% perfect my type through acting like this.

I have included my natal, current solar return and current lunar return. My lunar return for this month and solar return are so similar.

Please let me know if the universe will give me one more chance. I know I can do better this time. I really feel like I got my 3 chances ruined them and now the universe is like well then bitch that’s all I had for you.

I want to be excited by someone again!