u/mattchew155

So I (30 M) had feelings for this girl a couple weeks ago and it seemed like she liked me but I never told her my true feelings at first, then she apparently gets a boyfriend a few days ago...I regret for not asking her out at the time but I feel like I would've been rejected then...I dunno....I'll just see if I start talking to another girl who is single and likes me..

I’ve been living by myself, on my own in an apartment complex for three weeks now. For the past 30 years, I was living with my mom (who I was helping take care of the past 10 years due to her physical health declining). I’ve struggled with anxiety and loneliness before, but since it’s just me here and nothing else I feel bored and lonelier than ever before. I’ll interact with the people in my building time to time, but it’s just small talk. I’m usually a quiet, soft spoken person who opens up rarely to others. Maybe I’m just rambling at this point, it would just be refreshing to finally feel like I’m alive for once. I’ve been seeing a therapist for a couple months now and he has been helpful but it’s just me being too hesitant to put any of his ideas into action. My brain is a completely jumbled and empty mess at the same time.