u/migrations_

TLDR; I'm playing online to combat my online anxiety like you guys recommended, but it hasn't gone without difficulties like feeling I'm wasting other players time or having bad adrenaline dumps. Also thank you this community is super chill compared to other fighting game communities.

A while back I mentioned that I used to play fighting games online a lot and I got really used to it. But I'm the years past I developed online anxiety. It helped when I would drink but I'm not doing that anymore.

So I've been playing online. My only two issues are that I feel ashamed for summer reason when I get beat by some one really nice. Like I wasted their time. Like this really nice person played me in the lobby and I apologized after some close losses.

Also I had a REALLY intense adrenaline dump playing ranked (I didn't actually care about my rank)... Like I was playing this sweaty Versusia and I just knew I was a more knowledgeable and less predictable player. But I couldn't tie it together and I lost 2 and won one. But in our last match it was SO close that my adrenaline peaked and I started shaking. I think it made me worse in the moment as I couldn't think straight. The shitty part is that when you dump that much adrenaline the feeling doesn't just automatically go away. I went and played Survival and I just couldn't I was still shaking a bit for about half an hour. Anyways I'll keep trying.

I'm also playing Eustace and he definitely has a pretty different feel from many other characters. He's just.... Different. Like you have to learn a specific way of playing (I know this is true for all characters but more so for Eustace and other characters that have a kind of gimmick).. With him I can't just jump in rush down and I have often found my self trying to fight close range a lot instead is giving myself space.

Anyways this is rambling and I want to say thank you to everyone for the support this community is really nice and friendly compared to other fighting game communities.

I was born in 86 and for a long time have been a retro enthusiast. Something I never hear Americans talk about it the ZX Spectrum. I always hear it with the UK Z pronunciation and sometimes called the Speccy. I just want to hear someone knowledgeable talk about it because I've never known a single person IRL that owned one.

How popular was this system in the UK and if anyone can help what are some of your favorite memories of the system? What were your favorite games and did you have expansions like a disk or tape drive that you plugged in? What was it in competition with? Was it more for gaming or more for other computer software?

From my outsider American perspective the console it self is one of the best looking I've ever seen. The font is awesome one it and the little rainbow is iconic to me even if I didn't know the system. While the color pallet was limited in games the graphics seemed pretty good for the time and much better than the black and green of other systems at the time.

Thanks in advance!

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TL;DR I love GBFV and have owned it since the original version released in 2020. I think it's one of the best fighting games ever, but I really struggle with online anxiety. Have you overcome this and if so, how? How do you feel when you lose and does it ever get to you?

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With Grand Blue I play all the single player stuff. I sit in practice mode for hours and read the strategy wikis and learn combos and beat the arcade mode with everyone, but I get really anxious when I play online. Not like panic attack or anything just like fearful. Of course I'm older and there were certain games I played a lot online like SFiii over GGPO, but that was 13 years ago and I was drinking a lot too. In fact the times in the past year I played online I would have to drink a lot of alcohol. And I don't do that anymore at all.

Anyways this weekend I told myself that I want to learn Eustace - I've thought he was awesome since he was released as DLC in like 2020 and I was having so much fun. I went to go play online and all I could see in my head was getting completely destroyed and the other playing tea bagging me. I could see me getting into a game and seeing the opponents player plate saying "Wins: 2,479 Losses: 4"

Like I even recognize that losing is learning in fighting games, but I've seriously just been a pussy when it comes to doing what I should do: Play online a LOT. I even think the game would become much more fun for me eventually but I keep being a total loser.

Has anyone dealt with this anxiety and overcome it? I think I'm going to force myself to try this weekend - and I KNOW I'll lose at some point because we all do - but how do you keep going when you lose (especially badly). Does it just not affect you? Do you get angry? Help me please because this is something I HAVE to get over. I'm really robbing myself of a great experience because of my stupid brain. It might sound really immature and stupid but just hearing other fans tell me that I can do it is a huge help.

( this might sound crazy but I've been playing fighting game since the 90s and I own like every major fighting game and tons of small time ones. You would think I would be WAY past this by now)

I have used 7O for 5 days in a row now. I've spent a RIDICULOUS amount of money and I'm ashamed and sad.
I've had substance abuse disorder for many years and I've had ups and down (At a few points I was able to remain 100% sober for years at a time). Recently I completely got off alcohol and things were really looking up but I stupidly tried the 7O which I found to be incredibly stimulating and euphoric.

Since Tuesday I have bought some ever day. Today I got up and told myself NO and I felt great with no withdrawal symptoms at all. And then at night I just gave into an imipulse and with no thought got up and rode my bike and bought some more.

I even told my support system what I was going through and that I don't want to do this anymore and I still did it. I woke up today feeling amazing. No withdrawals - energized and happy and I STILL went and got some

This is one of the more addicting drugs I've ever used and I know if I continue doing it I'm going to end up completely broke and rip through all the money I've saved for a vehicle and new glasses and getting my bike fixed.

I'm telling all of you right now that I DONT WANT to use this stuff ever again. My rational side knows that disaster is the only direction. My addictive side tries to block out these thoughts and just use it without any thought.

Tomorrow I go back to work, which is huge because I don't use things at work. But the stupid vape shop is just a 5 minute bike ride from my apartment and is open 24 hours - so after work I'm going to be in a very vulnerable position"

Please give me some things that I can read right when I get off of work to help me. Please let me know what you went through to stop using it. Advice, support, love and kindness or just relating to me are ALL things I need right now.

Thank you so much guys

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I quit drinking after it became a major physical stress a month ago but I've continued using kratom and started taking 7oh a few times a week. I recognize that there is a much better way to live my life and I'm ready to start the road to recovery. 7oh is out of the picture for good and I'm going to attempt to ween off the kratom. Thank you guys so much and even though it's hard doing this alone - we all have each other for support.

I was in the ER 5 weeks ago because I was feeling extremely confused and delirious. I missed a week of work from it and it didn't go away. The reason is obvious in hindsight: I was drinking 4 Mike's Harder 8% tall boys a night and eventually my liver was affected and I started accumulating ammonia in my body which affected my brain. Not drinking has been pretty easy because it was clearly affecting me negatively constantly

I was using kratom the entire span of my drinking (about 4 years - I was a "functional alcoholic" but over time I drank more and more each night). Anyways looking back I'm pretty sure that kratom was really just helping me feel less shitty each day. When I didn't have it I had really bad anxiety and my muscles ached and I was sad - when I got home from work those days I had no motivation to do anything fun. When I did have it I became talkative and friendly and work went by faster.

Since I got off the drinking I've continued to use kratom but a few things have led me back to knowing it's time to stop. One thing is that last weekend I wasn't able to get kratom and I was having negative thoughts the whole weekend. Nothing terrible just telling myself that I was bored and that nothing is that fun. I hate that my mind and body had been tricked into thinking that fun and laughter and energy and focus don't exist without this fucking powder. Secondly and maybe worse is that I impulsively tried 7OH and justified it as "well I'm not drinking so it's fine to try something else for fun."... Since then I've been doing it like twice a week and that stuff is WAY more intense than kratom and I'm sure the withdrawal and dependence are much more intense also.

Anyways the point is that I just know deep down I don't have to fucking live this way. It can only get worse from here and I don't want to be a person who can't afford something important because I blew it on manufactured happiness and energy. I don't want to have a bad weekend because I didn't get my 'fix'. 6 years ago I was on no drugs at all - nothing, and I was happy like all the time.

So yeah I'm back here and I really am thankful to all of this community for the support and love. My immediate goal starting tonight is 1) No more 7oh at all. Thankfully I didn't to it enough to have serious withdrawals but I don't want to fucking get there and spend all my fucking money for these stupid chewables. I don't want to be the weird dude in the headshop every day where the employees are asking me if I want 'the regular'. 2) starting this evening at work I'm going to cut my kratom intake in half. Instead of taking it before work and each of my three breaks in just going to take before work and at lunch. On Monday I'm going to use a smaller spoon. I'm going to try and get to the point where I'm taking such a laughably small amount that it's clearly not having any appreciative affect on me. And then I want to stop

I'll continue to post here when I feel down or like it's difficult. Deep down I am a strong person and I can fucking do this. Thank you all so much and I will do my best to support all of you as well.

-migrations

TL;DR Heroes of Might and Magic Olden Era for Gamepass on PC is fun and not so deep that seems impenetrable. Never played the old games but I wanna watch this one until it hits version 1.0. Check it out!

I've never played the old Heroes of Might and Magic, but I've always loved turn based tactical RPGs and I've always wanted to get into 4X games but they really intimidated me. While Olden Era is not really a tactical RPG or a 4X game per se, it definitely has enough of those genres in it's DNA for comparison.

Anyways I'm really enjoying the game so far. It's not nearly as complex and dense as a game like Total War Warhammer or Endless Legend 2 but that's a good thing. The game takes an afternoon to learn the systems and mechanics and after that you kind of pick up new stuff through the challenge tutorials and playing.

It's a very unique game and not hard to pick up and I find the combat system fun too, especially with the spells you can cast on the battlefield. Every hero you play as has unique traits and there are LOTS of stuff to build and upgrade. There are 6 factions to try out and they all have unique stuff going on.

If you have a PC and you like strategy games I really recommend it, especially because it's still in early access so hopefully it will get better as time goes by.

Any old school Heroes fans here that have tried it out? Is it like the old games or is it a pretty decent break from the formula? Anyone playing online? I'm afraid I'm going to get destroyed. Have a good day yall!

While expensive for wrestling it's very good. This is some of the hottest wrestling in the world and being able to watch the Viernes Spectacular is awesome.

My only complaint is there are a lot of luchadores who are really not great on the low card. Some are pretty cool like the Dragon tag team or Villanos but I saw Felino JR and the dude was moving in slow motion. It was hard to watch.

Still I'll say MOST of the talent can go, even old dudes like Blue Panther JR or Atlantis can still go and the top wrestlers (Mascara Dorada, Mistico, Hechicero) are straight up great.

Anyways I'm not rich in fact I make only like 23 an hour but Ive been managing my money carefully and I've been able to afford it. I spent about $50 ON wrestling a month (NJPW, CMLL and Wrestling Observer) and I go see AEW once or twice a year for like $80. I'm not going to lie I share an account with my friend for peacock and MAX lol.

But it's been epic. This weeks episode was crazy. Also I hated Rizzo at first but now I like pretty much everyone. At this point they are all likeable. the immunity challenge was especially Emotional when she Just smashed her face in the sand and started crying. Jeff is kind of a character too he's more than just a host but I thought it was hilarious when Aubrey was making faces at tribal council kind of mocking Jeff's monologuing about dopamine.

What do you think about these guys? Okumura has been a Japanese stalwart in Mexico as communitor. Yutani is awesome Shoma Kato has been quite good. What are your thoughts