Alopecia has held me back so much
My alopecia started when i was in elementary/middle school, my mom believed that oils and creams would bring my hair back and I fell into that hope too but as time went on nothing grew back and it kept me confined to one hairstyle that covers it when gelled down, while everyone else was changing hairstyles and trying new things I felt like I couldnt explore/try out new versions of myself. Whenever someone liked me I felt like if they had know I had alopecia they wouldnt like me anymore/when i did go out with someone they had asked me why i never change my hair/it always stays the same which sucked to hear. My mom did my hair for me everyday which also kept me confined because I couldnt just walk out the door when I wanted to, everything would be on her timing, which means anything I wanted to do didnt happen/got delayed. I was scared to branch out and possibly go to a four year college in another state because i didnt know how to do my hair and wouldn’t be able to look presentable as well as my mom kept saying I should stay in state close to her. I feel like my life would have been different without alopecia, I honestly would have gotten away from my family, but anytime i try to do anything on my own my mom is always bringing up the worst that could happen and wanting to go with me. As of right now im trying to learn how to do my curly hair on my own, but my alopecia seems to be genetic, since a couple of my other siblings have it in the same spot. Honestly im just tired, so tired of not having any versatility with my hair. Im trying to branch out more and remind myself that hair isnt all/i can still do plenty of things in life without hair, but then i see all these beautiful natural hairstyles i would have done if i had all my hair and it just makes me sad all over again.