u/mommytalk25

I feel so isolated because when me and my ex got together I was depressed and mentally broke. Im stronger than that now but then I wasn't.

I just started trying to date I told my brother and he told my sons father. I just found out the entire relationship he was cheating and we had 3 years and a son together.

He is being so hateful and telling me so many things to hurt me and I never even went on the date yet.

He told me I shouldn't date but then he told me that's he finds it funny that I would think that he would care and that he's going to see his side tonight.

I just dont know how to deal with this. Im so heartbroken and he has damaged my mental health so much I never want him back but I dont really know how to cope. Hes now talking about trying to gain custody of our son but he only saw our son for 3 hours in the past 2 months.

Long story short he broke up with me for his "spiritual calling" saying he can't find a balance and he doesn't think that I can keep up. Ever since I've had my son he has become more and more mean. In the relationship he would tell me that I need to loose weight because I gained 100 pounds when I was pregnant. (I was bedrest and he was making my life hell for not aborting my son so I ate my feelings)

Then it went to well I'm not attracted to you so I would like to have a side chick. Then he justified it by saying most men think it aren't you glad that I asked and was at least honest.

He started by seeing my son consistently every two weeks. Then it was 3 weeks and then an entire month. Then six weeks.

Now after I planned a date a month after we broke up (mind you he broke up with me and I only went on one date our entire relationship) he wants to build a connection with our son.

He would refuse to FaceTime him because he said it was an insult to his intelligence. He always calls me emotional but he insults me and calls it honesty.

He pays child support. Now I'm concerned he might try and take him. I was paranoid before but he watched our son today for three hours today.

I always check my windows to make sure they were locked. My baby sleeps in the room alone so I always check it. It is always locked. Today after watching him and getting into the fight I kicked him out. For the first time ever. I checked my windows and they were unlocked.

A few hours later I heard a sound like a click. I looked outside and I watched a guy walk off to his car that looked like his cousin but it was a different car. I feel so paranoid but also I dont want my son to go without his father.

How do I even go about keeping him at a safe distance. He told me if he wanted to take my son he would and there would be nothing I could do about it.

So all except two tests came back negative and those seemed faulty. I haven't had my period in almost 40 days and I have never missed a period before unless I was lactating.

I have been stressed but I've never missed a period because of it and nothing life changing just work and family problems work not really.

Its really abnormal and giving me anxiety but I'm waiting on my insurance card in the mail. I'm not on contraception so if anyone can help ease my mind because ovarian cancer runs in my family and I am jumping to the worst case scenario.

Before I had my son i had pretty consistent periods. I breastfed for a year ;10 months of those I did not get a period.

This month I'm 4 days late I took 2 first response both showed positive but they were blue line tests. Then I took 2 digital tests and both were negative.

I still haven't received my period and now I feel like I've wasted 40 bucks and still don't know. I feel like i should believe the digitals more but still no symptoms of a period and I've started lactating again which might be why, but pregnancy can also cause lactation.

I worked opening and close Sunday and have still been thinking about that shift. It started off normal and Then the carbon monoxide detector went off.

We evacuated the building called the non emergency and they didnt answer bc their operating hours so we had to call emergency. Apparently there was a gas leak after all (it needed new batteries so separate issue) and they had to call atmos.

After they shut off the gas we go back in and start working and then this drunk man came in and he was being kinda loud but I wasn't really paying attention. Then we had a separate customer come into the drive through asking if we had a customer by the name of Shane(fake name). Well shane was like let me holler at my boy real quick and runs behind the counter and starts talking to his friend at the window.

Our manager is talking to him the baristas are yelling at him and I'm on bar so I mind my business. Then finally he returned to the lobby to receive his drink and the manager handed it to him and was like and by the way don't do that again. And he said and I quote "yes daddy" and my jaw dropped i didn't believe it was real I was like where are the cameras at.