u/niaswish

Hey everyone. My dad has NPD, and be would beat me alot or give me conditional love. But I've been empty since I was a child. It could be depersonalisation derealisation disorder, but I can't link things together and km watching myself live instead of living and feeling! I don't know if I feel emotions! Guys, I'm so scared. I don't even properly register that there are other people. I don't know what that means!! I don't feel I exist!!! I want to care and to love and to have an identity. I have no sense of self

Guys am I a psychopath? Please help . I don't know what's wrong. What if im the narcissist?? I am taking a course on healing narcissism just in case. I refuse to be like that. I want to be good for people.

Hey loves just in case another girl is going through what I am, I have an Ndad and I am 19 now. I think dad is getting better, but not sure

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But anyway, I've always been attached to men. I get along with them more, I am friends with them more. I get attached to old male teachers. I've always wanted an older brother, or a father daughter relationship. I really like men and I don't know why. Just kind and caring ones I guess, or genuine, I don't like violent or angry or scary men.

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Just normalising in case any other girl is going through this🙂.

I have had this since I was a child. I saw my narcissistic dad last week and since then it had stopped I can't feel anything not even anxiety.

I was into manifesting and I'm so scared that I'm controlling everything. I'm so scared of thinking the wrong thought and ruining someone life or ruining my relationships or ruining my morals or anything

I have blank mind and I only do what I have to do. People get so confused wren I don't care about my body. I feel like this body is for others. Its not mine, and I owe my body to people . Not in a sexual way. But if someone wants something from me I must do it. I have no other purpose.

I have such awful blank mind . To get myself back a bit, this year I implanted kind thoughts in my head. I created thoughts when there would be nothing there. This eased my depersonalisation a bit and for the first time I felt like myself a bit but still not connected to my body

I don't have emotions unless I think. I must create a thought. I must think about what's going to feel otherwise I am completely out of it.

I can't deal with this guys...I think I'm a psychopath. I can't keep thinking forever, I can't live.

Please any insight

Hey guys I have had this since I was a child. How do I know I am not a psychopath??? I'm really scared. There is no "before" for me to compare things to. I have always had shallow emotions☹️

I won't make it, I am not properly human and I never will be. I think I am evil deep down so I must go before I become bad! I can't do this .

My boyfriend is lovely , and I love when we share time together, I can't believe that he likes me. He is the most wonderful boy in the world. He is kind and cool and he is himself. He is not split between "good traits and bad traits" he is just himself and I love him. I miss him all the time

Hey you guys, check out my posts I had horrific HORRIFIC dpdr. HORRIFIC. I also thought I was a narcissist or psychopath. I have severe moral ocd! Anyone else with any of these things please text me so i can reassure you and show you my experience so you know you will be sooo safe

I took sertraline it got so much worse I tried to commit suicide twice, I was convinced I'd never be able to connect, and with my moral ocd I got so scared what if im secretly evil?!

BUT GUYS. yesterday I was talking to my boyfriend and for the first time I was like, I have a boyfriend. I have a BOYFRIEND? HIM? He's sooooooo amazing! He likes me??? What!! He thinks I'm pretty?! He's so kind?! 4 years together whaaaaaat ???

But there is so so so much hope I promise I was struggling with identitiy shifts and unstable sense of self

Sorry I don't even know why im speaking but I talked to my boyfriend today and did not feel anything at all I don't even know im here I'm such a useless fuck and I was so mean when I was younger my boyfriend is so kind and lovely and I adore him so much it hurts why is everything all gone now I can't even explain the hatred I have for myself . I'm happy that it was me who was abuser and bullied rather than anyone else. My case is completely unique and I will never be human. I am not even an alien im something else entirely. I feel so sorry for my boyfriend and mum

Hello everyone , I am giving my life away soon because of dissociation and feeling unreal since I was a child and have no identitiy. It hurts to talk to the guy I love so much and feel not real . NO HELP PLS!

I want to ask can I somehow lengthen my family and boyfriends life by giving away mine ? I will go by the ocean and do it , can I do any cleanse and make them heal ? What are some things I can do

Can anyone help me out a bit and if I could know what are some good uv paints that are bright and how they work that would be awesome thank you everyone, I have bought all the fusion ones so far, it's for a disco birthday party I am booked for