u/no_andteam_no_life

okay so I'm considering going vegan. i know it's not just a diet and a lifestyle, i want to be committed to it. I'm starting slow, starting with going vegetarian, not eating eggs and reducing dairy. i want to commit to the full lifestyle. I'll also avoid using silk, going to zoos, riding animals (never done that but still) and try to use vegan friendly products that aren't tested on animals (lmk what else vegans do to avoid the exploration of animals)

now the question is about leather. how to know if a leather is made from an animal or if its vegan?? there's many different types of vegan leathers from what i know.

I'm an ex muslim and anti religion. but I dont know that much bs abt christianity. I'm curious to know tho lol. from whatever i know, its def pure stupidity. but what about the misogyny? lmk. i feel like it's a perfect place to ask bc yall were christian so yall most probably know shit abt that religion

tbh i questioned that religion for years. bc wtf are even those rules 😭 its so obvious its controlling and misogynistic. i was a fucking coward, i was too scared to leave. but the in oct of last year i stopped gaslighting myself. i knew i dont believe in it anymore. if a god is misogynist then I'm NOT worshipping him 🤓 a misogynist god cant be a real god

i have so many points. i want to talk about many more things in this religion. I'd love to have a full discussion about it. I'm tired of living in a muslim family and my mom constantly being fucking annoying about me not being religious. fuck it. I'm so tired of fucking faking it

all the muslims can cry in my comments. that wont make your religion right

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they all know I'm struggling very much. some even know that I'm suicidal but they don't care enough to even check up on me. no one shows up when it matters. i only had hopes from my friends but since my grandfather died, i realized they dont give a fuck. i only told people CLOSEST to me about My grandpa passing. one of them literally just said "oh. anyway. a fish bone got stuck in my throat" ??? and others didn't realy care.

being there for your friends makes a difference. how hard could it be to just send a "hey i know you're struggling. do you wanna talk about it? are you okay?" or anything like that. i thought friends were supposed to be there for you but my friends only make me feel lonelier

i feel some kind of resentment towards them now

yesterday a random person on reddit (complete stranger btw) cared enough to message and ask if I'm okay and they said i can vent to them and comforted me. that made me tear up bc wdym a stranger cared more than my own friends?

its not just about checking up anymore. if i send a little smt (not a complete rant but a little msg ranting?) in our friend gc then i just get ghosted like wow

reddit is becoming more comforting than my own friend group. I'm cooked

many of them have been my friends from 2-3 years so it's not really easy to just unfriend them or smt. and I'm a coward ass who's been taught to just suck it up. i suck it up and carry the resentment with me🙃

okay so i thought it won't be too hard to open up in the consultation session. but i was so crazy nervous and anxious i could barely speak. i thought I'd be more comfortable with english but i was so nervous no words came out of my mouth. i talked in my native language hindi. i wasn't abt to convey my emotions well because of the language

first therapy session is on tuesday. I'm scared i won't be able to express myself well and main points. i have many regrets about the consultation session. i forgot to mention some of the other things I've been struggling with

the thought of someone's entire focus and attention being on me and having eye contact with them for 30-45 mins makes me extremely anxious. i struggle with confidence and social anxiety mainly because no one has ever taken me srsly and my feelings have been dismissed bc I'm just a "kid" and the youngest in my family. I'm a legal adult next year still

my therapist seems nice and understanding so I'm grateful for that. I was scared of getting a shitty therapist or having a negative experience

I'm 16 and live with my parents. my mom abuses me in every possible way. emotionally, mentally, sexually and physically. she physically abuses me to the point its basically attempted murder

there are so many things I'm scared to talk about with my therapist. what if she takes legal actions ??? my mom will ruin my life if anything happened

okay so today was my consultation session and from tomorrow I'm starting therapy. but my biggest concern is my mom and sister hearing what I'm talking about :( if they get to know about anything then I'm cooked. I'd rather let 1000 strangers know about my problems than my family. my family is the main problem and one of the main reason i need therapy

i was talking really quietly but my sister was still able to hear me. she didn't understood but if she pays attention then she'll understand. which she will bc she doesn't give a fck about someone's privacy. same with mom. my mom has selective hearing, she usually can't hear anything unless it benefits her or if it's someone's personal matter 😃 specifically when I'm venting to my dad

if i focus mainly on "can they hear me??? am i speak too loudly??" then I won't be able to focus on therapy and open up to the therapist.

i tried telling my mom to just go outside during my session but she's saying she's never leave me alone. bruh. then she was saying she and her daughter will just stand there in the parking. its all lies i know, i know she will end up sitting in that room. I'm so anxious about this omg i cant even sleep thinking about this

so like I'm looking for a city to move to that fills in with all my requirements. i saw someone say lucknow. i personally dont have any knowledge about how it is there and I've never been to lucknow. but i want to know if it fills into my requirements. here are my requirements

•affordability

•safe for women

•job opportunities (for a high school graduate)

•must be a major hindi speaking city

•must have rickshaws

•atleast decent cleanliness and atleast decent built roads and public places (optional)

would be prefer if someone from lucknow/someone who lived in lucknow would answer :D

i really need help with this! so good and alt co both brand's oat milk are available at the same price on zepto currently. 180-200 ml packs! i need help from someone who's tried both

also. i have a question. do we have to add water in oat milk to make chai? I've heard that oat milk chai gets a bit weird texture so adding water helps with the texture. is it true?

any recommendations guys? i couldn't find cheese alternative at all🥲 as for milk, I'd make it at home. and for butter, i did find some vegan butter thats pretty much the same/similar price as the regular butter which is a win! but my main problem is chocolate and ice cream🥲 i dont want dark chocolate. isnt there any brand that sells vegan milk chocolate? maybe with oat, soy, almond or smt other milk?

i did find vegan kitkat but the price was CRAZY. 700 rupees 😭😭 hell nah.

also. it's hard to find some vegan things. like bread, burger buns, biscuits, rusk or anything to eat with chai 💔

i believe you just need to have empathy to avoid animal products. even i dont love animals, but I'm still on my vegan journey you could say. is it really worth it to eat something that has harmed another living being? we're all living beings. we share the same planet. they feel pain and they deserve to live too. being trapped in a small dirty farm house with 50 other cows, being raped, being forced to produce milk, being treated as milk machine, ur baby calf being taken away from you and all that isnt really living lmao, it's just suffering, it's just living through hell.

yeah so from like 2 days ago, since i found some reality behind dairy and eggs industry and how cows/buffalos and hens are treated and since then I've want to become vegan. i know there's alternatives for all the dairy and stuff but i dont know any alternative for ice cream and chocolate 🥲🥲 even if i find smt, will it taste good? they're expensive af too. even alternative milks are expensive.

i wouldn't call myself a vegan yet but I'd say I'm going for more plant based diet and avoiding all the cruelty as much as possible

and as for eggs, i can pretty much live without an alternative

it's a little hard for me to process this knowing i wouldn't get to enjoy many of my fav foods bc they have some dairy or eggs to it.

also. I got to know about coconut milk powder, can it be added to teas and coffees?

edit: I'm from india guys!!! specifically, from a city in Maharashtra

I'm 16. i left islam 7 months ago and i definitely feel freedom after leaving but my family (mainly mom) isnt letting me feel the freedom properly 🥲 no one in my family knows that i left this controlling and misogynist religion and they wont find out until i escape my house in a few years. till then I'd have to pretend to be a muslim and act like i believe on pure bs. I'm sorry i genuinely cant be respectful towards religions 🙏🏼 i used to try to be respectful but i dont even try anymore lmao. everytime i go out, i have to cover myself head to toe and look basically like a batman lmao. I'm honestly already tired of living in muslim household. it was an absolute nightmare during ramadan omg. so glad that month is over

i literally have so much to rant about religion and religious bs omg. I've always questioned religion but didn't have the courage to leave before but I'm so proud of myself for finally having the courage to leave in October of last year.

i feel so much peace not having to check ingredients behind every package and look for halal things. i sneakily eat haram food hahaha

bro literally everything is a sin in this religion. having fun or living the way you want to live? sin. im so glad i dont believe in any of ts anymore. i cant wait to escape, live alone, cut off my whole family and just live the way i want to without any religious restrictions

thats the question i have. if it is then I'd like to write more posts in future. but if i get attacked then I'll just stick to insta i guess lmao 😭😭