u/notacatinyourmailbox

Like I lack the social awareness and capabilities most people have naturally. This is a corner stone in not only being accepted into society but also succeeding in it. So in that respect, it was over from the start.

I am really tired of everything. I have missed out on a lot of stuff most people call their life. I don’t want to be that guy that dies alone in his apartment. But it seems it’s my fate? I honestly don’t have much to look forward to. And there’s not many people that can really relate to me or understand me. I am not saying this to be edgy or anything but that is my experience from everyone that I have interacted with so far.

Almost 30 now. Tried putting myself out there by placing myself in scenes where naturally there are a lot of people (bars and streets lining them). Not a single glance from a woman or anything. If anything if I look at them they look away or try to pretend they didn’t see me.

It’s embarrassing to be this old, not have much experience talking to women, not having a single date or anything. In high school I was called a creep and I guess to this day that same aura carries on. Idk if it’s autism or what. It really sucks being completely alone.

Tech jobs have been wiped out. Only the most senior roles are left and they’re doing their job plus the work of a junior or two bc yeah u have an AI agent now to help.

The ECONOMY is beyond fucked due to the Iran war and general fuckery of greed and other shit making inflation go up.

My boss who just hired me is now thinking the work can be left to the seniors on the team and has warned me my job will be cut soon. The seniors who were initially mentoring me completely stopped talking to me.

I’m looking at some large companies in the niche industry I was in and there’s some with literally ZERO openings. These are billion dollar companies too btw.

Oh and now I have bills to pay or else I’m homeless.

It’s really looking like I’m going to have to scrape by and hope I get a nightshift gig at a grocery or something. I’m already skipping meals to save some $ for I know what’s coming.

I’ve said before life isn’t worth living and I’m still on that hill unless you’re some successful normie born with a silver spoon or some shit.

Tech jobs have been wiped out. Only the most senior roles are left and they’re doing their job plus the work of a junior or two bc yeah u have an AI agent now to help.

The ECONOMY is beyond fucked due to the Iran war and general fuckery of greed and other shit making inflation go up.

My boss who just hired me is now thinking the work can be left to the seniors on the team and has warned me my job will be cut soon. The seniors who were initially mentoring me completely stopped talking to me.

I’m looking at some large companies in the niche industry I was in and there’s some with literally ZERO openings. These are billion dollar companies too btw.

Oh and now I have bills to pay or else I’m homeless.

It’s really looking like I’m going to have to scrape by and hope I get a nightshift gig at a grocery or something. I’m already skipping meals to save some $ for I know what’s coming.

I’ve said before life isn’t worth living and I’m still on that hill unless you’re some successful normie born with a silver spoon or some shit.

Someone DMd me a while back asking how I was and stuff and today they told me to kill myself and called me ugly. You don’t know what kind of snakes are here just waiting to stab you in the back.

No longer a NEET, but now I have zero support system and have to deal with the burden of surviving alone. Don’t have any family members left. Corporations are evil and will drop you the second you’re not profitable to them. Ai is taking almost every job now. There is not a single person on earth that cares. I can try to work on a side hustle but the chances of that making any money is slim to none.

And apparently I have at least 40 years of this to go. Fuck.

I go outside and I see families, couples, friends. Then there’s just me. Walking alone. I am so done with life. Every fucking weekend is the exact same. I am tired of repeating the same thing every fucking weekend. Idk why i have been denied the things everyone else has. Nothing is changing. I am working out, dressing better, going out more. Nothing is changing. I’m 29 now so trying to find new social circles is nearly impossible. I’m so tired of everything

At work I have a uniform and then I usually change into gym clothes and use that for the rest of the day. I want to ascend and get women but I am lost where to wear these nice clothes. I don’t like nightclubs or bars. And I don’t go to church either. I don’t have dates or anything either so there’s no point wearing nice clothes to go to some restaurant or other place alone.

So what is left? I can only think maybe a coffee store but then people are usually wearing headphones and stuff and don’t want to be bothered.

There’s nothing to look forward to. Everyone just trying to make money. People don’t want to talk to each other or have relationships. Rich people getting to unimaginable levels of greed and fucking over the rest of the population . At best you become a modern day slave if you can’t cut it as an influencer or onlyfans model. And even that you have to fight for or else you’re homeless. Housing and basic needs are becoming pipe dreams.

And yet we’re supposed to want to be part of the system have kids apparently?

Went to the park the other day and saw this guy with a camper on the back of his bicycle. He would set up his laptop using a portable battery station and not move from there for hours. No idea what he was doing on it. He seemed intelligent but was emotionless.

So I’m potentially looking at moving out to an apartment but I’d have just few $100 after I pay rent. I am bringing a pet with me and just for a small cat they want $500 pet deposit and $35 in pet rent!!!

Can you imagine if I am stressing over the pet rent bc that is her food and litter, what it would be like to stress over an actual human that is growing?

Been single my whole life. Nobody has ever wanted to talk to me or know me. In school I was the person sitting alone. At work as well. I want to love someone but I am afraid there is nobody that would want to love me. There is that movie the 40 year old virgin or something, I’m starting to think that will be me without the happy ending. I am trying to ascend but I don’t know if it will be enough.

Jobs are easy. You go to work, be somewhat productive, then get a paycheck.

But trying to make money on your own seems like an impossible feat. Even if you have a skill at something you can get a few side gigs here and there but they usually don’t pay well enough to sustain yourself like any job could.

Whenever you feel lonely remember this

Like more often than not you’d see posts here about how OP says everyone finds them attractive but they never acted on it or fumbled or whatever.

What about those of us who never experienced any kind of attention? Like you would think by nature there would be at least someone attracted to you but you can’t even get so much as a glance from anyone.