u/notoriousnordic

I always see people on this subreddit asking for espresso leopard, so set your alarms because it’s confirmed it’ll be available to purchase.

I have a feeling it’s going to get sold out within 5 minutes

One year ago today me and my ex decided to end our relationship.

What followed for the next 5 months after that was basically us still being heavily emotionally involved with one another while trying desperately to make our relationship work and to eventually get back together.

In January we had our final argument and he completely went radio silent on me for over 2 months. It was the most painful and distressing moments of my life because I never experienced getting ghosted especially from someone I once loved. March comes around and I’m ready to close this chapter because I can’t be with someone who can’t communicate properly, and I was trying to accept the fact that our relationship has completely flatlined and there was no going back. He breaks his silence and gives his excuses to why he did what he did. He also confessed to me that he’s still hurt over our relationship ending, the memories and how they emotionally have a toll on him, how his heart breaks into “pieces” when he thinks of me, and how he bought me this one gift while he was overseas in December and how completely “gutted” he was that he never got the chance to gift me it in person.

Fast forward two weeks, in the beginning of April I see him doing a fundraiser and notice a girl who was the first donation. Never heard of her before but I had a gut feeling, I know it wasn’t my place to ask him but at the same time I was struggling to let go of my love for him. I asked him about her and he denied knowing her, calling her a “complete stranger” and telling me repeatedly “I’m with no one.”. He then reiterated that “I told you how I felt in March. I still feel that way and I’m trying desperately to fix my mental health”. From this point on it’s pure silence. In the beginning of June I find out that they’re indeed together. I ended up finding her Pinterest and saw she’s been making boards of “Engagement” “Wedding Ring” “Traditional outfits”. My heart sunk to my ass.

In January during our final conversation he was telling me how much he loves me, dreams of me, prays for our reunion etc. Comparing it to now it’s mind boggling to know he’s completely moved on and is in the process of getting married to her. Not sure why I’m posting this tonight, but it’s nice to reflect back on what happened within the last 7 months. I’ve cried a lot from January-June where I’m unable to produce any tears, and if I do cry it’s only the odd time nowadays. All I have left is feelings of anger and betrayal to process and I’m doing so with the help of my therapist. I will say this though: it gets easier with time.

As of now: I look forward to what the remaining 4 months of the year and 2027 have to offer me. As painful as this situation has been, and how it still somewhat stings to know how quickly my ex has moved on with another woman, I’m genuinely grateful that our relationship never worked out. I can see things more clearly now that I couldn’t before when I was still in that situation with my ex, and I’m forever grateful I was given this heartbreak to better myself in all avenues and to build a better life for myself as I’m only 25 and currently in the midst of planning for Law school. For weeks leading up to this day I was dreading it because I thought it was going to be painful for me, but it actually turned out to be the opposite and I had a wonderful day!

If there’s anything someone reading this should take away, please don’t ignore the things that make you feel unsafe, uncertain, or unvalued in a relationship. You don’t have to understand why someone treated you so badly in order to choose yourself and walk away. Sometimes the ending that destroys you is the same ending that eventually saves you.

One year ago today me and my ex decided to end our relationship.

What followed for the next 5 months after that was basically us still being heavily emotionally involved with one another while trying desperately to make our relationship work and to eventually get back together.

In January we had our final argument and he completely went radio silent on me for over 2 months. It was the most painful and distressing moments of my life because I never experienced getting ghosted especially from someone I once loved. March comes around and I’m ready to close this chapter because I can’t be with someone who can’t communicate properly, and I was trying to accept the fact that our relationship has completely flatlined and there was no going back. He breaks his silence and gives his excuses to why he did what he did. He also confessed to me that he’s still hurt over our relationship ending, the memories and how they emotionally have a toll on him, how his heart breaks into “pieces” when he thinks of me, and how he bought me this one gift while he was overseas in December and how completely “gutted” he was that he never got the chance to gift me it in person.

Fast forward two weeks, in the beginning of April I see him doing a fundraiser and notice a girl who was the first donation. Never heard of her before but I had a gut feeling, I know it wasn’t my place to ask him but at the same time I was struggling to let go of my love for him. I asked him about her and he denied knowing her, calling her a “complete stranger” and telling me repeatedly “I’m with no one.”. He then reiterated that “I told you how I felt in March. I still feel that way and I’m trying desperately to fix my mental health”. From this point on it’s pure silence. In the beginning of June I find out that they’re indeed together. I ended up finding her Pinterest and saw she’s been making boards of “Engagement” “Wedding Ring” “Traditional outfits”. My heart sunk to my ass.

In January during our final conversation he was telling me how much he loves me, dreams of me, prays for our reunion etc. Comparing it to now it’s mind boggling to know he’s completely moved on and is in the process of getting married to her. Not sure why I’m posting this tonight, but it’s nice to reflect back on what happened within the last 7 months. I’ve cried a lot from January-June where I’m unable to produce any tears, and if I do cry it’s only the odd time. All I have is feelings of anger and betrayal left to process and I’m doing so with the help of my therapist. I will say this though: it gets easier with time.

As of now: I look forward to what the remaining 4 months of the year and 2027 have to offer me. As painful as this situation has been, and how it still somewhat stings when I think about my ex jumping into a serious relationship with the new woman, I’m genuinely grateful that our relationship never worked out. I can see things more clearly now that I couldn’t before when I was still in that situation with my ex, and I’m forever grateful I was given this heartbreak to better myself in all avenues and to build a better life for myself as I’m only 25 and currently in the midst of planning for Law school. For weeks leading up to this day I was dreading it because I thought it was going to be painful for me, but it actually turned out to be the opposite and I had a wonderful day!🫶🏼

If there’s anything someone reading this should take away, please don’t ignore the things that make you feel unsafe, uncertain, or unvalued in a relationship. You don’t have to understand why someone treated you so badly in order to choose yourself and walk away. Sometimes the ending that destroys you is the same ending that eventually saves you.

You often hear how female reverts have it easier for marriage, but I feel like I’m experiencing the opposite as a female. Here’s some insight into my experiences:

The old potential: Took place in late 2024, parents didn’t accept me fully based on my ethnicity (they wanted a Pakistani daughter in law only).

The new potential: June 2026- also Pakistani, his parents are hyperfocused on education level but will not care too much about my background (ethnicity, etc) which is great. However, I’m still in my undergrad as a Psyc major, but I’m currently working towards law school insha’Allah. His father would throw a fit about me still being in my undergrad (with under 1.5 years left until graduating). We had just met days ago and are in the process of getting to know each other, however I do feel a little discouraged.

To be honest, I value education myself and respect their wishes but I think the bigger focus should be on deen, akhlaq, and compatibility. I’m a revert of 4 years, but have been practicing heavily for the last 3 years. However I will say though that both potentials have told me that their families would test or quiz me on my knowledge of Islam, did anybody else experience such questions as well?

To any revert male or female revert who would love to tell their stories or how they navigate these situations, please left me know. I feel like I’m jumping through hoops just to find a potential.