u/okeynafs

Pcb student here 😔🙏🏻 meko bsc chemistry chahiye gharwale du ke alva pvt mai nahi kraengeee
( pcb students are not eligible for opting chemistry )

so i was manifesting that i get of this household my entrance came today and didnt get good results and im going to get a good beating now i cant get it reevaluate as well as im stuck here forever i did every thing subliminals just dont work

likes its not fluid or anything get hard and can easily be removed is it a concern im just 20

im not on going thru pregnancy as well do i need to talk to dr ?

So i gave a entrance exam idk i m not sure if i will get in university ands its very much important for me to get out of this house (there’s lot of abuse i go thru everyday) someone pls guide me

I used nail glue for the first time and removing the press-on nails is hurting my natural nails i used to use sticky tabs before and when some of them were successfully removed there was still hard glue left on my nails

i have been taking therapies for more than a year now, the sessions are more like im venting out which i can do infront of my frnds as well mtlb 💔 idk im making no progress ik i have to do the work and i understand therapist have their own life i only contact her when i genuinely need helpp and the replies are always meh like i regret texting her in short meri nhi baith rhi unke sath im open to any changes if anyone think im the one who is not doing the work but work kru kya 😀💔 as well as im clg going to budget is around 1500-2000

20f i have been taking therapies but I still feel i haven’t made any progress i have alot of childhood trauma i got physically and emotionally abused alot and ig i keep repeating a particular pattern in my frndship and relationships my self esteem is kinda meh I dont even find anything fun atp ? Also i avoid making friends i keep repeating self love affirmations but nothing seem to work i feel i have become so toxic and have isolated myself alot im still in this house where my grandfather decides my career and everything i do and even my college which is a state clg where i have to go just to give exam and study a course which i dont even likee and when i tried to rebel that i dont wanna go there they questioned my character that i want to go into co ed college and want to make boyfriend and i have low score im not deserving 🥲
i did try to study but i cant do it either as most of my trauma is connected to studies like i used to get beaten by grandfather alot if i didnt get single ans correct and now i dont feel like studying i avoid as much as possible i tell my therapist about this she tells me to push myself but i did and i keep losing 🥲🙏🏻 sorryy my eng not that good

Thori der pdhne baithti hu fir 20-30min baad uth jati hu most probable solution try krli i give up 😀💔🙏🏻hogya mera im
Not made for this
Also females onlii 🥲 koi mere sath meet pe pdh skti to im in

Earlier people advised me to listen to self concept which i did and idk if they worked or not ? I hold lot of trauma of physical abuse from childhood and growing up in teen got severely bullied and had a emotionally and physically abusive relationship like literally one was so physically abusive another rltn i got into was a stalker like in a very bad way and guess what now im attracted to chase and run types of rltnship i do get therapy but still i want to boost my process as i dont haveee enough money to get more than 2 sessions per month 🥲 i searched here and there a bit i never found journaling helpful or maybe im doing wrong and shadow work eh? The prompt que i use feel like idek the answers ?? Guidance would really be helpful

idk what shld i do to get overnight results when i wasnt on reddit i never felt the urge to get overnight results but many get them overnightt what im doing wrong smh😩