u/pocketchimchar

I can still feel your fingers on my skin in my dreams the way they felt all those years ago
I wake up and it’s hard to believe you left after all the things you said about forever
You’d think 11 years would be enough to forget
But I can still feel your lips on my neck that one night
And deep down inside I hope you feel mine too

I want you to miss me
I want you to see the things I’ve accomplished in spite of you,
Regret how you ran
I wouldn’t be mad if you thought of me on your wedding day
Standing on that altar, choosing your forever
In a reflection, we were so short and so small in the grand scheme
But to me, it was the world and you chose wrong

Linoleum floors and that whiteboard marker smell
Alphabetical order seating chart, diagonal desks
Twice a week you graced us
Where did you hide when you never showed?

Fourteen years old, naivety was my only option
I didn’t know who I was or who I could turn out to be
Back then, the answer was no one
It seemed like you had it all figured out at just three years my elder
I don’t remember why we connected and I never figured out why me

Almost a year later, you flew across the country and came home with your arm painted
It represented me, you said, in that flowy, dancing way with words of yours
The postcard signed I love you is still trapped beneath my bed
I met the mailman every morning that week so no one found it before I did
They couldn’t know about what you meant to me, we were just friends after all
Even with that convincing tongue, you never convinced me that I meant the same to you

You drove us around our innocent town in your car that ran on fumes
Nothing bad had ever happened here before
There were girls before me, I grew weary of why suddenly I was the right choice
You spoke the most evil words, each syllable trickling like acid
You would take their innocence, that way they’d never forget you
But I wasn’t like them, what we have is real
You would never do that to me

So you took
And I let you take
Do you know how much you took from me that day?

Everyday was supposed to be the day I moved on
Everyday is still supposed to be the day I move on

I’ve never left your aunt’s house
Where we watched my favorite movie that night and you made pancakes for breakfast
You never saw a single minute of that movie, our eyes focused far away
You introduced me to your family and told them I was special
I got used to the idea of your family being mine
I never saw them again
I wonder if they wonder where I went
I am trapped in the walls of that house
Is your guilt stuck there with me, or do I live alone?

A sick piece of me hopes you’re my roommate
A different timeline is out there where you ended up mine
I’m the one on that altar and your lips are stuck to my neck
On the worst days, I ask why the wrong universe had to be my universe

I hope you check in on me every now and then, to make sure I’m alright after what you did
My fingers, skin, lips, neck, arms, tongue, eyes, and especially my mind
They’re on you

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Sakura proved on the show that she can learn quickly. She may not be on the same level as the other girls that have been training for several years, but she’s clearly trying her best. Wait until we get some more recent material until you judge her skills - a lot can change in a few months.

Debuting is her dream come true, so let’s give her a shot before we decide how good she is. Don’t hate on a young girl for following her dreams. It may not be the result you wanted, but unfortunately, this is the result. Maybe it would’ve been different if the show was aired in real-time.

If Sakura really wants this, which it truly seems like she does, she is going to work hard, kick some butt, and get into shape to blend in seamlessly with the other 3 members. Let’s see what she can do over these next few weeks before we decide she was the “wrong piece”.

I’m in my mid-twenties trying to get back into eye makeup and I fear i currently look like I walked straight out of 2015 à la beauty YouTuber 😂 what’s the current look?