u/rainyrain423

Hi! I'm an int student who's completing my A levels- I've been very fortunate that i'm being with a host family in Brighton. I've been to the Jubilee library once (briefly) and it was quite nice but unfortunately there was like a drummer/parade event going on outside(?) which was quite interesting to say the least but unfortunately it was a bit disruptive.

My biggest concern is if the library is going to be packed during exam season and i'm not sure if there'll be a lot of disruptions. I think i'd probably stay until the library closes as i don't want to disrupt my host family much 😅 so if anyone has pulled an all-day, 7 days a week studying session there, please give me a review of how it went! Thank you!

Also i apologise if this is a dumb question because more than likely libraries are gonna be full during exam seasons, but still I just want to hear about your experiences in general 🙏 thank you!

Polar... my baby... my sweet child. The day you were born... I named you 19.4%. Even though the world was cruel, even when I could not bring myself to look at other questions- it was you, the light of my life, who gave me hope for at least 11 marks. 19.4%. Amidst hyperbolics and ln something different d4y/dx4 attacking me, only you stood by my side. Though I was frightened by you at first, you became my one and only saviour from this hell. May you stay with me until further pure and further mechanics, so that I can do well enough to get an A.

I will no longer tolerate anyone who slanders polar coordinates anymore. From today onwards I will only love polar coordinates with all of my might

(For everything else i might eat salt. If further mech and further pure don't work out cuz now i mean minimum 70 across both papers for a chance at an A. Hoping they pull a 2020 and the grade boundary is 220 or sum 💔💔🙏 I'm actually so sad and the only reason i haven't given up yet is because i wanna pull for Himeko SP)

Last paper was so easy but i still fumbled and like it's literally today. I did so many past papers and found out that i tend to make really basic arithmetic mistakes that loses me so many marks, which means last paper i had lost A TON of marks (e.g. integration question- i was so tired i didnt realise u could split it EVEN THOUGH i did the same type of question just the night before. Yeah. Exam my ass. If I knew how to do to, why didn't i do it? I genuinely hate myself). The easy paper. I only have myself to blame because i was fully in panic mode. But the other one is coming up and if i don't get like 70+ it's essentially over, not to mention i take mechanics and further pure which means grade boundaries are super high. Any encouragement will be fine. Need an A now cuz i can't even expect A*.

Parents expect academic perfection and imma be honest i'm very close to preventing aerobic respiration in my blood circulation system 🙏🙏 gonna go revise even though im tired

I need like 2 A*s and 2 As. I really genuinely feel like the biggest failure (i'm gonna be honest I 100% am and I take credibility for that). I've studied so hard and was so prepared but then I just panicked and blanked out. I don't know how. I did like almost every past paper, did thorough checks of my mistakes, and still ended up blanking out on like 3 5-marker questions and now I'm 100% sure I might not even get an A. I know i'm not smart, i always knew to never be arrogant and think it's okay to not revise, so that's why I always fucking do. But it doesn't matter when my brain refuses to listen to me. Did i at least attempt all questions? Yes. But i'm still going to lose like 20 marks I fear. And I KNOW it was an easy paper- everyone has been telling me it is and i knew it was an easy paper because I COULD do it. I just didn't do it. It feels like my future is completely dark. I feel like all doors have closed on me. I NEEDED an A* in FM. I'm not gonna get it. "Go to clearing" I'm an international student- I have to go to specific unis otherwise I won't be financially supported. I can't support myself because I have completely given up my entire life for this- going to a uni abroad. I can't go back. I'm actually so doomed. I can't even take a gap year because shame culture around here is so fucking strong. The next paper is gonna be 100% harder. I really hate myself gang I couldn't get into the uni I wanted originally, firmed another good uni, but now I won't be able to go there because I was too stupid to just do it.

I just really hope I regain the will to live through this because the past week i've been hyping myself up (and my mental health was rapidly improving) telling myself things will get better and I want to live and be happy, but then this happens. It's like any time in my life I get a slight moment of joy, my bad karma from a previous life catches up with to me. Just what kind of horrible person was I in my last life to have this happen to me all the time bruh 💔

So basically I pulled for Compsci when it was still T0 but now Prydwen (cant spell) says it's T5 and at best T2 with Partner++ but i think choosing CS as my subject with T5 employability in the current meta honestly bricked my account. I'm studying for my A levels right now but all I can think is how strong the competition will be when I go to uni and if I can even clear the endgame modes in my life with this major. Do you think there's a chance for this major to get a novaflare buff??? I really wanna clear this endgame mode called "job".

I take maths but as it is exam season my brain cannot take it to see more maths in my free time. Please, explain it to me in such a way that you kindly understand and take it into consideration that I am not a very intelligent person. What I seem to understand is that 100% approximately CR is best after the "bug" (which isnt really a bug), yet I am also understanding that 70% should be fine as well within certain teams.

In addition, I am a philosophy student. There seems to be a terrible problem in HSR. I have read the eidolon and skills definitions and, may I say, it is too much alike to what I have to read on metaethics (it means i need to use too much of my brain to understand) thank you.

Tldr: please help dont understand why bug do what with bug- is bug? how to build help help dont understand please