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Admittedly it was my insurance but i initially fought with my head of academics to change it to my firm. I'm going to be honest, i like the community at St Andrews better than at Edinburgh. But since St Andrews had a safer offer i was told to pick Edinburgh over St Andrews... blablabla, results day, didn't make it, back to St Andrews.

She has been screaming at me non-stop because 1) St Andrews is far away and would require more costs 2) St Andrews is not up there globally despite great UK-based rankings and 3) I didn't try hard enough, that's why I didn't get the grades I needed.

See, even if I'm hurt cuz she looks at me different now, as long as she's on board with me that this is a good school and I haven't failed her that much, I feel like i'll have a reason to keep going. I want to go. I mean, hell, if i didn't wanna go, i wouldn't have applied. I really, really wanted to go here. Dude, this is my dream. I would've never been happy at Edinburgh, I begged her to put it as my first choice. I hate rankings. God I hate rankings. That's all she cares about.

Created an unnecessary hostage situation. Typical "confident but annoying" child personality. I am actually seething.

"But she's just a child" SO WHAT? You can be young and stupid, and this is where she is. And damn right she's stupid.

🥹💔 I am so stupid. Was just reading the cute scenarios people left then got hit with the final. I didn't even know it was the final i just thought it was angst until someone replied "omg i am in denial of the final episode" and I was like WHAT is this canon???? I'm so stupid lord forgive me I thought i was safe cuz it's just a cute little playlist 😂

Luckily i still don't know exactly what went down (?) but i just know who >!dies!<. I mean, i knew >!they'd die!< in the final regardless BUT i had no idea how >!they went out!< and the little scenario comment gave me some insights. Some. And ouch. Say anything (without much spoilers) that'll make me feel a little better... please.... if there's anything that can be said at all

Hey guys! As a first time watcher, i began to really like the aesthetics of the show and want to incorporate it a bit into my wardrobe 🙏 the problem is that i'm not really sure what style the characters are wearing and which pieces of clothings are called what specifically. I should also mention that I live in Asia just because there are some brands which I see people mainly recommending that aren't available in my country, or if they are, the sizing chart doesn't fit me.

Ik this might be a confusing question sorry i'm not sure how to word it. Honestly I like what Ruby wears (I think S2? When she first showed up basically). Any recs will be much helpful, thank you!!

P.s. i live within the East Asia region so I can access any brands within China, HK, and Japan, and I can use EA andSEA shopping tools as well (e.g. Taobao, Shoppee). Unfortunately my country is pretty niche and i might be the only one from there who's an SPN fan so i can't dox myself 🥲

I had to switch to my Ipad with keyboard to write this. This is how you know it's getting serious. And guess what? When I finished. Boom. Jared's photo op dropped for FTLOSPN. Made it just in time, wonder what this means... oh right, it's God mocking me, because Sam is freaking CONDEMNED and Dean is living his "apple pie" life but I still can't help but feel this is an extremely, extremely tragic ending. Yeah, sure, we see Sam stand outside briefly as like a final "I believe" type shi (i've seen stranger things). But you're telling me, this was Kripke's idea for the finale, supposedly, before S6 was greenlit? Buddy, did you kiss the brick before you threw it at me???? You gonna pay for my cardiologist bills or what?

But yeah. It was meant to be like that. I think. It made sense. It's not a good ending for them (in the sense that the people involved aren't living the happiest life) but it made sense. Freedom or peace?

In another world, I hope the series somehow ended with everyone getting their best lives. Like, Dean gets to have a family but Sam's also alive and thriving. Of course I'm just fantasising and hoping in another world, this is how S5 ends (or, just how the entire series end, in general). I know it won't happen. But man. Self-sacrifice. I hate self-sacrifice. I hate it, not because it's bad, but because it's so tragic.

And Hell fucking sucks. when I watched the Dean going through Hell episode, it was really tragic. Like, no one wants to go through Hell. It's obvious but on-screen, when you see it with your eyes, when you get to think about it happening to someone you care for, it's just horrible. It's absolute horror. And to think that Sam has to go through that and Dean will live with the knowledge that Sam is going through that is like. It's painful. Basically.

For how I read it, it was definitely not a happy ending for either of them. It wasn't even bittersweet. Sure, Dean will go on to have a normal family, Bobby will keep on hunting (and hopefully Crowley refunds his soul), but as family, they will always know. Sam isn't "dead". He isn't at peace. He's in Hell.

GUYS WHAT THE FREAK DUDE WHAT THE HELL I SAVED S5 UNTIL THE VERY LAST. I had an SPN detox for the entire day because I spent 13 hours each day watching SPN, and now that I'm caught up on the finale of S5, THIS is what happens. Listen, I had someone tell me this was going to be "the most fun and funniest episode ever". Dude, why the hell did you lie to me? How is this even funny? THEYRE ALL SUFFERING. I thought, I THOUGHT that Sam and Dean would go out kung fu fighting Lucifer or some shit. Not this. There was like minimum action scene, which yeah, fine, I wouldn't mind a power-of-friendship type of ending either, but what do you mean Sam regains consciousness for 1 minute and goes to Hell?? And Adam is also, like, kind of cooked. Poor guy's also down there (I'm actually not sure what happened to the guy).

Rant's over. I'm so sad. It wasn't a "bad" ending as in like, it's not that it wasn't a logical ending, but like, it's a bad ending because it's bad for my heart. As stated in the title, there's no constructive criticism in what I just wrote, I'm just ranting and crying about this as I type. I dont know what im writing at this point and my arms hurt and my eyes hurt and my heart hurts, so yeah, that's how you know I won't be a target of organ harvesting because this show broke every single working healthy organs in my body. Hell, the moment I go to university, I will drink and destroy my livers too to forget the pain this ending brings me (this part is a joke for legal reasons).

I'm scared to move onto S6. As in, like, I'm not ready to move on yet.

Woke up, got vaccinated (just a fun fact), and spent the entire morning to noon to watch SPN. Took a lunchbreak, talked to the family, touched some grass, pet some dogs, watched supernatural until 22:30. Which is like, around now. It is a miracle how my brain is still functioning right now. I can feel the short-circuiting happening up there. Watched it for so long my TV started fighting against me and began to freeze itself- had to battle it for an hour.

So yeah, how long has your longest binge watches been? As a first time watcher i'm so invested, shouldve seen every single reaction poses I hit watching this show. Brutal. Don't do it. My arms hurt now from cheering >!every time Cas appeared and said something absolutely unhinged.!<

Happy summer holidays guys (to those who it applies. Like, if you're not on holiday, happy one for you too, anyways)

I'm on S4 rn and my heart is literally aching (like i can feel it, actually). Really really happy to see Cas (literally cheered for him like I'm watching world cup) but like i genuinely don't know if i'll have a healthy beating heart to make it to the final season. I genuinely feel so bad for him. Its like 3AM and I gotta sleep soon but i think tonight i'll be dreaming of shooting Lilith's head or something. And did Gege take notes from Kripke or something because the sweetest people keep dying or going through literal hellish torture like... ouch guys. There is a certain helplessness that you feel being the audience who's too absorbed in a wonderful story. At the end of the day, it's "just a show", but its narratives sure do well to make us the opposite of happy (in a good way) 🥲

I know about the final ending because it's kind of inevitable for a late joiner to the show. Makes it more upsetting tbh, even if it was logical in a sense(?)

Anyways yeah just a little ramble that I wanted to share- i'm sure lots of people feel the same way. It hurts, but that just means the show's doing a good job.

TINY!!!! NOOOOOOOOO TINY NOOOOOOOO OHMYGOD THIS IS DEVASTATING THEY COULDVE BEEN SUCH GOOD FRIENDS NOOOOOOOO PLEASE BRING BIG TINY WHATEVER HIS NAME IS BACK OML 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

This was genuinely the most entertaining episode of my life and I could tell they had a blast filming it. I choked on my Pringles. Not fun but yeah. Ended on such a sweet note as well >!(even if Bobby was like getting tired of it lmfao)!< I can't express how much I loved that episode! So sad S2 will come to an end soon... oh God... I'm going through this way too fast!!!

Finished S1 yesterday and now starting S2 (up to the 10th episode now... so that's 8 hours approximately). It's been so amazing I love it so much! Takes my mind off results day (when my grades come in...) and it makes me feel like i have a reason to wake up everyday. Looking forward to seeing how the main plot is gonna be resolved. I can't express how much i love this show- Dean's made me cry so many times, so much for being the funny guy. Sam's made me cry less but I still cried 🥲their brotherly bond is genuinely so sweet but also very tough on the heart to watch when things aren't exactly smooth.

Anyways, does anyone have tips on how to binge watch without getting a headache? 💔 ideally i should do something else instead of watching SPN all day but i can't help it... it's my first long break in a year. I call this SPN-rotting

I'm so stressed rn. Just calculated my grade and I'm getting around 249. Last year's boundary was 255, but yes, it was easier. My teachers said this year would be 251 but I'm not sure- P1 and P3 seems quite bad with for me P1 being worse than P3 (for P3 I got 84 via unofficial mark scheme. LOTS of silly mistakes). I need A* for my firm, i would be heartbroken and would 100% lose all of my hopes and dreams if i dont get into. And also I often predict myself higher and my results are always much lower. Only thing I can confirm is P3- the rest is just speculation.

I have no idea how this works. I was hoping to attend a panel if possible. It seems most people want to go to the Saturday one- is there a specific reason Saturday is better than Sunday? I bought the Sunday ticket because i know i wont have time on Saturday, but still. Really excited for this, see you guys regardless!

+ i'm really glad that being a new fan, they decide to make a SPN CENTRIC con in the UK that i can go to without costing too much 😅🙏 i feel so lucky

I'm from SEA but living in the UK. I know there's bad sides to America but like, I grew up on the internet, so all of the content I grew up watching were from the US. It's like, what do you mean you have a goddamn WALLMART?? A WALLMART. TARGET. You guys are always have 10 billion tonnes of food for like $12 or something. And then there's so many things you get to do, like, this is gonna sound awful, but those suburbs and copy paste house look so liveable and cool. Do you guys get a dedicated garden/lawn section?? It's so big. And i know there's garage sales, where you sell of out a garage, and you can do it as a community because everyone has a garage. Like, my garage is also the entrance to a jungle. You can't do that. That's so cool.

Also i think america is less strict with food import unlike the UK, which while probably less safe, is so so so much more convenient. I don't dislike the UK, but speaking as a starving student at 2AM, i really goddamn wish sometimes that i can eat stuff from my home cuisine without needing to spend £50.

I feel the same way anime watchers feel towards japan. Like, so many things are happening in america. I wanna see what it looks like one day. Especially texas. I wanna know what texas looks like. Also there's so many pretty lakes and mountains. And your universities are also nice, and, like, basically every event in the world only happens in the US.

2AM rambling done

I'm a new fan and my experiences in this this fandom (specifically not tumblr- fb and reddit only) has been very chill and like... just nice idk. People are genuinely so sweet here. This is like the first show I've ever watched since i just turned 18 and have entertainment freedom (and time) now 🥹 I was genuinely so hopeless & lonely the last few months because I just had no motivation to keep going and was (still is) being bombarded by exams that's dictating my life, but now I wanna stay and finish SPN at least and interact with this fandom more 🙏🙏 truly bonding over hot men is the number one method to have a happy life and community

(Srry if it's the wrong flair!!)

No but actually not only have I severely lost weight, yesterday i pulled out a fuck ton of hair. I dont see no bald spots yet but this sucks. Like my heart dropped when i saw like a goddamn fistful cuz i've never had that before. My stress-triggered eczema is also flaring up. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I gamble to get rid of stress (I pull on HSR banners). I don't have prescribed anti anxiety medications and i don't have time to try them out because i don't want them to impact my a levels (heard they have side effects), and i'm not diagnosed with anything, i don't even think i have anything anyways. I'm tired, i have no one to celebrate my birthday with, i go to bed late and i don't fall asleep because i toss and turn thinking about my failed exams. I don't even know how to cry anymore. Like, i'm usually a very emotional person, but nothing's coming out. I also have chest pains and my doctor has warned me about risk of a cardiac arrest a year back 🙏🙏 when will it be over? I'm so tired and i feel like a loser all the time because i'm just so gawddamn stupid ong 😭😭 i cant let CP1 and CP2 go

Hi! I'm an int student who's completing my A levels- I've been very fortunate that i'm being with a host family in Brighton. I've been to the Jubilee library once (briefly) and it was quite nice but unfortunately there was like a drummer/parade event going on outside(?) which was quite interesting to say the least but unfortunately it was a bit disruptive.

My biggest concern is if the library is going to be packed during exam season and i'm not sure if there'll be a lot of disruptions. I think i'd probably stay until the library closes as i don't want to disrupt my host family much 😅 so if anyone has pulled an all-day, 7 days a week studying session there, please give me a review of how it went! Thank you!

Also i apologise if this is a dumb question because more than likely libraries are gonna be full during exam seasons, but still I just want to hear about your experiences in general 🙏 thank you!