u/rollindowninthedeepp

So I lost my grandmother and I told some of my closest friends about it. They wrote I am sorry and all once but they quite really didn't reach out to me again. It's been 6 days or so since her passing .
They really post spontaneously which they should imo because why should I equate my grief with it and there life doesn't stop because of mine but jg I expected too much since these guys are the closest to me and I wanted them at that point but they didn't reach out enough. Had I been in their place. I would have visited their place, called them, checked up on them regularly. Text message is least Maybe I am just expecting alot but I would have done the same.
It just frustrates me and I don't feel close to them and This has happened with me twice within my friend circle but this is one thing that kinda really makes me wanna detach from someone. What are your thoughts upon this? Am I acting too much?

I had some hope initially that India's hip hop scene is levelling up but after this whole year fiasco. I feel uncertain. Weekend chose not to perform even shakira. Where is this headed too?

Guys , I heard that we cannot get more than 6 backs or we are out of this degree . So what if I get back from some subjects of term 2 and some subject in term 1 but it doesn’t exceed 6 backs . Am I still in this degree. Someone please help me. It’s so hard for me to focus my grandma passed .

Ok so guys yesterday I went to shop a tote bag from coach and when I met one of their employees. I asked them about their prices. They were selling it for 35k whereas I saw in culture circle they were selling it for 20 k so I asked them how trusted is that app . I thought of buying since I thought they were sourcing it from somewhere but it seemed kinda fishy . The store employee himself told me that they sell fake products and they have met their founder and he himself told them that he sells fake products. Why are you looking upon . He further added that they can even shut his company but they haven’t taken any action yet . I researched more upon it and I was baffled to see so many people have got scammed by this company and it’s still operating. You guys should keep filling complaints against this so called 100 cr company or collectively lodge a complaint in the consumer court . Hold them accountable. Call them out .

Ok just wanna share how things got a little off for me.

Till highschool . I was a very jolly, outgoing, popular girl.

But after that things took a turn. My mom fell ill and I wasn’t able to study for my exams properly. And as expected I didn’t get an average college. I didn’t wanna go there so I took a gap year. Things got very fucked up for me. I gained a little weight and I was too conscious of myself. Also I had broken up. This guy would go around telling how many girls liked him and shit. I would unconsciously compare myself with them and suddenly I didn’t feel like posting coz I just wanted to look perfect. Also I didn’t wanna be that active on social media and the fact that people will ask me about my college made me so insecure that I deleted my account and distanced myself from everyone since I didn’t feel good about myself.

One year down the line I didn’t perform to my expectations and I got, I would say, a much better college but not what I had expected. Also I didn’t post anything on social media for about 2 years now which is so crazy. I miss interacting with some of my friends who I have now lost touch with and the fact that I don’t wanna attend any parties now because I just don’t feel confident enough to post and share.

How can I break free from the worry about how people see me after being in my own cocoon for a while now? I feel a little lonely and I really wanna make new friends and get rid of the idea of being ridiculed and judged by others. It feels like a nightmare to go back to my old jolly self. I don’t know where to start. Can you guys help me out?

Ok just wanna share how things got a little off for me.

See till my 12th grade I was a very jolly, outgoing, popular girl.

But after that things took a turn. My mom fell ill and I wasn’t able to study for my exams properly. And as expected I didn’t get an average college. I didn’t wanna go there so I took a gap year. Things got very fucked up for me. I gained a little weight and I was too conscious of myself.

Also I had broken up. This guy would go around telling how many girls liked him and shit. I would unconsciously compare myself with them and suddenly I didn’t feel like posting coz I just wanted to look perfect. Also I didn’t wanna be that active on social media and the fact that people will ask me about my college made me so insecure that I deleted my account and distanced myself from everyone since I didn’t feel good about myself.

One year down the line I didn’t perform to my expectations and I got, I would say, a much better college but not what I had expected. Also I didn’t post anything on social media for about 2 years now which is so crazy. I miss interacting with some of my friends who I have now lost touch with and the fact that I don’t wanna attend any parties now because I just don’t feel confident enough to post and share.

How can I break free from the worry about how people see me after being in my own cocoon for a while now? I feel a little lonely and I really wanna make new friends and get rid of the idea of being ridiculed and judged by others. It feels like a nightmare to go back to my old jolly self. I don’t know where to start. Can you guys help me out?

Ok just wanna share how things got a little off for me.

See till highschool .I was a very jolly, outgoing, popular girl.

But after that things took a turn. My mom fell ill and I wasn’t able to study for my exams properly. And as expected I didn’t get an average college. I didn’t wanna go there so I took a gap year. Things got very fucked up for me. I gained a little weight and I was too conscious of myself. Also I had broken up. This guy would go around telling how many girls liked him and shit. I would unconsciously compare myself with them and suddenly I didn’t feel like posting coz I just wanted to look perfect. Also I didn’t wanna be that active on social media and the fact that people will ask me about my college made me so insecure that I deleted my account and distanced myself from everyone since I didn’t feel good about myself.

One year down the line I didn’t perform to my expectations and I got, I would say, a much better college but not what I had expected. Also I didn’t post anything on social media for about 2 years now which is so crazy. I miss interacting with some of my friends who I have now lost touch with and the fact that I don’t wanna attend any parties now because I just don’t feel confident enough to post and share.

How can I break free from the worry about how people see me after being in my own cocoon for a while now? I feel a little lonely and I really wanna make new friends and get rid of the idea of being ridiculed and judged by others. It feels like a nightmare to go back to my old jolly self. I don’t know where to start. Can you guys help me out?

I am so clueless about this whole situation right now.

So this guy tells me that I am the only one he likes and wants but at the same time I feel like he is not as committed to me as I am. He is the only guy I talk to but he has female friends which is fine for me as long as he doesn’t cross a boundary. But he still is in contact with his bestie who he really liked at one point. When I asked about her he told me that he really loved her and wanted to be with her but she wanted her time and later refused to date. Later he went around texting other girls and hookups. I was one of them lmao and thought it was something genuine. So I got really excited and gave into it. Later when I got to know that he just wanted it to be a situationship I refused. We were still in contact and he would constantly keep asking me out again and again to the point I thought of genuinely giving it a chance. Therefore, I made my priorities clear that I wanted him to unfollow other girls that he previously liked or had a thing with because he liked one of my friends as well and he would always engage with whatever she used to post and create lmao and she would barely reply. It was kinda cringy for me as well. I hate this so much because I always make sure that the other person is my priority and I don’t engage with any other except the person I am with but I never feel the same way. How hard it is to commit. I really want y’all to help me out and why does he act like that?