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So I was in aakash since 9th standard, this was my first drop.

The whole toxic environment and the chase for validation drained me a lot and at some point i stopped going to the coaching altogether or giving tests.

This year I've decided to join allen dlp to avoid the whole toxic environment and study on my own.

My syllabus was completed, i solved jee mains level ques last year aswell though with thoda sa shit accuracy.

I don't really want to go back to aakash because a lot of good teachers have already left it for pw and our branch is just running on vibes atp.

My goals are..

1- a few concepts are twisted and I need to set them straight. (Won't be starting from scratch since I've already studied the syllabus multiple times so ik my basics)

2- lots of question practice to build that pace and mindset of solving questions.

3- eradicate silly mistakes.

4- get faster in calculation since I get nerfed there pretty bad.

My main concerns are..

1- doubt resolution in the dlp programme.

2- isolation leading to loneliness and therefore to depression.

3- discipline (khair I fucked the discipline even when I was doing offline classes so it's more of a i would If i want to than anything)

4- allen has less tests scheduled than aakash in the last months before exam, will that be a problem?

So I was in aakash since 9th standard, this was my first drop.

The whole toxic environment and the chase for validation drained me a lot and at some point i stopped going to the coaching altogether or giving tests.

This year I've decided to join allen dlp to avoid the whole toxic environment and study on my own.

My syllabus was completed, i solved jee mains level ques last year aswell though with thoda sa shit accuracy.

I don't really want to go back to aakash because a lot of good teachers have already left it for pw and our branch is just running on vibes atp.

My goals are..

1- a few concepts are twisted and I need to set them straight. (Won't be starting from scratch since I've already studied the syllabus multiple times so ik my basics)

2- lots of question practice to build that pace and mindset of solving questions.

3- eradicate silly mistakes.

4- get faster in calculation since I get nerfed there pretty bad.

My main concerns are..

1- doubt resolution in the dlp programme.

2- isolation leading to loneliness and therefore to depression.

3- discipline (khair I fucked the discipline even when I was doing offline classes so it's more of a i would If i want to than anything)

4- allen has less tests scheduled than aakash in the last months before exam, will that be a problem?

Scored 505 in re neet, should I go for allen DLP or join aakash again. More info below

So I was in aakash since 9th standard, this was my first drop.

The whole toxic environment and the chase for validation drained me a lot and at some point i stopped going to the coaching altogether or giving tests.

This year I've decided to join allen dlp to avoid the whole toxic environment and study on my own.

My syllabus was completed, i solved jee mains level ques last year aswell though with thoda sa shit accuracy.

I don't really want to go back to aakash because a lot of good teachers have already left it for pw and our branch is just running on vibes atp.

My goals are..

1- a few concepts are twisted and I need to set them straight. (Won't be starting from scratch since I've already studied the syllabus multiple times so ik my basics)

2- lots of question practice to build that pace and mindset of solving questions.

3- eradicate silly mistakes.

4- get faster in calculation since I get nerfed there pretty bad.

My main concerns are..

1- doubt resolution in the dlp programme.

2- isolation leading to loneliness and therefore to depression.

3- discipline (khair I fucked the discipline even when I was doing offline classes so it's more of a i would If i want to than anything)

4- allen has less tests scheduled than aakash in the last months before exam, will that be a problem?

So this was my second attempt at neet and despite my relentless efforts I only scored 505, had I not fucked up my omr it would've been 530, anyways so, I've decided to appear for jee mains again this year I did previously in 2025 with my very first neet attempt and scored 94 percentile, back then a lot of topics were weak.

I have not studied maths for the past 2 years but I'm planning to add maths to my PCB through NIOS.

not so aspirational I'm a female obc candidate I just want to get btech in a decent NIT rather than going for some private college.

- I've already solved past 6 years pyq of jee mains in phy chem twice during my neet prep this year.

- my home state is UP.

So following are my queries.

1- is it possible to do it with self study now? ( I was in aakash previously for neet )

2- is it too drastic of a change hence, farfetched.

3- what should be my roadmap to it?

Edit -: I graduated school in 2025 from cbse.

So this was my second attempt at neet and despite my relentless efforts I only scored 505, had I not fucked up my omr it would've been 530, anyways so, I've decided to appear for jee mains again this year I did previously in 2025 with my very first neet attempt and scored 94 percentile, back then a lot of topics were weak.

I have not studied maths for the past 2 years but I'm planning to add maths to my PCB through NIOS.

not so aspirational I'm a female obc candidate I just want to get btech in a decent NIT rather than going for some private college.

So following are my queries.

1- is it possible to do it with self study now? ( I was in aakash previously for neet )

2- is it too drastic of a change hence, farfetched.

3- what should be my roadmap to it?

Edit -: I graduated school in 2025 from cbse.

My parents can't really afford the fee of manipal I'm expecting a rank of approx 60-75k this year at 505 marks, any scope of me getting 100% scholarship?

So a little background about me, I'm 18F, recently I gave my exam, and after that me and my other friends have been on an academic break. I've got 2 best friends, one of them is a guy let's call him A and the other is a girl let's call her B.

so, first about the girl B, I've known her for 6 years now, she's not chronically online and has her stuff to deal with, I have always understood that and respected it.

But lately, she doesn't pick up my calls, my messages go on to stay delivered for days before I get a reply, I can't even make any plans w her cause I respect her space, but then one day I call her up just to talk and she's like "I'll call you later I'm out with my friends", the same friends she was bitching about cause they didn't want to celebrate her birthday with her, so I took it upon myself to make her day special, planned out things elaborately, got her gifts and everything, even though she hasn't shown up to my birthday for the past 3 years despite knowing how much her presence means to me. I kept all of it aside because she matters to me more than any of this, I was getting tired with each passing second but I bare with it, eventually I texted her again if she wanted tot hangout today and I got ignored and decided to just drop a text along the lines "I'm tired of always reaching out to people, if you want to talk just call me up or something I'm done." 6 years of me considering her my little sister, putting her above even my gf back then, and this is what I get. She meant more to me than my biological sister, I've fought countless people when they say shit about her doesn't matter if she's in the room or not. This is not my first time being ditched, she has ditched me for them before aswell.

Now about the guy A, we got to know each other about 1.5 yr ago being from the same coaching, we talked a lot and became close very quickly, things were advancing pretty quick and we always had this semi flirting relationship, I've liked him for a while but never bothered acting upon it, since he's struggling with his ex and I don't want things to be awkward between us, now a few days ago the flirting was peaking and he suggested an situationship kind arrangement we mess around for a bit and then go back to normal once we're in different cities for studies. Like the hopeless romantic I am I agreed, thinking something is better than nothing, eventually, I noticed he only thinks of me when there's needs involved otherwise I don't exist, he made a few casteist remarks about his ex and all and it already wasn't sitting right with me yesterday. A few things followed suit, I ended up into a panic attack last night with my bp hitting 134/90 SMTH and very high heart rate, I kept panicking thinking I'm gonna die and he was useless and instead of atleast talking to me about it he disappears to sleep or whatnot and I dealt with it myself, this morning I get a text saying "chill your bp is not high", which is so funny coming from someone who is about to become a doctor.

Before this also he has often bailed out on me when I'm having a hard time but I never paid any attention to it, I've always listened to his problems, given advice, listened not downplayed his emotions.

Once he asked me very rudely to go die and another time something about my weight (I've struggled with ED half my teenage), and when I confronted him about it, he acted like it's a me problem and I ended up apologising.

Something switched on inside me this morning I refuse to talk to either of them, I don't care if I only had 2 friends and now I'm more lonely than ever, at some point you get fed up, and today was my limit.

So a little background about me, I'm 18F, recently I gave my neet exam, and after that I've got 2 best friends, one of them is a guy let's call him A and the other is a girl let's call her B.

so, first about the girl B, I've known her for 6 years now, she's not chronically online and has her stuff to deal with, I have always understood that and respected it.

But lately, she doesn't pick up my calls, my messages go on to stay delivered for days before I get a reply, I can't even make any plans w her cause I respect her space, but then one day I call her up just to talk and she's like "I'll call you later I'm out with my friends", the same friends she was bitching about cause they didn't want to celebrate her birthday with her, so I took it upon myself to make her day special, planned out things elaborately, got her gifts and everything, even though she hasn't shown up to my birthday for the past 3 years despite knowing how much her presence means to me. I kept all of it aside because she matters to me more than any of this, I was getting tired with each passing second but I bare with it, eventually I texted her again if she wanted tot hangout today and I got ignored and decided to just drop a text along the lines "I'm tired of always reaching out to people, if you want to talk just call me up or something I'm done." 6 years of me considering her my little sister, putting her above even my gf back then, and this is what I get. She meant more to me than my biological sister, I've fought countless people when they say shit about her doesn't matter if she's in the room or not. This is not my first time being ditched, she has ditched me for them before aswell.

Now about the guy A, we got to know each other about 1.5 yr ago being from the same coaching, we talked a lot and became close very quickly, things were advancing pretty quick and we always had this semi flirting relationship, I've liked him for a while but never bothered acting upon it, since he's struggling with his ex and I don't want things to be awkward between us, now a few days ago the flirting was peaking and he suggested an situationship kind arrangement we mess around for a bit and then go back to normal once we're in different cities for studies. Like the hopeless romantic I am I agreed, thinking something is better than nothing, eventually, I noticed he only thinks of me when there's needs involved otherwise I don't exist, he made a few casteist remarks about his ex and all and it already wasn't sitting right with me yesterday. A few things followed suit, I ended up into a panic attack last night with my bp hitting 134/90 SMTH and very high heart rate, I kept panicking thinking I'm gonna die and he was useless and instead of atleast talking to me about it he disappears to sleep or whatnot and I dealt with it myself, this morning I get a text saying "chill your bp is not high", which is so funny coming from someone who is about to become a doctor.

Before this also he has often bailed out on me when I'm having a hard time but I never paid any attention to it, I've always listened to his problems, given advice, listened not downplayed his emotions.

Once he asked me very rudely to go die and another time something about my weight (I've struggled with ED half my teenage), and when I confronted him about it, he acted like it's a me problem and I ended up apologising.

Something switched on inside me this morning I refuse to talk to either of them, I don't care if I only had 2 friends and now I'm more lonely than ever, at some point you get fed up, and today was my limit.

Tldr -: bsf of 6 and 1.5 yr being assholes to me. That's it I'm bad at summarising.

Can i still make it? (Not at zero)

So, in the 3rd may national mock I was getting around 600-610, since the announcement of re neet I've revised organic once, physics once except modern, haven't touched biology yet, I've revised inorganic once or twice, and same with physical chem. Problem is i can't seem to retain anything that I've studied in the past, is it possible to still make it? I'm getting between 500-600 in aakash mocks (mostly between 500-550) rarely touches 600.

Im worried more about biology since I haven't even completed it even once yet.

Also if the paper is difficult, I'm gonna suck at physics. I used to get around 80-90 marks in physics in aakash CST when it was tough before neet.

So, in the 3rd may national mock I was getting around 600-610, since the announcement of re neet I've revised organic once, physics once except modern, haven't touched biology yet, I've revised inorganic once or twice, and same with physical chem. Problem is i can't seem to retain anything that I've studied in the past, is it possible to still make it? I'm getting between 500-600 in aakash mocks (mostly between 500-550) rarely touches 600.

Im worried more about biology since I haven't even completed it even once yet.

I'm a neet 2026 aspirant.

I'm a first time dropper, scored 430 in 2025 (I couldn't study due to some serious health issues) and 610 in the cancelled neet.

Now previously in April I was scoring constantly in 440-550 range in CSTs doesn't matter how tough or easy they were. I worked through my mistakes revised and somehow ended up at 610, I would've gotten 618 had i attempted the 2 questions I was doubtful about. I don't know if I would've gotten selected at those marks or not.

Fast forward to today I'm studying again somehow, each moment is painful but I am trying because there's no other option.

I cannot do the 15 hrs I used to before neet, I'm barely doing 4-5 hrs a day. And again My marks are stuck between 500-600 in tests.

My sister who qualified this stupid exam in 2025 is at home for summer vacations, and she thinks I'm not studying enough, it's a second chance, I should be doing my best, everytime she sees me just sitting relaxing for a bit she would throw a comment here and there "tera toh bharosa nahi, kabhi marks nahi aate", "padhogi nahi fir baad mein rogi" and my mum nods along with her, I go to give tests even when I'm sick, even when I csnt get out of bed, I'm not saying I'm trying my 100% but I'm doing whatever I can do.

I didn't expect all of this from my sister atleast, when she was in kota, I used to support her saying "tum apna jitna kar sakti ho karo, even if you don't make it I'll talk to our parents about another drop or some backup option whatever you want", she is a sensitive person, she would cry after every test on call if she didn't get good marks, and my mum would console her, and when I cry from stress they say "nautanki" "kamzor" "padhogi nahi fir aise hi dusro pe blame dalogi" etc. and I stay quiet, just listen. In the end she did qualify it with borderline marks to get into a tier 3 GMC, and is arrogant as fuck about it.

Yesterday, I had enough, I was stressed beyond my limit and the same thing started, they were referring to people who lost their lives to this stupid re neet as kamzor, darpok, and whatnot. I had enough and I said "you can't even see your own child in stress, all you do is pile and pile up the stress, last year when I couldn't make it all of you forgot about my medical struggles and just kept yelling about how I wasted your money" and my mother's response was "haan ye sab toh sunayenge hi hum, humne paise lagaye hai returns nahi milenge toh sunogi hi tum", I asked my sister "you were in kota left all your books there, barely qualified neet, you think you could've gotten back at it again and qualified the exam had it been re announced in 2022" and she shamelessly nodded saying yes I would've, despite knowing she wouldn't have. The whole yelling and screaming started again, I don't say anything to them, I just listen but even it gets tough sometimes and I yell too. I don't want to be disrespectful at all. I'm just genuinely tired of all this, everytime I somehow gather the will to study, I can't with all this I can't. Every moment I feel like I'm gonna die from this crushign pressure on my chest.

Note -: I was diagnosed with cervical spondylosis last year, a type of osteoarthritis, which made me unable to do even basic tasks usign my hands, I was basically immobile for a good 6 months and needed help with even basic tasks such a combing my hair.

Tldr -; nothing just a rant abou lt family and medico sister presurissing me.

So I'm a first time dropper, scored 430 in 2025 (I couldn't study due to some serious health issues) and 610 in the cancelled neet.

Now previously in April I was scoring constantly in 440-550 range in CSTs doesn't matter how tough or easy they were. I worked through my mistakes revised and somehow ended up at 610, I would've gotten 618 had i attempted the 2 questions I was doubtful about. I don't know if I would've gotten selected at those marks or not.

Fast forward to today I'm studying again somehow, each moment is painful but I am trying because there's no other option.

I cannot do the 15 hrs I used to before neet, I'm barely doing 4-5 hrs a day. And again My marks are stuck between 500-600 in tests.

My sister who qualified this stupid exam in 2025 is at home for summer vacations, and she thinks I'm not studying enough, it's a second chance, I should be doing my best, everytime she sees me just sitting relaxing for a bit she would throw a comment here and there "tera toh bharosa nahi, kabhi marks nahi aate", "padhogi nahi fir baad mein rogi" and my mum nods along with her, I go to give tests even when I'm sick, even when I csnt get out of bed, I'm not saying I'm trying my 100% but I'm doing whatever I can do.

I didn't expect all of this from my sister atleast, when she was in kota, I used to support her saying "tum apna jitna kar sakti ho karo, even if you don't make it I'll talk to our parents about another drop or some backup option whatever you want", she is a sensitive person, she would cry after every test on call if she didn't get good marks, and my mum would console her, and when I cry from stress they say "nautanki" "kamzor" "padhogi nahi fir aise hi dusro pe blame dalogi" etc. and I stay quiet, just listen. In the end she did qualify it with borderline marks to get into a tier 3 GMC, and is arrogant as fuck about it.

Yesterday, I had enough, I was stressed beyond my limit and the same thing started, they were referring to people who lost their lives to this stupid re neet as kamzor, darpok, and whatnot. I had enough and I said "you can't even see your own child in stress, all you do is pile and pile up the stress, last year when I couldn't make it all of you forgot about my medical struggles and just kept yelling about how I wasted your money" and my mother's response was "haan ye sab toh sunayenge hi hum, humne paise lagaye hai returns nahi milenge toh sunogi hi tum", I asked my sister "you were in kota left all your books there, barely qualified neet, you think you could've gotten back at it again and qualified the exam had it been re announced in 2022" and she shamelessly nodded saying yes I would've, despite knowing she wouldn't have. The whole yelling and screaming started again, I don't say anything to them, I just listen but even it gets tough sometimes and I yell too. I don't want to be disrespectful at all. I'm just genuinely tired of all this, everytime I somehow gather the will to study, I can't with all this I can't. Every moment I feel like I'm gonna die from this crushign pressure on my chest.

Tldr -; nothing just a rant abou lt family and medico sister presurissing me.

Getting somewhere between 590-600 in neet 2026 (obc, up state quota) was expecting to somehow get bds in kgmu or any good govt clg, what are the chances?