u/sharpaywave

came out to my parents. their reactions werent the best (Christian family) but i guess they did say they would still love me, but needed time to assimilate it. its scary af. i understand its hard for them to associate it and deal with grief and stuff. i feel awful for outting them through it. but i find it hard finding a balance between being there and being present and giving them space. idk what to do, i want to like give them resources to better accept it. im so scared and afraid they wont ever love or look me the same again. im scared i made a mistake... so i guess my question is for guidance and resources and activities to do to make ur parents still love you... but also if i can be a bit egoistic i would love to ask for some reassurance that what i did wasnt a mistake and that they probably will love me the same... idk. im scared & anxious 😭

came out to my parents. their reactions werent the best (Christian family) but i guess they did say they would still love me, but needed time to assimilate it. its scary af. i understand its hard for them to associate it and deal with grief and stuff. i feel awful for outting them through it. but i find it hard finding a balance between being there and being present and giving them space. idk what to do, i want to like give them resources to better accept it. im so scared and afraid they wont ever love or look me the same again. im scared i made a mistake... so i guess my question is for guidance and resources and activities to do to make ur parents still love you... but also if i can be a bit egoistic i would love to ask for some reassurance that what i did wasnt a mistake and that they probably will love me the same... idk. im scared & anxious 😭

im a bit too sad to properly tell the story, but sometimes i go to parties with 2 of my friends (my bff + girlfriend). i tell my family that im just going to a party, but then they ask who is going with me and i tell its them. so they start to get uncomfortable and ask what kind of party is it and i always just replys its edm music. ofc i could tell they were uncomfortable bc when i mention im going with my lesbian friends they think its some kind of lgbt party (which like yes it is lmao but also is truly just a party, its in no way advertised as an lgbt party, just as a party that plays indie pop and indie edm so like ofc basically its for gay people). but today my dad after getting uncomfortable with the idea and expressing it he straight up asked me if it was an lgbt party and if my friends are trying to turn me gay...... ofc i denied it quickly and shut him down, said that there was no thing as an lgbt party and the people of all kinds can go and its just a party neither straight nor lgbt, and said people dont turn gay they are born into it and ofc they wouldnt do that bc like even if it was a thing why would they even gain from making me gay LMAO. my dad is not a full on homophobic, he respects gay people (to a degree ofc lol) and really likes my bff and has treated her gf well when they met. but hes Christian and ofc thinks being gay is a sin and really dont want me to be gay lol. this is kind of a vent i guess but ugh,.. this broke my heart. in therapy, ive tried to process my life and get to a point where i feel safe coming out, and my therapist usually says that my parents may already know (since like im not exactly the most straight looking or acting person in the world [but tbh my dad is pretty liberal so hes like cool with some out of traditional gender-bounds stuff and thinks that wont necessarily mean youre gay, even tho he does have his limit lol]) and they just maybe dont want to acknowledge or accept it to themselves. i have been believing this since like.. ive had interactions where it did seem like they knew or were suspicious and believing that has been helpful - but today with my dad saying that he thinks that they "want to turn me gay" it caught me so off guard bc it really did sound like he fully believed i wasnt already. like why would he think that and not that im already gay for going to gay parties.... sigh... anyways. im just kinda sad abt it and fearful that maybe im in fact nowhere near a place where i can come out and might have to rework all the internal and external work i thought i was good preparing and setting the terrain.

lol sorry for the long read no pauses no good ponctuation and no breaks but i was just typing my thoughts. also for a bonus after i said no one turns gay they are born into it he replied "yeah they do!! happened to 2 of my friends!" and i was like "they probably were already gay" and when he insisted that no, they were turned gay i was like "and how did that happen" he replied "i dont know, but this one guy was really sporty and muscular you would never think hed end up gay but he did" and i just said that anyone can be gay and left which i thought was kind of a funny exchange lmao

as a sad bonus this really breaks my heart bc its so sad when they r ok with other ppl being gay but not you. like you specifically cant. and also the religion part is so sad bc like when i end up telling hes gay he gonna think im not going to heaven. which is so desperatedly sad and suffering. like when u can tell ur own dad thinks ure going to hell. i fear that he will never look at me the same and like start preparing to lose me forever u know. to get unatacched cuz i wont be in the afterlife anyways and think im less deserving of love for it. i dont think he will never speak to me again if i come out, but i fear the love will never be the same. that every look will become heavy and have a bit of sorrow, guilt, and pity within it. that kind of pity of someone you think is wrong and undeserving but that you have no faith that it could be better so all thats left is to pity them. wowie. so sad!!

#edit came out to my parents today ummm yippie ummm barffff

mine: when people say zoroarks ability (illusion) was so broken they had to invent team preview for it and it "ruined" competitive forever, when in reality the illusion ability exists BECAUSE of team preview and not the other way around.. like its an ability to take advantage of team preview and not nerfed by it

im so so so mad that a game that focuses on dex completion of the sinnoh region decided to lock 2 mythicals of that region behind that level of paywall. when i played d/p/pt i enjoyed the shaymin and darkrai events so much i was really looking forward to what kind of sidequests they would do for those two and i played the game waiting for something to happen to unlock those side wuests very naively until i now, aftwr finishing post game and completing the obsidian fieldlands dex decided to check when it was going to be unlocked only yo find out it wont bc i dont have swsh or bdsp. they could have put any other legendary as an add on from owning these games but no, they locked 2 of the coolest sinnoh mons. and the most annoying part is that i know the shaymin sidequest happens in that dried flowers area so tbe fact that they planned this and left an area that will be forever unfinished for thsoe who dont own swsh is so annoying. i was already disappointed cresselia and regigigas didnt have proper sidequests for them and instead got renegated to plate collection but now od rather have shaymin and darkrai as plate completion too than this. #rantover sorry im mad at this. im really curious, was that ever a point of discussion online when the game came out? i avoided everything abt the game to avoid spoilers but now i wanna know didnt ppl get mad at this???

edit: im not american (thank God), libraries do not rent switch games here im from and switch games are expensive af. i am NOT able to afford sw/sh or bdsp and neither is any of my friends. please spare "you can just borrow the game!!! you can rent in a library" please consider not everyone lives in the same reality as you this is so...
2. my point is that its very different to have mew or jirachi locked in bdsp (gen 1 and 3 pokemon on a gen 4 game which is not abt completing the dex) than having 2 sinnoh dex mons in a game that is literally about completing the pokedex in sinnoh