u/simply_fucked

Just gonna fire them off one by one.

After years of not eating reheated/leftover food, ive finally over come that (mostly). It still crosses my mind when im eating but im able to power through it and not lets the thoughts take over. I used to feel intense anxiety and cry just having leftovers in my fridge, or using the same appliances/Tupperware that someone else used for leftovers.

Getting better around pets. This is still a big one for me, being around them or touching them was VERY stressful for a long time, now i can tolerate being closer, they jump or sit on me and i dont feel the need to change my clothes and shower, but i still have issues touching them with my hands.

Getting better about talking about trigger words that cause magical thinking to happen, there are things i couldn't ever say or see or think about that im getting better at acknowledging and being comfortable with.

Used to be very afraid of my windows, couldnt keep them open for long periods of time or at all without becoming very paranoid of bats and rabies. Now i dont often have that issue and can usually sleep with my windows open!

Ik these aren't crazy big wins but ive been trying to acknowledge them more and appreciate them. These are things i once thought were impossible to overcome and now they are getting easier, which is crazy to me.

A store opened near me about a year ago and ive been once just to look around and i got only 1 cause i planned to go back when next shopping trip came. Anything that you have to have every time you go? Anything u can recommend?

Anyone have experience with it? The at home sleep study device. I had mine done with a normal setup, the breathing belts, the nasal cannula, finger monitor, etc. My partner got the "NiteWatch".....seems interesting. Is that as accurate? His insurance didn't wanna cover the normal at home test ig.

Before is turns into full blown panic and breakdown, coming here to talk about it and taking Ativan to help, something i only do rarely if i really need it. Here are my notes, i like to write what i feel for therapy.

Took .5 of Ativan tue may 12th 2026 for anxiety. 5pm-5:20pm ish

Symptoms:

Racing thoughts

Shaking

Muscle fatigue and brain fog due to not getting much sleep the past week or so (only got a few hrs the night prior)

Fast hear rate

Not being able to nap after taking deep breaths, laying down, trying to relax

Nausea

Can't sit still

Need to eat so my stomach feels empty as well

This is typical anxiety for me. Trying to just sit and calm down, maybe nap. I think its a combination of stress, sleep deprivation, general worry, and ocd triggers. Anyway, how are you guys today, what makes you feel better when you feel anxious?

I dream almost every night, have sunce i was a kid, and a lot of the time ill see something from my real life casually in a dream. I had a dream about nail polish about a week ago, i absolutely love nail polish. Pass something while driving, like a new store? Ill see in it my dream that night. Buy something random and non important from the store? Ill see it in my dream. See someone i havent seen in a while? Ill dream about them, same night.

My dreams also often have ocd triggers in them (im diagnosed), like certain animals and contamination triggers, or certain scenarios or upsetting places, which makes exposure therapy really hard.

I also dream often about people i havent seen in YEARS. Theres one person i dream about often who i havent seen in almost 5-6, maybe longer, years. Its its always random, they r just syanding there and im like, oh, its you, and then maybe we talk and laugh and flirt, and then thats it.

On that note, i have sexual dreams more frequently than the average person. Randomly having sex with someone, walking up to people and touching them after i realize im lucid (i often am lucid). Flirting with people, watching others have sex, etc. They started more often when i was about 13, and have gotten less common now that im 20, but they still happen often.

I also have dreams a lot about self harm.

"I walked into a hospital really needing help about some deep slashes in my arm from attempting suicide. Woman asked me if I needed help or if I needed to stay and I said no and walked away, but I kept looking at her trying to get her attention by following her and watching her because I knew I needed to stay and needed help, I continued to walk around the hospital though, no one said anything to me."

This is from a while ago, they usually happen something like this.

After finding out that someone super close to me was self harming, i had this dream:

"Had a dream where I could see how deep and where (person) cut, but it was both their thighs and one arm and I freaked out and they started smiling and thought it was funny."

I also had a dream about that person hurting me in a similar way after that.

I have dreams where someone is physically 2 people at once, and sounds like a third? Or looks like someone and sounds different, or isnt recognizable, but i also just *know* who they are, like i can feel it?

Its late and im tired so idk how much sense all this makes, but anyway, i just wanted to talk about it.