Even after my family understands I get bad panic attacks, I still get treated like I'm throwing a tantrum, causing a problem, an inconvenience, or like I'm doing it on purpose. Like I'm doing my freaking best to manage them. I don't control them. And if someone gets mad at me for it, its just gonna get worse
My sister and dad have DID as well and constantly criticize me on how I run my system. I don't criticize them on how they run their systems. I don't tell them what I think they should be doing. I'm sick of them telling all of us what to do. We don't have to work them same, we are different people!!
When an alter is upset, they surface! So what? I think its good for them to express themselves out loud. I'm always there supervising and helping.
And I think the most important thing is that we all work together, that they are always listened to, and feel heard and understood. I'm part of them so I know what they need.
But its never right to my family. They're alters remain inside a lot more. They act differently. BECAUSE WE ARE NOT THE SAME
I'm so done with it. We're all doing out best. My therapist never chastised me for how I'm handling it.
I'm just so upset and I want to be understood and loved too. I'm so done with this.
Scheduling an extra therapy session for tomorrow, hopefully it helps, because everything is bubbling up.
Thanks for listening to my rant. Idk if I can comprehend any advice rn but I'm sure it'll be more appreciated later when we're more calm.<3
So sick and nothing is helping. Hopefully this pizza helps
Recording taken around midnight.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1\_0LXuJhrRauOfU1I1Q9TvfLMUcCQSpFi/view?usp=drivesdk
I also heard the same sound last night around 4 am. Started off as strange barking, but didn't recognize the bark. Then it turned into that strange scream like sound in the recording.
I think its a fox because I keep smelling what smells faintly like skunk
Also, I live in the suburbs, but they are some fields near my house.
And I think its been yelling all night cause its 5 am and I'm here like a short howl like sound?
Recording taken around midnight.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1\_0LXuJhrRauOfU1I1Q9TvfLMUcCQSpFi/view?usp=drivesdk
I also heard the same sound last night around 4 am. Started off as strange barking, but didn't recognize the bark. Then it turned into that strange scream like sound in the recording.
I think its a fox because I keep smelling what smells faintly like skunk
Also, I live in the suburbs, but they are some fields near my house.
And I think its been yelling all night cause its 5 am and I'm here like a short howl like sound?
Other than the Aglet of course
Feeling sad, deferred and like a failure rn. (Living with your parents in your early 20s sucks sometimes)
Anyways, my adhd is driving me nuts and I'm so frustrated at why I can't do stuff. Please tell me about your laundry struggles (or cleaning struggles) so I feel less alone.
My current laundry basket has been sitting in the laundry room for 2 weeks.
My mom has adhd and she does laundry just fine. She doesn't understand that its so hard for me.
I've struggled with it my whole life.
It feels so dumb, why can't I just do it like normal adults do.
I'm so frustrated. I don't understand why its so hard. Why cleaning is so hard. Why ever normal human task can be so hard to do for some, but not others.
I just feel like I'm failing at being a functioning adult..