F21 having fwb with m27 since last 6 months
This is my first FWB. I never thought I would be in one, but I did it. He was my long-term crush, and when I finally got a chance with him, I took it.
At first, he made me feel so desired. He would always video call me, ask for kisses over VC, and call me whenever he was free. Initially, I found it strange because it was supposed to be casual, and things like this could make it more complicated later. But eventually, everything slowed down, and I started craving the attention because I had gotten used to it.
When we meet in person, everything feels so good. I feel loved and desired around him. But on the phone, he feels like a completely different person. He used to compliment me so much during the initial month, but then he just stopped. I don't think it's because he lost attraction towards me. Maybe he just got used to me and doesn't feel the need to express it anymore.
But when he says things like, "She's so pretty" or "She's so hot" about other girls, I can't help but wonder if he ever thinks of me that way. Recently, he said something like that about my friend, and I felt really jealous. That's when I told him I wanted to stop this because all of this was affecting me.
He tried to convince me not to stop, but I repeatedly told him that I wanted to end it. Now, though, I'm having thoughts about him again and wondering if I should go back to him. I honestly don't know what to do.