u/therealpossumduke

Sorry if the paragraph doesn't make sense I just need to get things off I've put myself out there to meet people I have 2 jobs now just to try to meet someone it all fails for me watching everyone around me find their person there's a feeling I can't explain a couple days ago someone called me a plan b boyfriend and stated that's why they won't hang out with me what does that mean every day I see myself more as a ghost is it because I'm ugly maybe because I'm 5'7 I think I should just give up now why should I chase people if they just see through me I turn 23 soon and I see everyone younger than me finding someone I think I should just disappear and give up

I don't have much of anyone in my life I think it's because I try to make people the center of my world I met this girl every notification of it was her id do a instant reply every day we would talk we'd talk about our day and what dreams we had I gave her my time I gave her so many gifts she was my first everything I later found out she was using me to get closer to her friend she liked he is distant person didn't do much with her until I started being around her and as soon as he showed interest dropped immediately it's happened so many times now I think this is my sign in life to just be alone in ugly as hell I have no money no matter how much I show someone how much they mean to me they quickly disappear from my life and stop talking to me in general I'm done chasing for love I got hobbies and work to keep me busy besides I dont think I deserve anyone sorry if this paragraph doesn't make sense I just don't have the energy anymore

My old account was completely deleted that means years of social media thousands of followers everything gone because their AI is completely flawed in this complete bullcrap

I was always the quiet person in the room after I got rid of my stalker I was too afraid to even adventure out she stopped responding to anything I find myself waking up thinking of her and going to sleep thinking about her I'm typing this at work still thinking about her she was the first everything for me I'm 22 and finally felt something with someone I want to tell her how much she means to me and how much she changed me for the better I remember the kiss o had in the driveway I'm still feeling the pain of how she used me to get closer to the guy that was distant from her I miss getting woke up from her phone call just now I sent the last text to her it's some stupid meme about fred drust been a couple of weeks since she just stopped I keep looking at my phone with every single notification I've never felt feelings like this before I hate it I keep trying to forget but I can't I know I'll never get to see or her or hear her voice ever again only on social media I thought I finally found someone weird as me but now I find myself sitting next to the creek where we would go and hang out I don't know why I keep looking fondly at how I've been used like she did guess that's my luck so far I've been used 2 time both has me like this but this time it's worse sorry if the paragraph doesn't make sense I'm just tired I get off at 1 in the morning so I'm socially dead all I can do is play video games but I might go to the creek tonight and watch the sun rise I think I'm done trying to chase love I know I'm going to die alone but what else is different

It's not at all easy being ugly as hell people just see right through me I've changed my look I've changed everything about me instead all I get is people taking my drawings and writing their phone number and giving it to my friends it happens again and again I'm 22 and can tell it's never going to change for me I thought I finally met someone I kissed her went to her place just for her to introduce her boyfriend and got yelled at by the guys dad all I want is to make someone my world and love them I guess I can't even have someone I'm done even looking i really don't think I even deserve anyone anymore to everyone I've ever met they always laugh it off there is no one out there for me I've come to accept it I deserve to be alone I'm a fucking loser who has no money a broke down car and is ugly I think I just revolt people now is the entire world in on a joke about me why should I chase when I know the outcome I don't deserve love

Has anyone followed Nate the Great it's some kid that's been going viral every time I followed the kid both accounts got deleted 🤔

My entire meta account like I said it was deleted their explanation was I was exploiting children and trying to contact with minors I ghost hunt and posted a little bit of memes and I got banned for exploiting children? I've had that same account since high school I am disgusted by meta I cannot get in contact with a human being for a support line their AI has completely failed

They said I got suspended for nudes on my account I ghosthunt and post memes....if it's somehow something I saved they should've removed it from how I look at this this is a abuse and failure of AI I can't get in contact with actual people they keep making me use an ai chatbot to be customer support they tell me to sign in but they tell me my entire meta account is permanently suspended why spend thousands on data centers and still fail at their job

I went to comment and I was doomscrolling about the people over for the world cup I commented that they should come over in September to go to the mothman festival and I get a suspension on my profile This is what Instagram gets for dumping everything into AI

I don't care if I don't use any proper punctuations to make a for this I just need to rant I want to make someone the center of my world I want to give them gifts and hold them dear but it seem like I'm never going to accomplish it I go to conventions I go to malls and yet I find myself sitting in a creek alone letting the rapids and fish swim by I liked a girl for the about 8 months we have so much in common went to her place only to be met with her boyfriend every one I know has found someone I'm 22 and never have had anyone I keep sinking deeper in stuff like the hub and I feel absolutely disgusted of myself I sat at the creek for a day stareing at the water I know there is no one for me I see couple stuff on insta and I'm feel something like jealousy pain or something I don't wanna chase anymore I'm done meeting people I live in a small town where everyone my age has started to move to different states or cities I don't sleep anymore half the time I hate myself for feeling like this I feel completely alone I know I'm not actually alone but it's like my soul wants I'm starting a second job at a mall soon but I know it's pointless to try to talk and form a relationship I've changed my look I've lost a lot of weight and yet nothing you'd think also working at a bowling alley with a buch of your friends you'd meet someone NO instead people write their number on little drawings I do and give them to my friends around me every fucking time I'm done trying to change for anyone I'm done chasing dating apps are an absolute joke and a scam I'm not a shut in anymore i go to malls and walk around even when I don't have money but of course the malls around me are dead and I'm only off on weekdays I cannot win hell I can't even smile when I watch an anime I started watching anime before I tried to have more to say how pathetic am I like I live in a small farm town that is frozen in time with shit physical attributes I absolutely absolutely absolutely hate myself go ahead and spam "dang guy learn to make paragraphs" I literally can't give any more feelings to anything