Today is her birthday.
I want to reach out to her, but I will not. She broke up one year ago exactly, two days before her birthday. In the past year, I have only seen her 3 times. We still texted and maintained contact on and off throughout the past year. However, it makes me feel bad how often I’ve thought about her and how little attention I get back from her. I have to remind myself, if she wanted to, she would. I have noticed, the last few times that when a texting conversation has reached its natural end, if I don’t reach out again, then we will simply never speak again. And for that reason, I won’t be reaching out today on her birthday. She just does not deserve any more of me.