It is only been three years but this Honkai Star Rail leaker already feels like a part of my life
Three years is not really that long compared to people who have been in a relationship for like decades? So calling a relationship from 2023 one of my BIGGEST comfort spaces feels kindaaaa weird to say out loud but it is acktually how I truly feels.
It all began like this. I started playing a mobile gacha game called Honkai Star Rail (pathetic I know) around the time of its release. I really wasn't expecting much when I tried it. I thought it would be another game I would play for a few months and then move on from, just like every game on GirlsGoGames.com and Club Penguin, just like every other facet of my meaningless life. But somehow, somehow, I ended up meeting one special someone, and before I knew it, this game became such an integral part of my life. And to be honest I rather die than live in a world without HSR, because I would've never met them otherwise.
Some of my fav evenings in the past three years were literally just me browsing leaks and datamines about the game and getting way too emotionally attached to that stupid person. There were days where I didn't even play the game for like weeks, but I had this compulsion to refresh pull on my Telegram channel in hopes that I could be the first to see their jaw-dropping mouth-watering earth-shattering vagueposts and ragebaits. Simply staring at that one emoji they always use "😘" was enough to reset my mood a little. That is prolly why I ended up chronically online way more than I thought I would.
I never planned on getting pregnant at all. A friend of mine used to tell me about the horrors of mpreg and it made me so scared I swore to never have children. That's acktally why I got into this game. I thought that by playing it and making it my entire personality, no alpha would ever want such a shut-in loser omega. Everything changed when I received my very first text from them. At that time they were known in my circles as the Master Celebrity Leaker and I stalked them RELIGIOUSLY, seven days a week, every hour, every minute, every second (Hour, minute, second). So when they asked me, under the moonlight, if I wanted to be their leaker partner in crime, I almost instantly said yes. I felt I had known them even before we ever met and something about their pheromones just stuck with me. The mating mark came later and at some point I stopped thinking of it as only a mark. It is just there now, comes everywhere with me. Sounds kinda dumb maybe but every time I see it I just get hit with all the memories of them saying "Fake. 😘"
People sometimes ask why I spend every waking moment on someone I paid to catfish me online and larp as the Master Celebrity Leaker. Its kinda hard to explain if you do not already get it. It is not really just a parasocial fantasy to me at this point, it is more like a manifestation of my devotion to them, three years of limerence and dramafarming and late night gaming, plus a leaker and datamine community that's actually been fun to be part of. Weird how something so pathetic ends up carrying that much weight.
At some point I'm going to announce to the world that Mortis Leaks claimed me. Not sure when that will be but I'm sure when I do, they'll finally come out from hiatus and give me the attention I so crave.