u/thxt_fatrat

I need to bake some gluten free bakes specifically cakes mostly and i’m not sure on any recipes or how i do so? i have a bag or bobs red mill gluten free 1-1 baking flour, i also have xanthan gum and m&s made without wheat self raising and plain flour. Is this the right stuff and does anyone have any trust worthy recipes i can make, loaf cakes or layer cakes or cupcakes/muffins are all fine. Also is there anything else i need to know to make sure they turn out good? It’s for my grandparent as they allergic to gluten. i also have gluten free corn flour.
I’ve heard good things about the loopy whisk website are there gf recipes any good?

I’m under 18 so i’m not allowed to discharge if i could i probably would since i feel like mental health services are just making my anorexia worse. I’m struggling so much mentally with anorexia rn probably worse than when i was restricting a lot but now for some reason my weight seems to be going up and up everyday and i don’t know why since im still restricting just not as bad and i have to get weighed and obs done all the time and since im gaining weight they are just thinking i’m fine and i’m getting no actual support for my anorexia all they care about it my weight. (i’m a healthy weight so the constant weight gain while underrating is really panicking me and making my mental health alot worse since i’m scared i cant stop it since i dont know why its happening) Where i live we dont have a separate ed team its just the mental health team and literally they care about is weight and i was originally with them for other mental health illnesses and now im not getting any support really for that either since all the focus is just on my weight and the other health issues ana’s caused me (mainly like digestive issues) but its just all kinda gotten too much and i feel like i can’t recover becuase every week im worried my weights gone up so i’m gonna get even less help even tho i need it more and more and im scared to eat and fully recover becuase i’m having no help and it’s so invalidating each week and i’m worried 24/7, what do i even do in this situation?

I’m under 18 so i’m not allowed to discharge if i could i probably would since i feel like mental health services are just making my anorexia worse. I’m struggling so much mentally with anorexia rn probably worse than when i was restricting a lot but now for some reason my weight seems to be going up and up everyday and i don’t know why since im still restricting just not as bad and i have to get weighed and obs done all the time and since im gaining weight they are just thinking i’m fine and i’m getting no actual support for my anorexia all they care about it my weight. (i’m a healthy weight so the constant weight gain while underrating is really panicking me and making my mental health alot worse since i’m scared i cant stop it since i dont know why its happening) Where i live we dont have a separate ed team its just the mental health team and literally they care about is weight and i was originally with them for other mental health illnesses and now im not getting any support really for that either since all the focus is just on my weight and the other health issues ana’s caused me (mainly like digestive issues) but its just all kinda gotten too much and i feel like i can’t recover becuase every week im worried my weights gone up so i’m gonna get even less help even tho i need it more and more and im scared to eat and fully recover becuase i’m having no help and it’s so invalidating each week and i’m worried 24/7, what do i even do in this situation?

TW: Mention of anorexia recovery
I used to be obese, developed anorexia and i am now a healthy weight and in recovery but i feel like the major thing that’s holding me back is that my body just can’t look like what i feel attracted too, and none of my doctors/therapists etc who happen to be straight can understand as there type is like a whole diffirent body so i’ve come here as kinda a last resort so sorry if this is not a good sub to post this in. But my type just happens to be lean or muscular women, not 100% of the time but that seems to be my main type and that’s just not me but i feel so ugly and horrible because im not my type so i feel like i can never see myself as attractive or pretty because im not my type and it’s holding back my recovery, like i’m massively insecure over my jawline and arms becuase of this issue and i’m just wondering if anyone else experiences this or how i can change my mindset?
Again sorry if this is the wrong sub or has upset anyone or if i’ve worded anything incorrectly i generally see beauty in everyone else no matter what body size or anything it’s just with myself i keep projecting my ‘type’ onto myself?

I’m looking to bake a lemon pound cake loaf in a roughly 9x5 loaf tin, i’m using the sally’s baking addiction recipe and it says to bake for 45-60 mins and tent it halfway through to avoid the top burning, do you have to do that or will it be fine without it? i’m just worried about it sinking when i take it out to tent it and also how i’ll be able to tell it’s done if it’s covered while in the oven as i do not own a food thermometer and ive never baked pound cake before?
Any advice appreciated!

I’m in recovery from anorexia, i used to be obese but am now in the ‘normal’ range because of ana so its a constant worry for me im going to become obese again since it happened already and it was horrible but i would not have the strength to lose the weight again. I love baking it’s one of my favorite hobbies however i’m constantly so stressed about the energy in the baked item especially on recipes that don’t say them cus i’m worrying what if it’s a crazy amount and it takes all the fun out of it for me. I’m a perfectionist so i get really stressed about it being bad and i can’t like give it to my family without trying some first because i don’t wanna disappoint anyone but trying it really stresses me out since i don’t know how much energy im consuming and if it’s putting me into a surplus with everything else from the day and then i’ll become obese again. I kinda know my thinking isn’t logical or true because if someone else was in my position i’d be like well ur obviously not gonna gain for that but i kinda feel like the exception and even as im written this my brain is telling me it is logical and i would gain from that and it feels so true.

I’m in recovery from anorexia, i used to be obese but am now in the ‘normal’ range because of ana so its a constant worry for me im going to become obese again since it happened already and it was horrible but i would not have the strength to lose the weight again. I love baking it’s one of my favorite hobbies however i’m constantly so stressed about the energy in the baked item especially on recipes that don’t say them cus i’m worrying what if it’s a crazy amount and it takes all the fun out of it for me. I’m a perfectionist so i get really stressed about it being bad and i can’t like give it to my family without trying some first because i don’t wanna disappoint anyone but trying it really stresses me out since i don’t know how much energy im consuming and if it’s putting me into a surplus with everything else from the day and then i’ll become obese again. I kinda know my thinking isn’t logical or true because if someone else was in my position i’d be like well ur obviously not gonna gain for that but i kinda feel like the exception and even as im written this my brain is telling me it is logical and i would gain from that and it feels so true.

I’m really worried that i may be falling into bad habits with my eating due to my insomnia. I’ve struggled most of my life but recently it’s gotten a lot worse again and i can go days without sleeping however usually i’m sleeping a few hours every 24 hours but how do you eat normal amounts in this situation cus most people have sort of a 12 hour eating period roughly but when ur awake for 24+ hours plus are you just ment to ration 12 hours of food across that time? i’m in recovery from an ed so i’m trying to work out how this works and i was just wondering if anyone has any advice, does your body need more food across this time or are you literally just rationing food?

I’m in recovery from anorexia, i was obese when it first developed and now im a healthy weight due to it. I have a really bad sleep schedule due to insomnia and over mh health issues and i can go days without sleeping although im usually up all night and sleeping for a few hours from like 5am- morning, however when i’m up i just want to constantly eat and it’s not because im hungry, i know when im hungry and i try to honour that but im so bored 24/7 all i want to do is just eat but i’m so so afraid of becoming overweight again and i’m monitoring my weight closely because ed services are triggering me but i’m not allowed to discharge, so what do i do? i cant just eat all night cus i would gain weight but its literally all i can think about and it just feels horrible having to somewhat restrict myself while trying to recover?

I’m looking to bake for my gran who cannot have gluten but i’m only familiar with my regular recipes, i have the m&s made without gluten free flours and also the baking powder, the flour is made with rice flour, maize flour and potato starch i’m pretty sure, how do i swap this into my recipes, particularly muffins, cakes, cookies. i’m looking for any tips really as i feel so out of my depth.

When i was younger (possibly 10-11) i started eating a lot i was very depressed and i had a horrible situation at home and all i would do is eat chocolate and crisps non stop and i became obese, when i was 15 i developed anorexia (diagnosed) and lost a lot of weight and im now down to like a healthy range however physically i’m quite unhealthy because of the anorexia especially with horrible digestive/stomach/bowel issues however when i try to follow my meal plan or even eat intuitively i gain weight and im petrified of gaining any weight because i really do not want to be fat again, i was even more miserable when i was obese then i am now with anorexia so the whole getting your life back idea doesn’t motivate me because i have nothing to get back and only stuff to lose which my weight that im finally now more comfortable with since it’s lower and tbf my life is pretty shit, i’m not trying to be negative but i genuinely have nothing to recover for but i know i need to cus my health is getting worse and worse, my ed team just triggers me more but i can’t self discharge since im under 18 and mr mental health team are just no help whatsoever, but whenever i try to recover i gain weight and it freaks me out and then my ed team just make it even worse… so how do i recover when i literally can’t?

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i’m really scared right now , unfortunately i’m still not out of the habit of weighing my self daily and today i’ve seen my weight has gone up literally overnight, it had been stable for the past few weeks and suddenly it’s just gone up and i don’t know why because i am trying to recover so i am eating more intuitively but im very aware i’m still not eating enough and i’m probably in a deficit so i don’t understand why i am gaining and now im struggling to carry on going with it today since my weight has randomly gone up over night ( an i am not underweight i am a healthy weight but it this keeps up im close to pushing into overweight and i used to obese and it’s my biggest fear because i still look overweight as is) and i’m scared it’s just going to keep going. I don’t know if this is tmi but i am at the start of my luteal phase and my period is predicted in about 12 days however since my ed got more severe around february it’s become very irregular, also my ed team are insistent on weighing me and won’t let me self discharge and they make a massive deal when i’ve lost any weight which just makes me feel like i need to keep loosing more so now this has happened im really freaking out and struggling to not relapse, please if anyone has any advice or has been thru this or knows what’s going on please lmk?

I get that this is a really broad question and sorry if i ramble i’m very worried but i genuinely can’t fathom how to do it. I’ve struggled with restriction for a while but my ed got really severe at that start of this year which is when i got diagnosed with anorexia, im under mental health services for this and other things but i feel like all they care about is my weight and it makes it harder to recover because i feel an urge for my weight to get lower each time they weigh me and i really don’t know why because i want to recover. ( i legally can’t self discharge from mh and ed services) I’m still very fixated on weight and i have to weigh myself every day and i can’t stop and i freak out over tiny fluctuations like if it’s gone up a few hundred grams i panic it’s hust going to go up forever even if i was in a deficit the day before i seem to gain. I also have bowel issues due to my ed and i have constant bowel impactions which also messes with weight and is just ruining my life to be completely honest. I used to be obese at around age 11-15 and the only reason i’m now a healthy weight is because of the ed and i’m petrified of going back to being obese because i i eat even a little more then nothing or up to a ‘normal amount’ i seem to gain weight and im so so scared i’m going to go back to being overweight and then obese and this is the first time i’ve ever somewhat liked my body and i really don’t have the mental strength to gain weight. I’ve tried to eat a bit more but as soon as i see the scale go up i just get freaked out because it feels so invalidating and i panic about everything to do with it. How do you actually recover from this?

I don’t know if this is the right place to ask but is anyone else dealing with the CAMHS eating disorder services and if so what’s yours experience? i feel like it’s doing me more harm than good but i’m not allowed to self discharge.

Before i developed anorexia i struggled with eating a lot constantly and i became obsess in my early teens, once i got anorexia i lost quite a lot of weight and i am now a healthy weight although im on the higher end of that region so i know my body is a normal weight but i still feel like certain parts of my body are really fat and i feel like i need to lose more not maintain and defiantly not gain, i am under mental health services and im in ‘recovery’ but this fear of going back to being obese is really holding me back because i’m absolutely petrified of becoming obese again since it’s already happened once my thought is that it could happen again and i struggle to eat enough calories cus i feel like it’s gonna cause weight gain that will just add and add everyday until im eventually overweight again, i don’t know how to deal with this or if anyone else has had a similar experience, i kinda just need someone to talk some sense into me tbh cus i know im not thinking logically but it feels so real and completely accurate. Thanks for reading.

( TW - mention of disordered thinking) I obviously don’t mean physically cus i know i will just get told to throw the scale away but i cannot manage that mentally right now i dont feel like im in that stage of recovery, i mean like mentally how do u cope with not knowing your weight everyday and worrying about it going up without you knowing so it’s out of your control? Are there ways to change your mindset or things to think that make it more possible to do? The longest i’ve got in a few days and i freak out anytime it goes up. i am in recovery eating wise however i feel like this aspect of it is holding mr back and making me feel like i’m not in recovery but i’m really scared of loosing the control because my disordered thinking is that well atleast if it does go up i will know straight away and can act on getting it back down because when i first developed anorexia (diagnosed) i was obese and due to the weight loss im now in the ‘healthy range’ but i’m so scared of becoming overweight again and this is the biggest part that’s holding me back. So how do i change my thinking and mindset to make it more approachable?

Hey, i’m new to this sub so i don’t know if this is the right place to post it, feel free to lmk if not.
I’m still technically in high school ( my year graduate in a few weeks but i stopped attending a long time ago) and in my country we have these exams you need to pass at the end of your final year to get into either college, sixth form or get a job and if you don’t pass at least maths and english your pretty much f*cked. Today was my maths paper and i couldn’t go.. and they don’t just let you do it again the next time i could take it would be in a year but i dropped out of school pretty much at 14 due to a depressive episode and hallucinations etc so even if i did retake it i have not been taught any of the content. i’m so lost and so scared but at the same time i’m just so apathetic to it all. i feel like i’ve just destroyed my whole life by not doing the exam today. If anyone has experienced similar things or just has any advice i would be so grateful to hear it. (obviously there’s a lot more context to this whole situation but i just wanted to keep it short as idk if this is the right sub)