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who’s down with being friends? 17+ tho no weird stuff 😭 ACTUALLY text back im a bit awkward and get silent at times but other then that im a great person hmu chat.

moment of silence for the crazy amount of people that are about to take there lives today and I bring this topic up because I’ve lost alot of people on this day or in general saying for what was going on with themselves because they were suffering in silence and nobody even knew and I don’t want it happening to anyone else please check on your love ones and friends.. I may not know any of you on this app but if you’re seeing this please stay and listen.. i know you’ve almost heard these words plenty of times but i mean it if you’re thinking about giving up please stay i know life can sometimes become overwhelming and it feels like the pain will never end and sometimes it can seem like no one truly understands what you're carrying but the way you feel right now does not define your future, feelings can change even when they convince you they never will you deserve the chance to see the days that are still waiting for you the ones filled with laughter you haven't heard yet, people you haven't met yet, places you haven't seen, and moments that could remind you why you kept going. you are not a burden, and your life has value, even if you can't see it yourself right now.. the people around you may not always know how much you're hurting, but that doesn't mean they wouldn't care if they knew sometimes asking for help is the hardest thing a person can do but it's also one of the bravest you don't have to fight every battle by yourself there are people who want to listen, support you, and help you make it through the darkest moments please Please don't let one painful chapter convince you that your whole story is over every person has seasons where life feels unfair, lonely, or impossible, but those seasons don't last forever. healing isn't quick, and it isn't perfect, but it is possible even if all you can do today is make it through the next minute that's enough small steps still count the world would not be the same without you or your smile, your voice, your kindness, your dreams, and even the little things you don't notice about yourself leave a mark on the people around you you have a future that you haven't gotten to experience yet and you deserve the opportunity to see what it holds. please give yourself that chance so if you're reading this and you're struggling, stay. stay for the sunrise you haven't watched yet. Stay for the songs you haven't heard, the friendships you haven't made, the love you haven't felt, and the version of yourself that hasn't had the chance to grow. You are worth fighting for even on the days you don't believe it hold on a little longer keep taking one step at a time and remember that you don't have to face this alone your story matters your life matters and there is hope even if it's difficult to see right now.

okay yeah i do crave that human interaction but i want the type where you feel like you belong not one where you have to beg the other person to talk or do anything I find it funny how my current friends never text me and must I say they have my number and my ig and never hit me up.. I look desperate trying to hold on to a conversation or connection that has broken im tired of doing that honestly im always the first to text!!? like what and when I get left on delivered for god knows how long but its soon about to be a new year and im getting a new number so that’s gonna be a fresh start for me and not to mention im going into my hs senior year im a bit nervous like alot but as I always say its the same building just different people so ill mange.

I’ve been thinking about top surgery for the longest. I’ve got a binder of course and I love it. Don’t get me wrong. I really do love it but sometimes I wish it was just flat completely so I would feel like I would love myself more if it was btw im 17 but what’s a safer way and other things to use??

(17M) haven't had any energy to do anything if so it's just genuinely boring to me even the things I use to do it's like I've gotten bored of it I've disappeared from any social media and now all I have is this & I only be here to post of course or either read stories or some shit like that rather or not if I wanna admit it to myself or not but l've started back isolating myself and stopped talking much feels foreign but shit this all few days ago l finished summer school due to when school was in session my grades were bad fell into depression mid semester and just hadden had the courage to come out of it no matter what I did genuinely but it didn't get to bad this time all I went for was 2 classes and got that done and I was out I fear for my senior year that's coming I don't want to fall back into that dark place because this time I won't come back.

im down to be friends with anyone to be honest also long as you’re 16-18 that’s cool also i would be be down to play codm of course i love cod brooo hmu 0_#

okay so im a great person don’t get me wrong but sometimes my mood shifts well more like all the time it’s just something need down in me and everything shifts completely and it’s like another person comes out I get these terrible evil thoughts shit I can’t believe im telling anyone this either I’ve gotten so angry or my tongue slipped you know or even ill have that terrible hatred for a person i honestly can’t even control myself anymore when it happens it’s like a darker side of me is being put out and I can’t even really explain what it is.

alright my girlfriend been distant it’s so annoying i hate when she does it literally i try not to be bothered with it because that’s not the type of person i am but she kind of getting under my skin but the old me coming back and damn I wasn’t shit im not still not shit lmao 😭 but no seriously im learning from my past and my mistakes ill never be where i use to be again she talks about how she wants to see me so bad and how she loves me and all that other stuff but yet she disappears and don’t even bother texting when she even gets back online or nun it’s funny because i know what im capable of but im not taking that route because then i would be the bad person and no we aren’t gonna go there what’s like some advice yall got?

every freaking summer i rot in bed just like the last summer it’s actually pathetic as fuck I don’t really have any friends and im not good with interacting with people anyways so who cares for having friends but it wouldn’t hurt to have someone around or someone to talk to that would actually stay around but spending to much time alone actually drives me crazy when I crave some type of human interaction or connection im genuinely a great person once you get know me you know I’ve always wondered how it was to actually be included or just actually go out with people you trust and that are actually your friends because for the past few weeks my summer has been hell it’s already bad enough during the school year all I did was come home, sleep and repeat the same cycle and when I was talking to people it’s like im begging for their attention and then the connection we once shared fades I hate that because why is everyone in my life temporary when all I do is try and nobody genuinely appreciates that but I guess that’s apart of life right.

okay so when I was younger I ended up coming out to my parents as gay (lesbian) but that was a cover up for what I truly was so down the line when I told them off the back my dad didn’t accept me he hated the fact that I was he was homophobic and would always make jokes targeted at me and til this day he still does but anyways recently I’ve came out as trans to my sister she was supportive of course but when I told my mom she was the completely the damn opposite she wasn’t for it all at but yet she screams how “I love my kids regardless of what they like or who they are” all that bullshit and honestly I’ve felt like I lived half of my life pretending to be someone im not just to satisfy them or other people.

anyone down to play cod mobile?? I preferably want to play battle royale just to clarify things 😭 it’s like a yes or no question guys.

Is it really that bad that I’m wanting someone to not leave 😭 like damn when I had friends they disappeared or we lost contact that was sad to who’s down to be friends??

I don’t know if this is a mental illness or hatred but at random times I get a rush of hate for my girlfriend and no I love her so much she’s more than I could ever ask for but when she talks well when we have deep conversations like actual conversations or when she does something it’s like some type of emotion or feeling open in me I can’t explain it because one minute I want all of her attention I want her all over me and just think about me all together then the next minute I have a crazy rush of emotions that aren’t really great I get irritated and annoyed like I just don’t want to be bothered at all and I hate it sm

I hate not being anyone’s first option or first choice or either just there friend and I mean there actual friend.. not someone they hangout with when there other friends aren’t around I’ve always felt like the floater friend and I hate it to the core.