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After so many years, I caught feelings for a girl, and I am obsessed. My entire mood depends on her. If I see her message, I smile, even if it's the smallest message like "hi." I wanna give her my everything—my body, soul, money, time, whatever I could give. Man, I love her so much. I've never fallen so hard in my entire life. Technically, she's my first love.

She clearly told me that I am not her type, but I can't stop thinking about her and always want to talk to her. We talk casually every day. I can't even walk away. I risked some important deadlines and work that are crucial for my career just to be with her. I love her that much.

I know all my efforts are not worth it if she doesn't like me, but I can't stop myself. She's way out of my league too. She's perfect, and I'm chopped. Now I'm having illusions too—every girl looks like her. I'm trying so hard to contain my feelings by distracting myself with gaming and academic work.

I know this sounds childish for this sub, but it's my situation, man. I don't know what to do. Please give me some advice that will help.

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Every time I find something precious or a purpose I keep losing it without even laying my hands on it. I wanted to play kabaddi when Playing under 14 i got an injury and my dad told me not to go for it anymore. Wanted to become a dancer the lock down came my body weight doubled and my dance went to dogs. Loved a girl i wanted to give her everything but she wanted to focus on her " career"( idk if it's true till this day) I had a crazy crush on a girl and the next day when wanted to speak with her I got called brother and got my whatsapp blocked the moment I said hi( I am not that chopped). In btech I was excited to meet new people all i found was dog water attitude nibbis and nibbas only a handful of em was genuine. I wanted to study abroad I have a good cgpa, projects, research paper, scholarship got rejected in 20 seconds without even asking any of those questions. And now i talked to girl few days ago it felt like "she is the one I've been searching for " but she will leave abroad in some 2 months I am trying so hard not to get attached. And i couldn't it's so fucking hard to not get attached when they are so compatible with you. Since I wanted to move abroad i didn't even attend placements now i have to survive the complex job market with no experience without a head start of placements. Even after all of this I was trying my best to be kind, helping others, being loyal, patient and believing "God has a plan for me". But today i thought "well i can't be with her anyway i would atleast have some good memories" i wanted invite her to do some go karting or a movie on Weekend but she already had plans so I kept silent about the moves and shi i may not even get a chance to hang out with her next weekends. And i didn't even mention small incidents like any documentation or I have to get any work done by college i have to put in twice as hard work than others cuz I keep encountering problems. Idk if it's in my fate to suffer. Today I came to a conclusion i believe that God exists but he is only there to rage bait us so he could have fun. From now on i always approach anything in life thinking it's doomed to fail if only 1 thing gets worked out in 100 things I'll be happy with that. Being born with a soft heart is a curse. Idk if u guys care cuz every one have their own problem just typing it here so that I lift some weight of my heart.

Every time I find something precious or a purpose I keep losing it without even laying my hands on it. I wanted to play kabaddi when Playing under 14 i got an injury and my dad told me not to go for it anymore. Wanted to become a dancer the lock down came my body weight doubled and my dance went to dogs. Loved a girl i wanted to give her everything but she wanted to focus on her " career"( idk if it's true till this day) I had a crazy crush on a girl and the next day when wanted to speak with her I got called brother and got my whatsapp blocked the moment I said hi( I am not that chopped). In btech I was excited to meet new people all i found was dog water attitude nibbis and nibbas only a handful of em was genuine. I wanted to study abroad I have a good cgpa, projects, research paper, scholarship got rejected in 20 seconds without even asking any of those questions. And now i talked to girl few days ago it felt like "she is the one I've been searching for " but she will leave abroad in some 2 months I am trying so hard not to get attached. And i couldn't it's so fucking hard to not get attached when they are so compatible with you. Since I wanted to move abroad i didn't even attend placements now i have to survive the complex job market with no experience without a head start of placements. Even after all of this I was trying my best to be kind, helping others, being loyal, patient and believing "God has a plan for me". But today i thought "well i can't be with her anyway i would atleast have some good memories" i wanted invite her to do some go karting or a movie on Weekend but she already had plans so I kept silent about the moves and shi i may not even get a chance to hang out with her next weekends. And i didn't even mention small incidents like any documentation or I have to get any work done by college i have to put in twice as hard work than others cuz I keep encountering problems. Idk if it's in my fate to suffer. Today I came to a conclusion i believe that God exists but he is only there to rage bait us so he could have fun. From now on i always approach anything in life thinking it's doomed to fail if only 1 thing gets worked out in 100 things I'll be happy with that. Being born with a soft heart is a curse. Idk if u guys care cuz every one have their own problem just typing it here so that I lift some weight of my heart.

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I need final transcripts or provisional by July 15. I am final year right now no backs or anything but my 3-1 marksheet got delayed almost a year. I wrote my final exam on May 2 . When will I get those. If I don't send my official transcripts to my masters uni deposit of 3 lakhs will be gone. Someone help.

Edit : department CSE

The title says. And compare it with lakeheads ms in cs ( project based)