u/waytoohonest999

Im so confused and keep seeing different things, ive identified as Aego for a long time now but people are saying you cant be aego if you have sexual fantasies involving yourself??

My fantasies are always in 3rd person, second person is very uncomfortable but sometimes I imagine myself with a fictional character or OC, and sometimes I imagine just fictional characters/ocs without me, or sometimes I just imagine myself alone??

My self is like a fictional version of myself, nothing too realistic i guess but i still see it as me i guess. Ive never really had an interest in irl sex, sometimes im grossed out by it and sometimes im indifferent but ive never had it and would be perfectly fine living my life never having it. Ive always preferred exploring it in fiction or on my own.

Also I just learned people watch porn because they think the people in it are hot ..?? It took me forever to get comfortable with porn that even showed a face in it. I used to prefer only fictional stuff but its hard to find anything fictional thats not dubious these days.

Anyway If im not Aego is there a better fitting label???

Hi guys ...

Long story short, theres someone i (24) really like (don't know if they like me back but we kind of flirt i guess). we've been talking, honestly just my crush on them has already given me much anxiety, before I can even consider trying to pursue them romantically.

Im medicated and in therapy but I still spend most of my day with an anxious stomach or thinking abt them intrusively ...

My biggest fear right now is, we are both asexual and im worried if I pursue them ill realize im not asexual and we'll have to break up/I'll hurt them, just the thought makes me anxious and nauseous, and i have near constant groinal responses and it sucks.

But I really do like them ... I just don't know if its a bad idea if we're not even together and im already spending each day anxiety ridden. Im worried itll get 10 times worse in an actual relationship...

Should I quit while im ahead? ...

I mean moreso in personality and people I think id have chemistry with than attractiveness, but that too :(

I (24, bigender) like to think im cute, Im emo, i like fashion and dress well, I can be kinda ditzy and am a very anxious person but I dont feel like im compatable with most of the aces ive met (and ive managed to meet and talk with quite a few) though i also find it hard to find people i find attractive and I dont think im picky. Most convos also feel boring or i end up feelong annoying. Maybe im the problem?? >_< anyone else??

(Not saying there arent attractive asexuals, there are so many! I just mean who are my personal type!!!)

Hey everyone ...

I wore a zio monitor for 2 weeks and am currently waiting on the results.

Due to disabling fatigue ive grown pretty reliant on caffeine to function. I dont go over the daily limit for an adult a day, usually half a cup of coffee in the morning and sometimes a monster energy (which i rarely drink all of).

My doctor didnt tell me to avoid caffeine or anything on the monitor but she marked my intake down wrong on my chart saying I only occasionally have it. I just had caffeine as normal.

To be honest I was hoping the caffeine would trigger my symptoms more so that id be taken seriously but I didnt go over what I usually have.

Will that mess up the accuracy of my results?? I didnt think about it until after I sent my monitor back. Im worried about having to wear that stupid monitor all over again 😭

before I go on, yes im aware this is really sad and pathetic.

I have AvPD, depression and a slew of other things from emotional neglect and abandonment as a child.

Im 24 now and pretty much all my life ive imagined myself in fictional worlds. Not just self-inserting into shows/games/etc. but lately just having my own elaborate world in my mind with my own ocs and imagining myself in that world with them ... befriending them, dating them (or theyre dating each other) going on adventures and stuff ... it genuienly makes me less lonely and im very attached to whats basically friends/parters I made myself in my head ...

I guess im wondering if other people so the same or im just a loser lol. I know some people self-insert into stuff but I rarely see people who live a secondary life in their head basically.

Also im not plural!! Its all imagination just very thought out.