u/whatawynn

that’s it, that’s the full post.

i fully actually screamed 😭😭 i’m so upset. suddenly my new cozy game is feeling much less cozy lmao.

20f, currently as a mail temp at an insurance company.

on friday we had a company outing to a pumpkin patch/orchard thing which i later learned everyone else in my department was really annoyed that we had to go to/thought it was a waste of our time since a lot of people feel really behind with stuff.

unfortunately i did not get that memo… and so i was having the time of my life at the pumpkin patch. which got specifically called when our boss sent out an email tonight basically being like glad everyone came to the outing on friday. seemed like everyone had fun, especially our newest team member, wynn 😭😭 and then its like two photos of the group and three of me being way too excited about various pumpkin patch activities.

i actually feel humiliated, like what do i do? have i ruined my profesional reputation 😔

or am i just some crazy person connecting red string where red string doesn’t need to be lol.

saw primetime tonight and wanted to know what the real decoy dan was up to now, turns out he’s a local news anchor here! literally this same week i finished another book and in the afterword it mentioned the real guy the main character was based off of is buried in mt hope cemetery.

and i just feel like that sort of thing happens all the time without me specifically seeking out media about rochester. kinda crazy, i think.

just read it and i could’ve sworn there was a video where he briefly talks about it. want to rewatch now that id get it better but i cant seem to find it 😔 so it goes lol

finally managed to rsvp in time for an event with my local cool women meet up group and i am fighting for my life to make friends as an adult so this is SERIOUS lol.

it’s a sunday swap where everyone brings like a couple of an ideally homemade thing and then you swap with people so you end up with a variety of treats and such.

looking at the last one there was stuff like baked goods, little sewed/crocheted keychains and pouches, coffee syrups, flower bundles, postcards, etc.

unfortunately i am not particularly crafty/good at baking and so i would love to brainstorm with you all for ideas for something i could bring that would be cute and a crowd pleaser but also easy enough for me to do. my reputation is on the line!!

not to be every sad woman ever but i love phoobe bridgers bad.

was soo excited for the new album and then not only did i not get pop up show tickets i lost the ticketmaster war BAD, like not even chosen for either wave of presale at all and ended up ticketless for the tour AND i wasn’t able to get tickets for my local planetarium pre release listening party, that was happening on my birthday😭😭

so like picture all of that and then the same month i learn i am getting laid off at the end of the year. so not to be dramatic but i was just like i cannot handle it if i hate this new album that i am so excited for, and i didn’t love the single so i was like oh no and put it on the back burner lmao.

well today i finally listened to it and false alarm everyone i actually really like it!! i think strong second fav for me as far as phoebe albums go 🙂‍↕️

i’m on medicaid and i work 8-4:30 and so the only therapist in my area that can work with my schedule and my insurance can only see me once every three weeks for 45 minutes.

i also just don’t know if we’re a good match. like she seems very into diagnosing me with things which i know it’s literally healthcare but really freaks me out.

like during my first ever session she was said i think you have ocd and then throughout my sessions as i would say things would be like ☝️and that’s another symptom of ocd when id be like girl i really dont think i have that she’d just say people with ocd dont think they have it all the time.

and then this recently happened again with adhd where atp im sort of just like can i just tell you things without you trying to label me with everything 😭😭

anyways. this is my first time in therapy and so i guess im just wondering if it’s either this or no therapy is it better to stick with it or just give up all together? because im really not finding it helpful at all but its only been three sessions so i dont know 😔

not currently working as a paralegal but hoping to!

got invited to a paralegal conference through my local paralegal association. thinking about going to network but it is $80 for admission. i’ve never been to a conference before and so im just wondering what to expect/if that seems like a reasonable price for one?

any insight would be appreciated!

location: new york

just got summoned for jury duty for the first time and i’m a paralegal studies major so i really want to do it.

i assume it’s mostly random whether or not you get picked but any advice for how to up my odds a little would be appreciated!

have my first office job (8-5) and coming from retail i’ve been loving that i’m allowed an hour lunch as well as well as a fifteen minute break before lunch and a fifteen minute after lunch.

but im lowkey starting to realize that almost none of my coworkers take either of their fifteen minute breaks and most don’t even go out of the building for lunch 😭😭

i’ve been going outside for all three of those and so i guess im just wondering if i should stop? or can it not be held against me since im explicitly allowed

thinking about going to back to school to become a teacher and so i’m making a list lol. i think ive got all the usual suspects but if you guys have any lesser known things that are either terrible or great i would really appreciate it!

it’s my 20th birthday today and while i’m certain this is well meaning/mostly a joke i have had multiple family members and coworkers either be like btw it’s all downhill from here or be like savor it because these are the best years of your life and then it’s all downhill from here.

and like as someone who was super depressed in high school and then had an extremely mediocre experience in college it is sort of a bummer to think that was meant to be the best part of my life. and also stressful to be like well actually these next few years need to be the best ones because i have no clue wtf i’m doing.

idk. obviously some part of your life is going to be the best but i guess my hope would just be that it’s not so obvious which part that was and also that it doesn’t happen this year because theres so much more life to go.

can’t look at my phone or anything bc i get motion sick but then i just have no clue what to do with myself.

i feel like hands folded in my lap makes me seem so pretentious and i’m like some asshole whose judging the uber driver but hands by your side in the car is so awkward. and like you can’t hold the little bar thing because then it seems like you think they’re a bad driver.

what is the protocol here 😔 i feel like my uber reputation is in shambles bc im just being so odd in there