Newly diagnosed
I went to a psychiatrist wanting a mood stabiliser bc when my SSRI works, its great, but i still have pretty bad dips in my mood. Came out with a surprise ADHD diagnosis. Honestly has never ever been on my radar.
I've seen psychiatrists in the past. All 3 were men, and all 3 were so dismissive. First one decided within 10 minutes i had bipolar disorder (my dad literally just died and was in a deep depression), put me on lithium and effexor straight up, didnt end well. Second one i saw a few times and then one day said to me "do you even want help? Why are you here if you dont want help?" Bro. I was in yet another deep depression, it was hard enough to get to that appointment. Third one I saw during my first pregnancy and seemed alright. Saw again during my second pregnancy and he offered an anti-anxiety med. I said no, id like another option because of the weight gain (huge trigger for both my anxiety and depression) he said if i dont that that exact medication then there is nothing else he can do. It was the only option offered to me.
So, I was hesitant to see another psychiatrist. My wonderful therapist said I need a mood stabiliser, desperately. My mood just slips so bad. So she recommended a female psychiatrist, so i thought id give it one more go.
And she was great. We talked through my history. She asked a lot of questions. At the end she said "I think you might have ADHD inattentive type". Huh, never even crossed my mind because i'm the laziest person i know.
She had a chat with my mum a couple of weeks later, had my base line bloods and ECG done and a script for Vyvanse.
Today is only day 2 on 20mg so I know its very early days but I actually have energy. Today is meant to be day 3 but I forgot to take it day 1 lmao. Anyway, yesterday at work, I got through the entire day and didnt feel like i was falling asleep at my desk by 10am. I didnt feel restless, like I had to get up and walk around every 2 minutes.
Today, i painted a room i have been meaning to paint for about 4 years.
I don't feel like im buzzing or manic or anything. And I know 2 doses of 20mg is nothing, and its probably a placebo at this point. But even if it is, its working and hoping it continues.