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Are there any cruelty free and or vegan shampoos like nizoral? or due to the nature of the ingredients is that not currently possible? i'm so desperate it's the only thing that's ever worked and i mean i tried literally everything else for years before i tried nizoral because it's so expensive. would it be vain to repurchase if there are no alternatives? i'd like to think it's medical and not cosmetic because the itching that accompanies dandruff and not just the harmless flakes but im really torn on this and i'd love any suggestions or opinions.

i already have struggled with mental health issues my entire life so i'm very susceptible to depressive episodes and get them very often. i became cruelty free and vegetarian this year and about two weeks ago decided to go fully plant based, not really holding myself to the expectation to fully committing. i've always know the meat and dairy industry was imperfect, but i never knew the full extent. i was ignorant and had too many issues in my life to stop and think about where the food on my plate came from, especially during times of food scarcity. my perception of animal agriculture was that, surely something so common that everyone partakes in, there has to be some sort of standard for ethicality. years in lush green fields and painless deaths. i remember yeeeears back hearing about animal abuse from fairlife farms and completely boycotted that brand thinking it was an anomaly. i thought the abuse of animals was a rare thing far away that didn't happen to MY meat. that these were rare isolated cases. i now know that the abuse and torture of these animals is not only put into every bite of meat you will ever buy at the store, but is mandatory for animal farming at the scale to supply the huge demand. i watched dominion a few days ago. i got through maybe 3/4 of the movie before i decided i couldn't anymore. about the part where it got to the goats. their screams sound like ours. huddled in corners knowing they're next. the thing is, i'm now so incredibly anxious and depressed. which i know is nothing in comparison to the innocent animals who are being tortured every second of their lives and slaughtered. i'm depressed that i was a complicit in their abuse for now long. i'm depressed how many people have seen the horrors and can turn a blind eye. i'm depressed that one of the very narrators of the most soul breaking documentary i've ever seen is no longer vegan. i'm depressed how many people don't care and will never care. my mother used to be vegan years ago but isn't anymore, and makes a million excuses to why she won't participate with me now, but still wants to take credit for being vegan for a short amount of time years ago. knowing all of this and still converting back to meat eggs and dairy. my sister who i could at least bond with not eating meat is considering adding fish back to her diet. i know for as long as i live seeing what i have seen that no bite of any food would be good enough to justify the horrors these animals go through. it's burned in my head now and i feel sick for all the pain and fear these animals are going through and will continue to go through due to people's selfishness. how do you cope with this and knowing most of the people you meet and talk to are so casual about animal abuse? giving up meat wasn't hard, giving up dairy wasn't hard, giving up eggs wasn't hard, facing reality is the hardest part and i want to know how you guys cope with this.