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accidentally ate 3/4 of a pint of coffee flavored "non dairy sorbetto" before i flipped it over and read the ingredients and saw it contains egg. i didn't even consider that a possibility. i feel so stupid. its my fault, i should have checked, and i guess maybe its not purposely misleading, but im upset regardless. i thought sorbet was already inherently dairy free and so that specifying it was "dairy free" was signaling that is was also plant based. i forgot some people genuinely only avoid dairy due to allergies and do not avoid other animal products. silver lining is i learned a lesson but fuck i just feel awful. it was completely avoidable.

i ignore it and try to move on but it literally makes my head spin when people talk about being empaths and how they don't want to hurt their stuffed animals feelings or they see a smiley face in their pancake and won't eat it or that copy paste shit about crabs eating onions while being boiled alive or just other shit like that, and i know in my heart that they DO probably feel something they interpret as empathy for their stuffed animals or for whatever their pareidolia can make a face out of or crabs that they eat anyway, but it just pisses me off so bad i get irrationally upset and it's become a burden for me. even as a carnist i never claimed to be an animal lover and i never felt a need to be a performative empath. im not coming from a place of moral superiority just rage. how do i keep this shit from bothering me so much when there's nothing i can do about it??

last few times i've bought my regular extra firm tofu from walmart it has a weird inconsistent texture and i was wondering what i could use it for that completely obscures the inconsistent texture?

committing to becoming vegan was the most important thing i've ever done in my life, but its so fucking traumatic. everything in your life changes. how you perceive the world changes. i've sacrificed so much more than just food i once loved. it's also social suicide. no one wants to listen to me talk about animal welfare just as much as i don't want to acknowledge people i love and care about hardly give a fuck about animal welfare unless it's a dog or an instagram reel supposed to make you feel good about humanity because someone saved a pig that fell off a truck to a slaughter house but if that pig made it there they wouldn't think twice before buying its corpse at walmart. no one wants to go out anywhere with someone who has to double check if they can even eat french fries while everyone else is eating burgers. and you have to pretend you're not getting flashbacks to videos and images of animals being tortured when you see any food with animal products. i want to start dating but where i live im like 100000x more likely to find a guy who kills animals for fun than i am to find a vegan, and that's not even my only standard. it's so fucking lonely here. i don't like complaining because i know my suffering does not compare to the animals im doing this for, but i just want to wallow in my own pity for a little bit. not eating animals or animal products is literally the easiest part, feeling so alone and hopeless and outcasted is what makes this hard. it feels like a nightmare. it's awful to say i miss my ignorance, but acknowledging the world we live in as it is has been the hardest pill to swallow. there are times where i do find happiness in knowing ive done my part, there was something i really wanted but didnt buy it bc it was tested on animals, i silently pat myself on the back for doing what should be the bare fucking minimum, i resist the urges to just eat my order that was fucked up by someone who can't understand "remove cheese", i let myself starve when i can't afford groceries even though i live in a house with carnists and there's perfectly edible yogurt that seems like it's only been bought for display for how long it's been sitting in there. i do pat myself on the back for having self control. isn't it crazy to have to pride yourself for not participating in animal abuse because everyone else does it? i just hate the world we live in. i dont think i deserve praise or anyone's tears because its just "so hard" i wish people would have a fucking heart and empathy that exceeds the temporary pleasure whatever said food or material item would bring them. the satisfaction of knowing i'm doing what's right only lasts as long as it takes before i remember how it's just a drop in the bucket and i'd be delusional to believe ill live to see a peaceful world.

Are there any cruelty free and or vegan shampoos like nizoral? or due to the nature of the ingredients is that not currently possible? i'm so desperate it's the only thing that's ever worked and i mean i tried literally everything else for years before i tried nizoral because it's so expensive. would it be vain to repurchase if there are no alternatives? i'd like to think it's medical and not cosmetic because the itching that accompanies dandruff and not just the harmless flakes but im really torn on this and i'd love any suggestions or opinions.

i already have struggled with mental health issues my entire life so i'm very susceptible to depressive episodes and get them very often. i became cruelty free and vegetarian this year and about two weeks ago decided to go fully plant based, not really holding myself to the expectation to fully committing. i've always know the meat and dairy industry was imperfect, but i never knew the full extent. i was ignorant and had too many issues in my life to stop and think about where the food on my plate came from, especially during times of food scarcity. my perception of animal agriculture was that, surely something so common that everyone partakes in, there has to be some sort of standard for ethicality. years in lush green fields and painless deaths. i remember yeeeears back hearing about animal abuse from fairlife farms and completely boycotted that brand thinking it was an anomaly. i thought the abuse of animals was a rare thing far away that didn't happen to MY meat. that these were rare isolated cases. i now know that the abuse and torture of these animals is not only put into every bite of meat you will ever buy at the store, but is mandatory for animal farming at the scale to supply the huge demand. i watched dominion a few days ago. i got through maybe 3/4 of the movie before i decided i couldn't anymore. about the part where it got to the goats. their screams sound like ours. huddled in corners knowing they're next. the thing is, i'm now so incredibly anxious and depressed. which i know is nothing in comparison to the innocent animals who are being tortured every second of their lives and slaughtered. i'm depressed that i was a complicit in their abuse for now long. i'm depressed how many people have seen the horrors and can turn a blind eye. i'm depressed that one of the very narrators of the most soul breaking documentary i've ever seen is no longer vegan. i'm depressed how many people don't care and will never care. my mother used to be vegan years ago but isn't anymore, and makes a million excuses to why she won't participate with me now, but still wants to take credit for being vegan for a short amount of time years ago. knowing all of this and still converting back to meat eggs and dairy. my sister who i could at least bond with not eating meat is considering adding fish back to her diet. i know for as long as i live seeing what i have seen that no bite of any food would be good enough to justify the horrors these animals go through. it's burned in my head now and i feel sick for all the pain and fear these animals are going through and will continue to go through due to people's selfishness. how do you cope with this and knowing most of the people you meet and talk to are so casual about animal abuse? giving up meat wasn't hard, giving up dairy wasn't hard, giving up eggs wasn't hard, facing reality is the hardest part and i want to know how you guys cope with this.