u/yknowwhatelseishard

I am so confused and lost, I am a teenager so i have zero experience with tech outside of phones but i really wanna get an mp3 player so i can listen to music without the temptation of my phone.

the main things i value are sound quality, organization, and storage. i love making playlists and expanding my music taste and its really important to me being able to sort stuff.

i currently use deezer to stream my music, and the headphones i have are airpods pro gen 3. idk if those are good or not recommendations on headphones that stream good quality and have /really/ good noise cancellation are welcome :3

i like buttons but i dont really care how the device looks, and im also so confused on how tech like this works and what the limitations are on how much i can mess with what music im listening to.

tldr: searching for mp3 player with high quality, ability to sort music, and good storage.

budget is prolly 150 at most and if it matters i mostly listen to punk and metal music so i would need something that goes loud lol

ive been sent to cardiology pulmonology and done all of their crap. echos, an exercise test on a stationary bike, crapily done lay and then stand tests, (they only had me lay down for 2-5 min and then let me move while upright) the only thing they found was irrelevant arrhythmia. im barely functional anymore. im needing to ask to lay down during my classes (which they let me do cus i go to a school for neurospicy kids), im not able to do fun outings anymore, last time i tried i almost collapsed on the floor trying to get from one side of the mall to the other. i had already sat down four times.
i finally got a referral to neurology today at a doctors appointment but i felt like the doctor was brushing me off and not listening to how bad ive gotten, and chalking it up to exercise intolerance and diet. i have an average diet, if you compare me to other teenagers you would call it an outstanding one, but no i drink too much milk so thats why i cant stand. i ran a poor mans ttt and got a change of hr from the mid seventies to the 120's to 130's with no significant change in blood pressure (ive ran it multiple times).
the appointment isnt until august and i dont know what to do to stay functional
do i push through even though its made me worse? do i rest a lot even though its might decondition me? as if theres anything left to lose in the state im in.
ive been using a cane thats been keeping me able to go to school, but its not enough anymore causing me to try to save up for a secondhand wheelchair behind my parents back. when i excitedly brought up to my therapist i was almost at the 820 i need for it, she started a convo abt it. shes suggesting that my mental health is causing all this, cus im not moving to enough or leaving the house much and my anxiety. and because ive been suspecting POTS and also hEDS that im limiting myself with my brain.
i genuinely just dont know what to do. is she right? i genuinely doubt it because there are so many physical symptoms but no one is listening to me. i just feel like no matter what i do im fucked and i just need advice.
do i forget abt the fact i prolly have this shit and push myself to behave and exercise like a able bodied person? cus last time i did that even a tiny bit (didnt even run) i fell onto the ground from everything. i didnt pass out but i did fall.
every part of my life is being significantly effected by this and i dont know what to do.
everyones saying im wrong and that i need to just push myself.

TLDR: medical gaslighting from literally everyone and now im scared that i might be wrong and i should go back to trying to behave like a normal person even though im barely functional and symptoms are getting worse.
what the fuck do i do?

edit immediately after posting: some details i left out:
i ride horses bareback two times a week and bike about three miles a day (it is an electric bike tho)
electrolytes help me so much holy shit but it could be in my head i guess?
i use a cane cus i cant do shit anymore and it makes it slightly eisier
i almost have all the money i need to get a secondhand wheelchair so i can do outings with my friend like once a week but my therapist is saying it will make me worse and i need to push myself
symptoms starting during an insanely stressful and traumatic part of my life and have been worsening in the year and a half since