u/your_atif

(I use obs for streaming)

So basically, if I’m downloading a game on Steam and open something like Valorant at the same time, my ping becomes terrible because the download is using my internet. The moment I pause the Steam download, my ping goes back to normal instantly.

Now the weird part is with streaming.

If I stream while playing story/single-player games, everything works perfectly fine. No lag, no stream issues.

But the second I launch any online game while streaming, both things start dying:

- the game ping becomes unstable/high

- the stream also starts lagging/dropping frames

I even tried lowering the stream bitrate a lot, but online games still become unplayable while live. Story games work completely fine though.

I am 17m and I’m tired of my mom’s side of the family acting like they own my life,,,,

The entire year, nobody asked me how my 10th studies were going. Nobody cared if I was stressed or struggling. But when results came close, suddenly everyone’s eyes were on me. They took away the only thing I use to study properly, my phone. it’s literally my study source,,,

The worst part is that I never even wanted to take PCM. I wanted commerce. But everyone from my mom’s side of the family pressured me, scolded me, and basically forced me into PCM. Then after I took it, the same people started treating me like I don’t study seriously or like I can’t understand anything properly whenever I struggled. It feels like no matter what I do, I lose.

For the last 30 days, I completely isolated myself just to focus. I stopped visiting people, stopped wasting time, kept going to coaching, came home, studied again, and repeated the same cycle every day. I genuinely tried,,,,

Then today they called me over just to tell me:

“Give us your phone.” “Leave your current coaching.” “Go study 10 km away"

My mind genuinely feels destroyed at this point,,,,

And another thing that hurts me is what’s happening to my younger brother. He’s only 11 years old, in 6th class. My uncle sent him to his friend’s place for tuition every single day for 3 hours. That “teacher” doesn’t even explain questions properly. He just tells my brother to write answers directly,,

Obviously my brother doesn’t know how to solve them yet, so when he asks for help, the teacher just says things like:

“Do this question 10 times"

But he never explains how to actually do it.

And if my brother asks again because he still doesn’t understand, the punishment becomes:

“Now do it 15 times"

The thing is, I tried to speak about this but the reply I got from them is:

“What have YOU achieved to lecture us?"

Honestly, I’ve reached a point where I feel like I don’t need my mom’s side of the family at all. I feel like one day I’ll go very far away and live alone forever if I have to. Even if I get sick, I’d rather handle myself alone than keep living in an environment where nobody listens to me and everyone just tries to control my life,,,

And I am stuck, I can't do anything

I’m a 17M, and ever since I was a kid I’ve always been really interested in digital and creative things like editing, games, and anything visual.

Whenever I came back from school, I used to use my brother’s phone and try to learn a bit of editing on my own. That’s just how I’ve always been.

Academically, I’m average, but I struggle a lot with maths. Like, even if someone explains a question to me step by step, I still can’t solve it on my own afterward. My head starts hurting really badly, and whenever I sit down with a maths book, it literally feels like someone is hammering a nail into my head.

Right now I’m learning a software called Blender. My brother helps me a lot, and he never scolds me about maths, which honestly means a lot. I’m currently working on my 3d animation.

But I’m also really scared.

Because my maths is weak, I keep worrying about my future. I don’t understand why I can’t do maths when all my friends seem to manage it easily.

I also never really found friends who appreciate art or creativity. I like sketching too, but I’ve never had someone around me who shares that interest, and that makes me feel kind of alone sometimes.

So I’m stuck with this thought:

Is what I’m doing right?

Is it okay that I’m focusing on something like 3D animation just because I genuinely enjoy it so much?

I don’t know if I’m on the right path, and that uncertainty is what scares me the most.

So, I have a WiFi connection at my place that easily gives around 20 Mbps upload speed. I use it for game streaming on OBS, but whenever I stream, even though I set the bitrate to 8000, it keeps dropping to around 2000 and sometimes even goes down to 0. I’ve tried a lot of things, but I still can’t figure out what’s wrong. If someone can help me, please tell me how to fix this.