Okay so a while ago i accidentally left some toffee chocolate in the pocket of my battle vest, and i tried cleaning it out and it got very sticky. Then it got dusty. Then i put some babypowder there to make it better, but now i really wanna clean it throughly. Any tips?
Okay so i have a friend lets call him Tim. Tim is agender, masc presenting. He does not know im trans, he thinks im cis. And whenever people ask me how old i am when hes there, he always need to specify that im becoming 17 this year. And i tried telling him not to.
(Reason why i dont want him to say that is because i dont feel like i pass as a 17 yo, but maybe a vety late bloomer at 16. Im starting to get taller, getting a slightly deeper voice and getting visible facial hair tho, surprisingly even not on T yet. But im trying to figure out how to get T before 17, or at 17)
However when i told Tim not to specify me becoming 17, he got pissed and said "but you are becoming 17, whats the problem!" And i didnt know how to explain him this, but i tried telling him that i just dont wanna seem "that old" then he started saying stuff like "yea but what about when you are 17? Its 4 months till you are" and i said "you dont have to tell new people im becoming 17, just dont say anything" and he just got pissed and didnt understand the deal. Like dude just let me enjoy having 4 months left of being 16 😭 i dont understand why he feels the need to say that. He is 17 already
This same dude also does not think i need T because im "cis" to him, but if i was cis just like this, then it would be weird of me to not get T by now or sooner. What should i do? I still wanna pass to Tim but at the same time its so annoying how he dosent validate me. He thinks he has it worse than me because he gets periods, but little does he know 💔
I have way too many friends, and i dont feel like i have enough time for all of em. I feel so bad because i feel like im choosing people over others, but in reality i love all of them. But trying to hangout more with people i feel comfortable around. And prioritize people who really seem to enjoy chilling w me.
At the same time its too many. And i feel like a horrible player, i dont know what to do :( i also cant give every single one of them birthday gifts because theres so many. And i feel like some think about me more than i think about them 💔
I also need to ghost most of people daily, due to having too many socials and too many mutuals. I feel like i dont care, but i really do
Whats the best to do?
I love my family, but i've nevet really lived with them due to being a fosterkid very early on. And i found out i was trans at 11, questioned since 9, and now really wanna start T and everything. But thing is that my family on dads side is the only people who deadname me. Im not often with them. When im with them, its the only time i hear my deadname. And i love them, but its so distressing to hear them calling me wrong everything. Also dont feel like i can be myself around them in general.
My dad agreed to let me change my legal name since i needed legal parental acceptance before 16, but he didnt know why i wanted to change it. If he knew, i dont think he would say yes. And he knows im trans now because of my new fosterfamily saying correct name and pronouns. This fosterfamily also know my deadname now only because of that. And its distressing me alot, because i do not want anymore people to know.
This is why i kinda wanna cut them off, because my father is expecting me to become a beautiful woman and let go off that "phase" at the same time i think he maybe would understand after some time. My dad is very against lgbtq+, but he dont seem to push his opinions on me (which i expected) he also asked if it was ok if they called me *deadname* i said yes because im bad at standing up for myself. It seems like he does respect it, still i dont think i want him to see me on T and everything. Im trying to get it soon so i can become affirming at 18
Also my big sister on my moms side, i love her so so much she cares alot about me. But she just thinks i like to confuse people with my gender. That not the case, i really do wanna transition. But she says things such as she dosent want me to change my body, she likes my breasts etc etc it makes me feel bad but also grossed out. I want to be comfortable in my own body for myself, not for others to admire in any way.
My mom would also probably kill me, because im like her "sweet youngest girl" and i love her alot, but thats not who i am. Mom is very strict on her views, and she supports lgbtq i think because she asked if i had a boyfriend OR girlfriend in a casual way. But i dont think she would be ok with me transitioning, because she talks about "if you lived with me i wouldnt let you wear that" "you cant trust men" "you're a woman you need to do this and that" "thats not girly of you" etc :/
And they all are religious (me too) but they think transitioning is a sin because you need to have your body as it is etc. But i dont believe in that, also think they would ruin my life if they met my friends
I pass pretty well 16m, but some people seem to get confused and some also misgender me/dosent seem to really believe im a boy. Been called "girls" so many times when been with girls, but also boys when been with boys. Im starting to get very insecure of my voice because its pretty light, but also pretty androgynous. And i wanna start T, but its almost impossible for me to get.
And im like unable to do voice training because it dosent sound right at all and i cant keep on w that voice cus i forget. Also feel like it sounds like im forcing it. What to do?
Har prøvd å komme meg inn på det siden jeg var 12, er nå 16 snart 17 og sykt lei av å ikke få det til. Jeg prøver å passere som en gutt, men ikke lett når nesten alle har hitta pubertet.. og vil ikke være lysstemmet og lav til jeg er over 18. De benekta meg nå fordi de ikke syntes jeg har behov for det tror jeg. Vil gjerne gjerne ha hjelp med dette, blir så lei av alt..
Been open for 3 days in a little higher heat than normal temperature, and im wondering if i can put the rest on my food rn? Or would that be risky?
This one tic has been here for almost a year. Its hard to explain but its like a spasm or jerk from the inside of my right arm. Its not really visible unless my arm is bare- and i dont understand how im doing it, i've tried doing it on purpose many times to find out how it works, but i just end up triggering myself instead 💔
When it first appeared, it was nonstop with almost no breaks. It was soooo painful i barely slept for 2 days, and had to use numbing cream the day after. It worked for the pain, but not the tic itself.
And it calmed down after a week or so, so it wasnt that frequent but still everyday now. And i cant help, but now notice that its actually making my arm so insanely tender 24/7. I envy the days before i got this tic. And when i think about it, it makes both the pain and tic worse. Here i am again unable to sleep at 5 am one of the reasons being because of this
Dont know what to do, because i dont have any therapist or neurologist to talk to right now. When i had one, she just said it was nothing to do about it and that i just have to ignore it. But its so hard to just ignore it, and that makes me so frustrated.
And i feel awkward for bringing this up with people in my life, because i feel so cringe for having tics in general. I feel like my tourettes is not as bad as other cases, but also bad enough to interfere with my daily life. If you look away from my ability to supress/mask when "needed" its honestly pretty horrible. And its just gotten worse every month. Im so done with this