I feel like a lost cause
24M, don't smoke, admittedly developed a drinking problem due to what you see here and what you can't see. Growing up I did not take care of my teeth and ended up with fillings on nearly every tooth in my mouth save for my bottom six, all of which are well past the typical seven year lifespan. After I got the root canal on my incisor (the very broken one) I finally cleaned up my act until COVID came down and my mother passed away in early 2022. After that I feel into bad habits again, this time stuffing my face with sugars and sodas in grief and barely brushing my teeth. That is until 2023 with the back corner of my upper second molar broke revealing a huge cavity, one that's only gotten bigger since. I've cleaned up my act since then, cutting myself off from snacks, sodas and sweets, flossing every night and brushing 2-3 times a day. My family kept telling me they'd bring me to the dentist but nobody has. I don't have insurance, or a car and atm I've only got 23 bucks in my name. I need this to be fixed and actually look good in the mirror but I don't know what I'm going to do. It feels like I'm going to be in dentures by 30 if I'm lucky and it terrifies me, I just want to smile again and be happy with it, not looking at this.
I've been actively begging my brother to help (he's also got teeth problems but not to the same extent) but he wants me to get a good dentist and not a 'welfare' dentist like I care about being picky. I don't know what to do, and I feel scared and humiliated to the point I start binge drinking to drown the feelings. despite knowing it'll only make it worse. And on top of all that I still need my wisdom teeth removed, with the ones above being rotten messes who've probably doomed my back molars and the bottoms being impacted. I'm in desperate need for hope and advice because I can't take much more of this, I just want a white, full toothed smile again.