u/According-Coach6725

There is a fact that misogyny is a big problem in the world, but there is also a fact that misandry also causes alot of big problems in the world. This term that has been thrown around: "Misandry hurts a man's feelings, misogyny kills a women" is literally a made against men to brush of as if male hatred is not a big issue or should be justified and should just suck it up for existing, which in return will create more hostility, resentment and hateful thoughts from men's perspective towards women, because they are viewed as violent, predators and rapists in society. This cycle of hatred and gender war bullshit needs to stop!

I basicly hate everything including human kind and myself included. I struggle in social interactions for making friends, find love and I dislike myself for my low IQ as my job dream requieres high education. Dealing with alot of time is suffering to exist, deaing with people is like dealing with predators.

This tought in my head stayed with me ever since 10 years long (or even longer) when I was a boy too. I hate being a man for their stereotypes where the traditions is that a man needs to be strong, work in hazardeous enviroments (like my degree is based on a laboratorium study, which I despise), be tough and show no emotions. This made me feel isolated and not supported in society that rejects me. If I die, nobody cares nor will they remember me. If I made a mistake, it stays my fault and I should just suck it up for existing. If I made a succes, nobody would care, if I cannot understand, I would not be worth it in the cold society that despises me. Outside my family, I have no friends, stay single and feel absolute terrible about myself for existing.

In my country, I (M22) have been put in the lowest class of school when I was 12. I'm now at college having to study for like 5 years now in two degrees that I do not like and my road to the university is still far away from it as I have to yet study another 2-3 years before I can reach a bachelor associate degree to do a bridge program so I can finally reach the university. I fear that I might fail and do something on myself as everything I worked on would be for nothing.

Everytime I (M22) think about myself in society, I often hate being in it, nobody cares about me or you or everyone else which makes it dificult to be comfortable with fellow people. The pressure I face from them versus how I feel myself is just too much to handle and I shame myself for it, because I cannot get over it for how much trauma I went trough from them. I hate my skin colour, gender, low intelligence, no university degree, enviroment, having to wear goggles, I'm afraid and depressed. I feel like an alien that does not belong in human society, things like, it's okay to be human, it's okay to be vulnurable, I just don't get why I should be comfortable with that. It's hard to understand when people explain their tantrums with an excuse of: "that's just their opinion" if they also don't realize they are hurting me too. I hate the world.

Everytime I M22 think about myself in society, I often hate being in it, nobody cares about me or you or everyone else which makes it dificult to be comfortable with fellow people. The pressure I face from them versus how I feel myself is just too much to handle and I shame myself for it, because I cannot get over it for how much trauma I went trough from them. I hate my skin colour, gender, low intelligence, no university degree, enviroment, having to wear goggles, I'm afraid and depressed. I feel like an alien that does not belong in human society, things like, it's okay to be human, it's okay to be vulnurable, I just don't get why I should be comfortable with that. It's hard to understand when people explain their tantrums with an excuse of: "that's just their opinion" if they also don't realize they are hurting me too. I hate the world.

When I was verbally abused by a teacher two years ago, many drawers of my childhood trauma opened and I'm suffering now (22m) for my mental issues again. In the past, school wasn't really pleasent since many teachers had verbally abused me and other children. Many children where also unstable themselves which made it a chaos house to deal with. I always felt pressured to reasure them or my parents when they feel angry or deeply emotional grief. Things like these makes me feel like I'm the problem and I feel like I need to stay in alert and think about bad things all the time. Thinking about bad things makes me feel better even if I know it's wrong, I cannot escape the loop as it haunts me everytime. Why? I just cannot let go of the past and the experience of 2 years ago made me jump my trauma up again. I might never get a happy life since my youth has been pretty much destroyed for me.

Ever since I was a kid, I hate being part of a non white background in which my dad was verbally agressive towards me. Ever since he and my mother where divorced I think of how much hatefull thoughts I feel of being half white and half coloured. I feel better of being white. Pls don't hate me for it, this is just honestly how I feel as a mixed race person.

I hate everything I did in this world. I'm shamed against my family, I'm not well educated enough for myself to achieve my dream work, I'm shamed to live in my country. I hate people in general. It hurts me while saying this. I'm 22 and achieved nothing in my youth.

Ik ga na de zomervakantie in MBO 4 starten voor een analist chemisch opleiding in MBO Techniek College Rotterdam, maar ik ben eigenlijk bang dat ik daar zal gepest worden, gediscrimineerd of dat ik ga falen.

Ik krijg vaak te horen in de nieuws dat Rotterdam niet zo'n prettige stad is wegens drugs, straat berovingen en dat maakt me best wel ongemakkelijk om daar te komen studeren en mijn MBO niveau volledig af te ronden om vervolgens naar HBO in te stromen.

Misschien reageer ik overdreven, het is gewoon iets dat mijn gedachte vasthoudt, sinds me ervaringen in het verleden op school niet zo prettig waren.

Edit: Sorry voor mijn spelling/grammatica fouten.

It's currently 4 am local time over here and I'm having hard thoughts from which I cannot sleep as it effects me daily. I'm having hard time as somebody that doubt/shame so much on myself and I don't know how to put it in other then that I view myself expendable in the human society. My langauge development disorder, my gender, my origin race view, the way people treat me and expect me to handle things, it's too much for me to handle! I'm not sure if I'll make it.

I cry sometimes, be angry or feel numb, but I never let people show it, because I feel guilt expressing it and I don't want to be vulnurable to people all the time. I'm venting this all like a hopeless child, I don't think I'm fitable and good enough for this world. People view me as a problem and I'm ruining myself for that as an expendable person that I like to believe in

Ik weet niet zeker of ik dit hier mag zeggen, maar voor mijn mening heb ik een hekel gekregen om te werken in het algemeen. Elke dag 8 uur in en uit met een burn-out op het werkvloer waarin ik elke seconden op de tijd kijk wanneer ik naar huis mag gaan zodat ik kan ontspannen en als ik thuis ben tel ik al af voor de volgende werkdag.