u/AcidicSlimeTrail

I was on a plane, and they were handing out the in flight snacks/drinks. The woman next to me got a coke. I've gotten an apple juice since I was young, and this was no exception. The woman stops the stewardess right as she's about to leave and asks to make a different choice because she didn't know they had juice. Her coke was replaced with a cup of cran-apple juice, and we shared a brief moment of shared enjoyment of juice

I keep having owners who don't want to pay for two drop ins to feed their pets. Instead, they have me come once and give them 2 meals worth of food (which the pets eat all in one sitting). I feel awful, that can't be good for them

My whole life I've been mentally ill, and I've been "strong." I've done the work, sought out support, did CBT/DBT/ANYTHING that could help me improve. What do I have to show for it? Doctors who don't believe me. Meds that don't do enough. Therapy that can't help because I seem to have tried EVERYTHING. No proof that I've been fighting for my goddamn life every day just to appear somewhat normal/functional. My body is healthy but my mind is just getting worse and worse because every last hope of help is getting extinguished.

My days are severely shortened because waking up takes several hours, my brain can't process time or directions so I'm constantly late to wherever I want to go. Everyone says I'm normal. Every doctor thinks I just need to try harder. What is the fucking point? I'm sick of not being sick enough. I'm exhausted doing damage control. I wish I knew how to stop doing the "right" things because THEY'RE NOT GETTING ME ANYWHERE. I can't do anything. I've got no quality of life. I'm tired I'm tired I'm tired I'm so fucking tired of everything. I'm angry and I don't even know what to do with it. I don't know what else I can do.