u/Additional-Cell-9229

Since i generally wake up late so it’s easy for me to get past the daytime especially when i have classes but basic things like just waking up early is very scary since i have nothing to do….. I’m just left with my miserable thoughts and nothing really interests me at all…. All the energy I reserve from socialising just makes me unrest, uncomfortable, confused and eventually exhausted again. Passing merely a day can be so hard for me was never on my wishlist lol….. I’ve few hobbies but that too required for me to break through the social anxiety and I’m noo good at that

I thought I’ll sleep today because i haven’t had a sleep since two days and i even played football so that i get tired and go to bed early and i did so…. But it’s been 2 hours I’m rolling on the bed looll….i don’t want any “oohh go visit a doctor” what i need the most is a good and kind company….. race, caste, religion, gender doesn’t matter to me

You see when i say I’m alone doesn’t automatically makes me lonely but when sudden waves of depression hits, usually when i see mirror or remember my past or even present when i know im being passive and doesn’t live upto my expectations. That wave makes me question my worth, my life choices, my low self esteem. I’m having a rough time dealing with it. I don’t know what to do and how to do. I just want to live at peace man it’s way too much. I am open to friendships but it doesn’t work because my shortcomings…. Yes i take up the blame. I can’t hold it.

When it comes to guys they have to obey even if they are uncomfortable removing their clothes or even with so many touches. But my mam today after attendance said all the boys to go out and she atleast talked to all the girls of the class for 10 minutes saying that they should say NO even if other teachers chose girls to be a model ….. everything fine by now but she also added that they (girls) should have standards and should not let boys to even practice on girl and mam says that she has to compromise her morals to touch boys in order to educate a class.

I’m looking for consistent friendships. I don’t know exactly what i want and i am super confused. If anyone feels the same or understand my situation. Let’s have a chat!!!!

If we vibe we are friends…. SIMPLE

Feeling very confused, i don’t know what i want but consistent friendship might help me.

Was feeling kinda lonely. There is this thing like depressive episodes? Yeah I’m consistent with it and would like to connect with some cool people irrespective of their gender but should be atleast 18+

Feeling kinda lost and some company would help