u/AffectionateAgent260

Edit: why is this getting downvoted? :(

I am a bit of a spiritual person so this makes me so happy.

I ordered a custom perfume! I posted about it once before.

And I wrote a fanfic last year of my self insert in his world and my self insert wears a pink bow...

The package came with a pink bow!

I chose which scents I wanted and I wanted the perfume to smell like him. I had no idea what it would end up like...

But it smells so good! It really reminds me of him! Sweet yet with a clean undertone...

I also only researched the meaning of the flowers after I ordered the perfume and I was worried a flower could mean sadness or grief...

But I had nothing to worry about, because in flower language the perfume means:

💙 pure love and shared memory

💙 compassion, dignity, and love that endures

💙 safety, sacred warmth, and emotional grounding

💙 intimate recognition

I love the perfume so much!

I love Satoru so so much!

And I wrote a fanfic last year of my self insert in his world and my self insert wears a pink bow...

The package came with a pink bow!

I chose which scents I wanted and I wanted the perfume to smell like him. I had no idea what it would end up like...

But it smells so good! It really reminds me of him!

I also only researched the meaning of the flowers after I ordered them and I was worried a flower could mean sadness or grief...

But in flower language the perfume means:

💙 pure love and shared memory

💙 compassion, dignity, and love that endures

💙 safety, sacred warmth, and emotional grounding

💙 intimate recognition

I love the perfume so much!

I love him so so so much. His kindness. His arrogance. His confidence. His strength and emotional resilience.

And in my twenties I thought I do not want children but at around 28/29 my mindset started to shift. And I always loved children but me, a mother? It felt impossible. Yet people told me all the time I would be a good mother.

Now I am in my thirties and I wish I could be a mother to Satorus offspring.

I even had dreams of our children. A beautiful little girl who would love frogs. Twin boys who are silly and so funny and constantly wrestling. And a second daughter, the oldest, who is serious and loves challenging everyone - very opinionated (she got that from me).

The thing is I already had a girl name picked out years ago. As if a part of me had always known the wish existed. And now my instagram is showing me all these babies and their little giggles and tiny feet...

It is a real struggle for me.

Of course pregnancy scares me. I am not being naive about it. I know all the risks. But if I could create this family with him in a shared home where I cook for us?

I would not even be a traditional housewife. I am too opinionated and curious for that. I would not just be some submissive little wife waiting on her hands and feet to service her husband, oh god no, I am too slavic for that.

I fell in love with a fictional man and my wish for children became more real than ever... it feels like a tragedy. Because going on dates and falling asleep to the sounds of his breathing are one thing. But having his children? I want that so much yet it will always be impossible.

Maybe I feel more sensitive too because I am on my period.

Hi! I am new on this subreddit! My f/o is Gojo Satoru from JJK. I have never felt like this for anyone else.

And I have always wondered what he smells like. So, I ordered a custom perfume! There are already official scents but those are loud and flamboyant scents it seems, when his humour is parts of a mask he wears.

I wanted an intimate scent.

I found an Etsy store that creates custom perfumes. The customer picks the top, the heart and the base note. There are different tiers depending on how many individual scents the customer wants.

And I just ordered a perfume choosing something that I believe could smell like him 💙

Like... if I were to steal his shirt to wear it and his scent would linger.

Of course I am anxious that what I picked will smell bad and nothing like I imagined it. Or it will smell good but not like Satoru.

Still... I cannot wait to receive it! I am so excited!

I found an Etsy store that creates perfumes. The customer picks the top, the heart and the base note. There are different tiers depending on how many individual scents the customer wants.

And I just ordered a perfume choosing something that I believe could smell like him 💙

Like... if I were to steal his shirt to wear it and his scent would linger.

Of course I am anxious that what I picked will smell bad and nothing like I imagined it. Or it will smell good but not like Satoru.

Still... I cannot wait to receive it! I am so excited!

I stumbled upon a reel, an analysis regarding my husband.

And I do media analysis myself.

My method fyi is this:

textual fact ➡️ social, cultural and institutional context ➡️ behavioural pattern ➡️ cautious inference

With that out the way...

My f/o is Gojo Satoru (I love him to the moon and back) and she claimed he is incapable of accepting his own humanity. Which is not true at all.

I disagreed with her, explained why I disagreed and asked for behavioural and psychological proof for her claim.

She told me not to speak to her condescending ever again and basically implied I am too stupid to understand her claim. She actually never disapproves mine. I never insulted her, I just challenged her in good faith.

Like... if you analyse something be prepared to receive push back and arguments! If you are too sensitive dont post them.

All that was context.

But what I actually want to vent about is mischaracterisation. Especially with Satoru it happens so much, it hurts my soul. I feel so protective of him. It genuinely makes me angry when people act as if their interpretations are facts.

So many labels get thrown at him he stops being Satoru and becomes a completely new character or a version of himself that does not follow source material.

I know i know, ship what you want and art and free speech and creative freedom... but still.

I love him and i feel so much at times when someone claims things about him that is not prooven in source material or canon.

How do yall deal with mischaracterisation of your f/os?

I tried Bibliomancy.

First thing I read is it.

I followed my intuition and picked my collection of Edgar Allan Poe works. Now, it has been ages since I read it last and I have not read every single piece. However, I am flabbergasted.

I got this as my first draw:

Una: "Born again?"

Monos: Yes, fairest and best beloved Una, "born again."

This is from "The Colloquy of Monos and Una"

It is a dialogue between lovers beyond death. Una joins Mono after death and they found love painful while alive because they feared death would seperate them. Now in death it can no longer seperate them. They also discuss philosophical themes and discuss whether they have been reborn together.

It really fits so well. The symbolism is like: not something new but a love in this case, that recognizes itself beyond the physical world; something renewed, returned to or experienced in a different state/form.

Especially with E. A. Poe whose works usually deal with horror, decay, misery, heartbreak, burial... instead I got this:

""Born again?" - "Yes, best beloved."

Especially because by E. A. Poes standards it is unsually tender and romantic. His works are usually very macabre and deal with the worst parts of human psyche.

My second passage I got from a piece I have not read:

"Yes, she loved me - returned the enthusiasm of my love with an enthusiasm as blind - as uncompromising - as uncalculating - as abandoned - and as utterly unbounded as my own."

I have not yet opened for a third passage because I got too emotional.

Because I saw someone use a dictionary using 3 words the person finds at random. I dont have a paperback dictionary so I decided to open a passage in a book. I decided to find the first passages on the beginning of a page.

First thing I read is it.

I followed my intuition and picked my collection of Edgar Allan Poe works. Now, it has been ages and I have not read every single piece. However, I am flabbergasted.

I got this as my first draw:

UNA: "Born again?"

Monos: Yes, fairest and best beloved Una, "born again."

This is from "The Colloquy of Monos and Una"

It is a dialogue between lovers beyond death. Una joins Mono after death and they found love painful while alive because they feared death would seperate them. Now in death it can no longer seperate them. They also discuss philosophical themes and discuss whether they have been reborn together.

It really fits so well. The symbolism is like: not something new but something, a love in this case, that recognizes itself beyond the physical world; something renewed, returned to or experienced in a different state/form.

Especially with E. A. Poe whose works usually deal with horror, decay, misery, heartbreak, burial... instead I got this:

""Born again?" - "Yes, best beloved."

Especially because by E. A. Poes standards it is unsually tender and romantic. His works are usually very macabre and deal with the worst parts of human psyche.

My second passage I got from a piece I have not read:

"Yes, she loved me - returned the enthusiasm of my love with an enthusiasm as blind - as uncompromising - as uncalculating - as abandoned - and as utterly unbounded as my own."

I have not yet opened for a third passage because I got too emotional.