u/Aggressive-Rub79

Going to list some of my symptoms around 11 months after

No interest in anything
No motivation for anything
Unable to work
Constant fatigue in eyes
Paranoia going out
When I go out I don’t know where I should be or what I should be doing with myself
No energy for anything
Don’t want to be around people as i don’t know what to tell them
Head always feels fuzzy
Walking around feel horrible with little energy
Can’t understand basic things which use to be easy
Confused a lot about basic tasks
Writing this is taking a lot of mental energy .
The list is endless

Any scans that can detect damage ?

I had ect last year 7 sessions

I feel it’s turned me into a walking zombie .

I no longer work and am on benefits .

My whole life has been destroyed

Going out in public is hard .

I don’t know what I should be doing or where I should be when I go out .

I have no joy in anything .

I feel stupid

Can quitting long term anabolics affect the eyes ? 8-9 years b&c

Eyes feels strained and skin around eyes has changed

I’ve lost my job my car and my flat I’m living with my parents in fear everyday .

I have so many things I don’t understand .

I don’t even look the same I look so unwell

I don’t know how to get over this ….. everything seems like a massive task

Is this possible ? I don’t feel anything , I don’t leave the house , I don’t know where I should be , I zone out a lot , everyday in the same , I don’t see or hear things . But I feel like I have no empathy for anyone or anything ? Every day feels like terror

As above

I struggle with basic tasks and feel no pleasure in anything

I have bad paranoia leaving the house I feel like I’m being watched in the back garden . I have no energy for anything . I can’t even walk down the road without feeling tired and paranoid . I also feel like everything is sped up . I get very confused when I go out and don’t know where or what I should do . I don’t post on social media anymore because I have nothing to post . I see some shadowy men walk past the window the other day . All I want to do is get through to the evening when I sleep I’m living with my parents and can’t even be around them I have to sit in my room . I feel like I’ve gone completely mad . Walking is becoming difficult I feel like I have no energy . I can hardly eat and don’t enjoy it . I’m even paranoid about mental health people trying to help me . I feel afraid of everything

How bad can it feel if you was using long term ?????

I quit using steroids after 9 years my test is 10nmol after 9 months would this be causing severe depression.

I lost everything and am now housebound with chronic anxiety . Is there anything I can take or do to calm my self down . I can’t go out or see anyone

Has anyone become housebound after ect ? I seem to be afraid of going anywhere now and seeing people I use to know ? I’ve also lost all interest in everything . I struggle to eat and cook and do basic tasks

Why have I become afraid of everything ? Seeing people I know ? Not wanting to leave the house ? Feeling unsafe in myself ?

Came off last year

Was on for around 9 years

Test is 10

E2 100

Lh 1.7

Fsh 2.4

Been around 10 months since I come off

Guessing these levels ain’t going to budge now

How do you stop chronic anxiety ?

I lost everything at the beginning of the year and had ect treatment which didn’t work

I was on benzos for 5 months and have tapered off them.

Sertraline done nothing for me .

I’ve become isolated I struggle with basic tasks .

If I go out which is rare now I have ptsd symptoms

Have a lot of shame in myself about how my life was and now how it’s turned out .

Had to move back in with parents

I also have a son who I love but it’s so f hard to see him as I struggle so badly with all my issues .

I’ve become very paranoid about my face which has changed massively you can see in my eyes I don’t look normal and my eyelids have become hooded .

A lot of people know what’s happened to me and it makes me feel awful in myself .

I feel like a complete shell of the person I use to be .

How are you supposed to function when you can’t even speak to people because you have nothing to talk about .